Personal ads. They’re … personal! Very.
Each week I write these VPAs to practice asking for what I want. And to get clarity on what that really is, even when asking feels conflicted.
I always get useful information about my relationship with various aspects of the ask. Join in if you like!
One hundred weeks in a row! I can’t believe we’ve made it this far.
Thank you to all the many, many people who have planted their gwishes here.
Thing 1: More Shiva Nata roller derby classes!
Here’s what I want:
I had such a blast doing a training and then some pre-bout warm-ups for Guns N Rollers this season. And seeing the results.
So we’ve been talking about me leading some agility, endurance and EXTREME coordination trainings (aka Shiva Nata is the bomb) for them this summer.
I’d also like to run some trainings for the all star team. And for the junior rosebuds.
See how my Giant Secret Gwish of working with the Timbers has planted unlikely seeds?
Ways this could work:
It just could.
Calendar conflicts could sort themselves out. Perfect simple solutions could emerge.
The excitement, power, enthusiasm and energy could just be there, and then things could whoosh into place instead of having to make things happen.
My commitment.
To keep flailing the flail, cheering my head off and offering support in whatever ways I can.
Also depositing here another super secret gwish: to involve some derby girls in my shivanautical dvdβ¦
Thing 2: the just-right gym bag
Here’s what I want:
A convenient, lightweight, lovely gym bag that has a separate compartment for shoes.
And a place to put a water bottle.
Ideally something without big logos all over it.
Are you out there? I hope so.
Ways this could work:
I already asked at the local pub aka Twitter. And yeah, this looks kind of great except for the water bottle thing which is important because otherwise I forget my water bottle.
So. I’m asking you guys.
And I can also ask at the Frolicsome Bar (that’s what we call facebook to make it sound less depressing).
My commitment.
To be happy when we find each other. And to make do in a variety of creative ways until that happens.
Thing 3: movement on the Shiva Nata iPhone app
Here’s what I want:
The situation is this:
The Shiva Nata iPhone app is done but it’s caught up in one of Apple’s many departments and we can’t seem to get them to move on it.
This is getting to be completely absurd. Movement! Please!
Ways this could work:
I don’t know.
Just putting out the ask.
My commitment.
To keep dancing it up and being receptive to this working out in a variety of ways.
Thing 4: lots of walking
Here’s what I want:
I haven’t been walking nearly as much since Svevo left town.
It would be lovely to get back into the moving. See, it’s all about moving this week.
Ways this could work:
The roses could pull me in the right direction.
My commitment.
To wander and explore.
Thing 5: celebration and recognition for sticking with the Very Personal ads for one hundred weeks running
Here’s what I want:
Cheering, rejoicing, sparklepoints and exclamation points.
When I started this practice back in July 2009, I had no idea how amazing this weekly thing would end up becoming.
I had no way of imagining just how many people would end up using this space to make connections with each other, hook up in various collaborative ways and help each other out.
It’s part picnic, part book club, part support group, part ritual. And it’s beautiful.
And I have so much love for everyone who has taken part in this in any form (even if you think your wishes to yourself and don’t share them here).
So I’d like a celebration.
Ways this could work:
We could cheer and rejoice here. Or maybe you have stories of neat things that have happened thanks to the VPAs.
Or maybe people have other ideas about ways to celebrate as well.
My commitment.
To keep this up for another one hundred weeks!
Progress report on past Very Personal Ads.
Just to update you on what’s happened since last time.
I wanted implementation of ideas and that mostly happened.
Then I wanted to help someone out and didn’t know how. And this is an interesting one.
Let’s just say I did what I could do on that. Possibly also slightly beyond what I should have done, but I learned (re-learned?) a useful lesson about not shepherding, and letting people do what they need to do.
Next I wanted FOCUS, and while it took its sweet time getting here, when it finally showed up it was everything I’d hoped for and more.
The last piece was about un-obsessing an obsession, and — to be honest — I really didn’t think it would work. How do you un-obsess an obsession?!
But you know what? It happened. I am still actively engaged with this thing but it’s no longer taking over my consciousness. Thank you.
Comment zen. Here’s what I’d love today.
