the point isn’t getting my wish (though cool things have emerged from wishing), it’s learning about my relationship with wanting, accessing the qualities…
wanting can be hard, it is easy to feel conflicted about it, and the reasons for that make this a surprisingly subversive practice…
this is the 378th week of wishing, come play!
a list of wishes
- I want to skip stones to learn what I know about making space delicious. What would be delicious business space for me? I mean, I used to own an imaginary chocolate shop, and I ran two decidedly non-imaginary retreat centers, which embodied delicious space, and I used to be a yoga teacher once upon a time, which is all about delicious internal space. Surely I can find an answer…
- new job: what is it and when does it begin?
- what is the best (let best = simple, immediate, clear, doable) solution for the building fund?
- what is here for me by the bay? / what is here for me on-and-down the road?
- what would tara do (the guest star on Leverage) and what does it mean to be a guest star, in all senses of the word star and guest?
- in 23 weeks which is a significant amount of weeks for me, we will arrive at 400 wishes, 450 chickens, 12 years of this business, and my 40th birthday: by the time we get there, I need to either transform/reconfigure this space into something sustainable that is a fair thing to model to the world, or let it go with a loving and thankful heart and find out what is next for me
- I don’t need to know what is next, but I want a star to steer towards, right now I know that I care a lot about my legacy, I care about the work of self-fluency and very interior design, I care a lot about the community, and I am not willing to model to the world something that doesn’t work.
- a very good rabbit hole for me right now is the life of Norma Kamali, I would like to investigate this more!
- it isn’t fair to the clandestine campers if movie hour is canceled because Timmy threw a rock through the window, but also circumstances mean there’s no way to watch the movie, so on behalf of the camp director I am requesting a very fun and playful solution to this, something so good that no one minds about not having movie hour, like maybe there are cupcakes instead or an extra long and luscious nap time, we are receptive to many beautiful ways this could work out to everyone’s benefit!
- more balance play / think like a dancer / I don’t need to tell the story
- clues to investigate: trust the diamond / solved by being spanish / dipper and crown / letting it be light
centered
everything that happened in September
(the month of INTENTION and I Am So Very Clear)
brought me here, both to this new clarity about my yes,
now I am ready to learn about my center
and possibly also the center that houses my business
as I investigate delicious space
last week’s wishes
last-week-me wished a wish called welcome to center
and it brought me here
this was a good wish for me
invitation: come play with me…
you are invited to share this post and to share many !!!!!! about what is here,
or share appreciation or anything sparked for you while reading
deposit wishes, gwishes, superpowers, qualities, ingredients, intel, possibly in code
safe space for creative exploration asks us to let go of care-taking and advice-giving
wishes are never late because whenever you wish is the right time for wishing
here’s how we meet each other’s wishes: oh, wow what beautiful wishes
♡
Follow
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Clews and ingredients:
A bowl I made 29 years ago, currently filled with white rose petals.
Rose Hashanah.
Giant rose in the middle of Sister Right Sarong’s rainbow-tulle mantilla.
Mmmmm yes! <3
“transform/reconfigure this space into something sustainable that is a fair thing to model to the world, or let it go with a loving and thankful heart and find out what is next for me”
Havi, I send so much support for this mission.
Also, whenever you vaguely/obliquely reference witchiness, I want to know more. A clue for me, and perhaps for you, too.
With love, trust, and a sense of possibility, to whatever’s next!
Thank you, my love! <3
Making space delicious!
Mmmmmmmmm!
So many <3!!s for this post. wow, what beautiful wishes!
And yes, I almost forgot:
Here are some slices of delicious space cake for all who would like some. Of course, the cake consists only of your favourite ingredients. My particular piece is made of star-dust, thrill and hope.
<3
Star-dust, thrill and hope!! <3 <3 <3
<3 <3 <3
Delicious space! Time And Relative Dimensions In Space!
I’m still working on the Living By Love Not Guilt thing. I cleared out all the Guilt partitions, and now I’m a bit scared of the space that’s left behind. I want to be open to love, I want space to be delicious, I want to see the next step.
<3
:picks a couple of small guilt partitions out of the dumpster and brings them home where they are needed:
:leaves some good stuff behind:
i have been fighting with the word ‘business’
(i do not want to be fighting but i have not yet got to the point of play)
for me it is all about busy-ness
& business suits
& a Master of Business Administration of which the only word i like is ‘of’
& i do not know what word i want to use instead
but this got me thining about it again
i believe that i will sit
& think about what qualities i want my
(business/occupation/job these are all not the word that i want)
to embody
likely that will help
in the meantime i will go chuk logs over the fence
winter is coming in a nonmetaphorical way
this will help keep me warm
now & also later when there is fire in the hearth
perhaps this is also a Clew
Love for everyone’s wishes.
What I wish for myself this week. An ability to surrender, to stop *trying so hard*, to just find pleasure wherever I can, and let the answers reveal themselves.
Best wish ever. MAY IT BE SO! <3
These are beautiful wishes! And a nap instead of movie hour sounds like a wonderful solution to what might have been a problem. Plus, there are probably blankets and pillows around for movie hour anyway, so the campers will be well prepared for the change.
What do I want?
I’m experimenting with turning painful scenes into rock/rap operas a al Hamilton. Like a fight I had with a friend. A loud one. In public. And it made me mad and sad. But now I am thinking of turning it into a scene and that helps. So I want words to fall in my head and then out of it.
Also, I’m feeling suffocated by a friend. (The wife of the aforementioned friend.) I don’t like that. I want to feel free in this friendship. I want her to feel free in it. The last time this happened I cut her out without a word and I don’t want to do that. a breath for space and freedom. A breath for all of our Stuff.
And more time hanging out with people i love on beds that feel like clouds.
Quietly throwing a few qualities into the pot for this week…
*Clarity
*Ease
*Play
*Kindness
* <3 * <3 * <3 *