Your own personal ads, small or large. Things you’ve asked for. Or are asking for. Or would like to ask for. Or updates on last time!
Stuff I’d rather not have:
The word “manifest”. To be told how I should be asking for things. To be judged, psychoanalyzed or given unsolicited advice.
Much love for your gwishes! So happy to have you doing this with me.
Millions of sparklepoints for the 100th Week of VPAs! That’s super impressive. Sooooper impressive. (*Soup* er impressive? Hmmm…that wasn’t funny, was it?)
Also, I am totally beyond thrilled by the idea of a sports team (especially an awesome roller derby one) with Shiva Nata on its side. So glad this is becoming a thing!
What do I want?
1. Some patience and acceptance for where I am
– Less of the “ack they’re all doing it so much better,” and more of the “can I have fun with this?”
Ways it could work:
– I could get the f* off the internet. Meaning I probably need to examine (again, for the 1000th time) what the internet is giving me and get it some other way.
– I could get so involved in my thing that I forget all the other things.
– I could write to the spirit of it and make sure we’re staying with the qualities it wants to manifest.
Commitment:
– To go on a walk. To Shiva it up.
2. Perfect Access to Resources
– I need people! Ranging from small things (like someone who can spend 30 seconds talking to me about zip files) to big things (an awesome photographer I can afford).
Ways it could work:
– They could enter my life in easy and lovely ways.
– This new thing I’m doing might yield a lot of people with know-how.
– I could become better at asking for help. Though that’s kind of a scary thought.
Commitment:
– To keep space for it in my heart.
– To question which needs are real and which are stall tactics.
100 VPAs!!!
Cheering! Dancing!
Throwing sparklepoints around wildly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Happy 100th VPA!
I’m so glad this is here every week.
My VPAs are mostly visible only to me, but that doesn’t make them any less magical.
Congratulations! Mwah!
Wow. One hundred of these bad boys. Way to go, Havi.
So I asked for money before. I have more of it due to selling an item or two. What I’m really excited is a result from the prior VPA, where an amazing roommate situation fell right into my lap, seemingly gifted from above. Sweet.
Thing 1:
Daily Meditation: I want to feel closer to God and myself. I know that daily practice will help and the desire is there. Now it’s all about the doing.
Ways This Can Work: Do it upon waking every day, even on those days when I accidentally hit snooze, even if it just means getting in two minutes. For extra bonus points, I’ll pop in the Shiva Nata DVD. There. Two for one deal. I can’t possibly reneg on this, right? *Bites Lip*
Thing 2: Oh, this is a biggie. I have to choreograph my piece for the convention. I’m dancing to a three some odd minute song and I’m starting to regret taking up the offer to do so. I don’t feel like my last few performances were successful, so there’s heavy emotional baggage following me around right now.
Ways This Can Work: Choreograph a little every day for the next two weeks. Figure out how to write choreography while in my car, since that seems to be when all the great ideas seem to come to me. Maybe I should think about why it feels natural while driving. Is it because there’s less pressure? A change of environment? I don’t know, but it’s a power that I want to harness desperately so I can be as prepared as possible for the show that’s now in less than two weeks.
If any fellow dancers have any insight into this strange phenomenon, please feel free to share. Much love for everyone’s VPAs and Gwishes!
I want my quilt back.
I took my quilts over to my friend’s house to be delivered today and one of them didn’t make it. A $7500 one. I am beyond frantic.
Send good vibes.
Congratulations! 100 is quite a milestone! <>
In celebration I place my first Very Personal Ad-
Here’s what I want:
12 people to beta-test my new product (one of them in trade for web services).
Ways this could work:
It just could.
I can share my excitement for the impact it will make for the positive, self-aware, life-affirming creative people I love to serve well.
My current clients can share about it for me.
I can suck it up and send out a specific solicitation to my list.
My commitment:
To stay engaged in the wonder. To courageously ask for what I want.
Wow! That is a very personal ad. I feel a frisson of excitement already.
Let’s celebrate commitment to the process & ever present joy!
Havi, I totally celebrate the VPA. Asking and allowing ourselves to ask…what a gift to us all.
So…I need to stop moving twice a year. The move is related to school systems and my children’s education…so we need to move towns permanently. That is my ask.
Ways this could work:
We could sell our house and have the money to build a house in the other town.
OR
We could find a long-term rental for us and long-term renters for our house.
OR
We could find a house that needs us…and we will accept.
Commitment:
-I will be open to the possibilities – all of them.
-I will be brave enough to ask the people who may be able to help.
-I will not allow the pressure of the situation to gain the power to make me make a bad decision.
-I will breathe through the hard and try to understand it.
Thank you for a forum in which I may purposefully ask!
That One Guy is coming over to my new place to pick up his leftover stuff. Today. Sometime between right now and a few hours from now. He’s just coming back from a road trip. I haven’t seen him in over a week, and before he called this morning, I hadn’t talked to him at all. I am a mess of emotions–anxious, excited, sad, angry, and unsure. He’s only going to be here for a minute. I’m sending out an emergency VPA. I’m asking for grace, serenity, and the ability to say whatever it is I need to say. I’m asking to be able to survive the waiting period between now and whenever he shows up. I’m asking for a hug, because I could use one. I’m asking for this to just be a normal(ish) interaction, and not some weird showdown. I’m asking for my paranoia monsters to go relax in the pool (I’ll provide pina coladas, monsters). My commitment: To keep breathing. To go refill my water glass and drink all of it. To not apologize or be defensive. To be kind to myself.
Wow – 100 weeks of VPAs? That’s amazing, Havi! I’m so thankful you’ve created this space for us.
What I want:
That certain magic number of right people to register for my upcoming Thing-Finding Course.
Ways this can work:
I could figure out ways to let more of those right people know it’s happening.
The perfect blog posts could come to me. And I’d be able to write them quickly within the limited time I have.
I could find guest posting opportunities.
The perfect, simple solutions could drop into my lap.
Magic.
My commitment:
To continue to do Shiva Nata on this.
To continue to talk and connect with the course.
To be open to the opportunities that show up.
To ask my friends for help and ideas.
100 weeks of VPAs, woo! Congratulations all ’round.
This week, I totally want to get cleared for exercise at my post-op follow-up appointment. I miss my little version of old Turkish lady yoga, shiva nata, and walking. Also to feel better so I actually feel like doing them again would be awesome.
How/Commitment: Rock the rest until my appointment on Thursday, keep following my instructions, and don’t push myself too hard too fast. Maintaining patience would seem to be key here.
Also to look at more pictures and videos of Japanese cat Maru who raises my spirits with amusement.
Andi: I’d be beside myself. Sending good vibes.
kaleena: maybe things come to you in the car because you’re isolated/protected? Like in a blanket fort with windows?
rhiannon: “keep space for it in my heart”. Nicely put. I need to do that too. Maybe some things aren’t happening for me because there’s no space for them.
When we have soup for supper, we call it “souper”. I fix a special souper when we have something to celebrate.
Havi: ***********************************************************
That row of asterisks represents sparklepoints.
Also: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Also: Yay hurray! Yay hurray! Yay hurray!
I had a foster child whose name rhymed with “Yay hurray” and I used to celebrate with him, pumping his little arms (he was a baby), and saying “Yay hurray” and his name. He’d laugh and laugh. So my favorite way to celebrate something is to say “Yay hurray!” It brings back good memories and good feelings.
What I want:
What I want:
Ease and flow, more yay! and less ack! ick! and euw.
To restore my disrupted routines and keep them even when Iβm travelling.
To remember to do things before they become a stress!
How this could work:
Write everything down.
Practice extreme self care (per Christine Kane at http://christinekane.com/blog/the-business-travelers-guide-to-unwavering-happiness/ — sorry, I donβt know how to embed a link in a comment.)
Be mindful and planful, or at least plannish.
Report on previous VPAs: Last week I wanted βlove and houseworkβ, and I did both. I loved my home and did housework. My VPAs often have to do with this. Obviously itβs very important to me. My second VPA was about βlooking back and moving forwardβ, with clarity, understanding, and love. Clarity is such a big thing. Makes me wonder if Iβve got a fuzzy brain. And yes, I did review VPAs and figure some things out.
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Sparklepoints for everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Love.
Wow, 100! Amazing. Fabulous. Confetti and champagne all around!
Sparklepoints and sparkletinis!
I love the space to VPA. It makes me think about my week and what I want and then to move my feet and hands in that direction, or to just shift my soul there.
I’m just going to let all my VPAs from last week stand, and wish that all beings are happy and free.
100 VPAs! Beautiful! I’m sending sparkle points and pixie dust and Heinzelmannchen handclaps.
Oh, and I think I must have celebrated today by doing a lightning-quick VPA that was achieved almost before I had time to realize what I was doing:
What I wanted: To go to Berkeley Springs this afternoon. Even though it’s just a little too far away to just up and go there on impulse.
How it happened: Sovereignty, baby! I decided to go. I told my family, “I’m going out for my artist date. Anyone need anything while I’m out?” I got in the car. I drove to Berkeley Springs. It took a little over an hour to get there, I spent a little over an hour wandering around and making cool discoveries (an art display in the park! a wedding quietly taking place under the gazebo, right there in the midst of everything!) and took a couple of hours driving home, running a couple of errands along the way. And it was lovely. Glorrrious, even!
My commitment: To honor the weekly artist date. To recognize that I have this long-established positive pattern of taking a solitary festive outing.
Yay! I am grateful to myself, and to you, Havi, and to all my fellow gwishcrafters!
Much rejoicing over here!
@Andi: sending lots of good vibes.
What I want: For the perfect solution to present itself, with ease and swiftness.
Unfortunately, I am losing optimism that the perfect solution (in my mind) will come to pass, and I am afraid that the only other solution (again, in my mind) will result in bitterness.
How it could happen: My perfect solution could happen. A perfect solution that I had not considered could present itself. The alternative option could occur with good feelings all around. Magic!
My commitment: I will continue to do the work in the soft. I will put the wish out into the universe. I will rejoice for the solution when it arrives. I will remain open to magic.
I produce apps and am pretty familiar with the apple process. Let me know if I can help or advise… Am really looking forward to your app!
For this week, what I want:
A big finish for this year before my birthday coming up. I’m hoping that looks like:
1) some Netsach/focus/stamina so I can make progress on work and relax during Shavuot and my birthday.
2) movement! Some walking and biking to get the bod moving
I somehow managed to misread that as “When I started this parade back in July 2009”. I want to be in a VPA Parade! π
What I want this week:
To keep brainstorming and doodling and writing and thinking about my art even though I’ll be in the middle of all this corporate foofaraw for three days in a row.
Ways this could work:
Outlines in my notebook are almost indistinguishable from Serious Business Conference writing.
Evening winding-down time?
I’m not entirely sure.
My commitment:
To notice the small moments where I can mentally step away and think of other worlds. To carry my notebook and pens with me. To not get all discouraged by the mundanity of the people around me, and keep an eye out for the ones who are more my sort of person. And if I feel creatively-stifled, to give myself permission to set the Project aside until I’m home again.
Yay, yay for you and your ONE HUNDRED VPAs! *joins the parade*
Andi, good vibes for the return of your quilt <3 And Whitney, oh, **hug**.
Hooray for 100 weeks! That deserves a bajillion sparklepoints like noiseless, sparkly fireworks bursting all around!!
I’ve fallen out of the Chicken and VPA habits, but this week I’ll do two little ones:
I’d like to keep this sense of ease and flow, while still getting stuff done and keeping my head above water. This year has had very few frantic days and lot of quiet, peaceful days full of art and cooking and other good stuff, and I’d just like to make sure I keep up with the work-that-pays well enough that my clients keep loving me and sending me checks.
Also, I’d like to sell art to someone who really loves it. One piece that speaks to someone enough to hit the buy button would make a big difference in my week, my month, my smiles for the year. I love the work I’ve been doing lately, and I’d love to send some of it to a good home!
Thanks once again, Havi, for having this wonderful space. In some ways it feels like you’re the keeper of the comfort zone, because I can always slip back here when I’m feeling pushed and remember that it’s okay to settle in and just be, and let the pushing-energy strengthen my force field while I go with my own flow.
Sparklpoints! Sparklepoints! Endless points of light and sparkle and glitter and joy for 100 weeks of gwishing!!!
100 weeks! Wow. Here’s to 101 π
My gwish for this week is that I’m finally able to let go and submit my play. And feel good about it. I have to let my tiny little precious thing go into the world and do its work and I DON’T WANT TO.
Good thoughts to all! x
Re gym bag: Google “gym bag with separate shoe compartment” to get quite a few choices, such as http://www.endurancebags.com/bags/. (It comes in black and blue as well as orange; note water bottle holder). Good luck!
Ah, thank you! Thank you for making and holding the space for these ads. My VPA this week is very deeply desired:
A vacation that includes glamour rest shopping ease food beauty sex novelty ravishment.
Ways this could work: could be New York. Could be Boulder. Could be Paris. Could be Florence. Could be Provincetown. Could even be Seattle. Could look at the calendar and simply pick a date and pay so that it would be hard to back out of.
My commitment: to work with my friend this weekend looking at why – practically alone of everyone I know – I manage never to have time to travel and relax.
Yayyy for 100 weeks!
You inspire me so much and model asking so beautifully.
After much complicated monster talk I finally allowed myself to start VPAing on my blog.
Yayayay! It’s a sparklepoint parade : )
xx
100 – yay!
I hope you find your quilt Andi – sending finding vibes.
What I want:
to be okay with however my last days at this job (15) turn out to be I’ve been here 18 years and I had a dream last night that I didn’t want to go to the dentist because I didn’t want to have my tooth extracted. Hmmm……
How this could work:
I could do tons of Yoga
Havi, I’m in love with Yin yoga a la Grilley – thank you!
Comitment: To keep allowing and letting myself feel whatever it is.
What I want:
Support around the scared about what happens next.
How this could work:
I could ask.
I just did.
I could ask specific people.
I could dance and play about it avlot.
Commitment:
To doing whatever I need
Yay!! 100 VPAs!!!
Rhiannon: There is a scientific explanation for good ideas coming in the car. I’m likely going to botch the explanation but I’ll try anyway. When you do something repetitively, like driving the car, it’s something your brain knows how to do. It doesn’t require quite as much focus (which can be bad, Bad, BAD) but it’s also why you get really good ideas in the car or washing your hair. Do you have any other hobbies or activities that you do that don’t require tons of focus? I knit, so a nice garter stitch is a way to engage my hands and part of the monkey brain and let other ideas come.
Now for my first VPA, ever.
What I want:
Motivation to exercise. I come home very tired and have no desire to exercise. I just want to sit on the couch and watch t.v.
Ways this can work:
-Remind myself how good I feel after I exercise.
-Take my dogs for a long walk once the sun has gone down.
My commitment:
-Not turn on the t.v. when I get home.
-Be kind to myself if I really am too tired.
Yays and sparkles and sparklers and sparkly candes and pretty balloons and confetti!
And thank you for making this space. π
For my first dissertation meeting to go well – for me and my supervisor to find a way around our current problem; to connect well and to put down the roots of a good working relationship; to be clear at the end exactly what my goals are.
Stepping stones:
– review what I’ve already written
– write out what I want to achieve/write
Commitment:
– to be open to her suggestions
– to seize this opportunity
– to be myself
– to be honest about what I want
I’d like a change of scenery for a few days, go and stay somewhere that isn’t here for some rest and relaxation.
Stepping stones:
– ask around see if anyone would have me stay/wants to go away somewhere chilled and cheap
– it could just turn up
– the wonders of the internet – who knows what might turn up?
Commitment:
– to believe that this possible
– to remind myself that it’s ok to need time out
Quilt has been FOUND! Thank you for all your VPA support and well wishes π
@Andi — oh, I’m so glad!
Yay for Sparklepoints and VPAs! I feel so supported here. Thank you.
Tomorrow I go to clean out my labspace at uni and I have lots of stuck and sadness around this so what I am asking is for me to get through it and maybe get some closure.
Ways this could work, I could let my gentleman friend come along as support. I could set something nice and comforting as a reward after doing it.
I commit to staying with the process, to noting how I feel and learning and to taking very good care of myself.
Celebrations!! Hell yeah, rituals and re-memberings! 100 VPA posts deserves many confettis and a sparkler even.
I am standing tree pose for 100 seconds to celebrate. Right…. now.
<3
Happy, happy 100th VPA, Havi! Magical VPA-ing, everyone!
Wow! 100 VPAs go Havi! These help me a lot.
VPA – Still looking for that good sense that I’m heading the right way and where to go with that layoff/SROA notice. We’ll see how things go.
Ways this could work – I can keep trying journalling/drawing/etc to get a better sense of what I want/need and how to achieve it.
Commitment – again to watch out for the fear monsters and try to get myself out there and participate in online communities that i enjoy.
Yay for 100 weeks! Hooray for 100 more!!
Since Last time
So.. I asked for..
Revision (and ease-filled-exams)!
– i sort of got this. they’re over now. no more worrying about them π
This week:
Thing 1: Space and time; a balanced summer
Hereβs what I want:
I’ve got such a packed two months; I kind of forgot half my previous plans and forgot time for myself in the swing of things…
Ways this could work:
-Calendar conflicts could sort themselves out. Perfect simple solutions could emerge.
-Things could whoosh into place instead of having to make things happen.
-I could email the previous-plan people and we could sort out “replacements” as it were.
My commitment.
-To keep dancing.
-To trust.
Thing 2: A Simple Solution for the Masters Courses
Hereβs what I want:
I applied for two courses – neuroscience and clinical psychology…
Neuroscience accepted me; huzzah! back in early april.
Clinical (my preferred on one hand, not preferred on the other..) have yet to reply.
I’m getting a lot of emails saying “you must choose to accept or decline your Neuroscience place” but i cant decide until clinical reply..
Ways this could work:
-Clinical could reply
-Another option?
My commitment.
-To check my emails often
-To have faith
don’t worry too much about the app store. if they haven’t said no, then just noodge them every now and then. we’ve made and sold 3 apps and sometimes the app folk are a bit slow or difficult. it will happen. let them know you have anxious purchasers and that they should tell you if there’s something more you need to do.
once it happens, it’s nifty to see people all over the world with your little square of wonderfulness.
100 VPAs! I remember the very first one . . . it doesn’t seem like that long ago π
Last week I asked for closure with an anonymous situation . . . and I got it! Actually, at first I thought I hadn’t got it, but then it turned out I just hadn’t looked hard enough and actually it was right there in my inbox all along. Anyway!
This week I am gwishing for lots of writing to get done
Ways This Could Happen:
I could divide all my writing tasks into parts so they don’t seem too overwhelming
I could dance around and chant “write first thing in the morning!” until I finally start remembering
I could mix things up – try listening to music while I write, try writing outside, etc.
My Commitment:
Do all those things I just listed π
And trust that it’s not the end of the world if it doesn’t happen
VickiB:
Thank you for that! It’s definitely part of it. You got me thinking and I suspect that what it comes down to is that, in my car, I’m bad. I’m a bad mama-jama. I drive tough. This slightly different persona bobs her head up and down in time to the beat thumping out of the stereo. I am cool…
In my car.
When I’m staring at myself in the mirror, trying to prepare myself to free dance, I freak. Insecurities galore! The ideas don’t come because I’m too busy thinking about how odd I look at that second.
I must combine these two, though emotionally very different, very honest and real people. There’s a kind of beauty in that task. Either way, I’m excited to have somewhere to start. Thank you so much!
And big thanks to Alyson for mentioning the science behind why the brain cooks up rad ideas while driving. I will have to look into it.
So glad that Precious Quilt got found! Yay!
Hugs for Whitney. Huge, giant, squishy hugs.
Sparklepoints to everyone here!!
Cheering wildly for the hundredth VPA! And all 99 that came before it. Such a magical ritual π
What I want: All that time and energy I spent in May thinking about how I should be doing that one thing even though I never actually did it and don’t in fact want to do it — I want that back. And if that’s not possible, I want to learn something from this pattern and stopitalready.
Ways this could happen: I could keep having epiphanies about how everything always works out. (Love that kind.) I could catch myself in the act of worrying and find the chutzpah to fill my time with something more fruitful. And then that could free up new energy that makes up for the wasted energy. Yes.
My commitment: Shiva Nata everyday. (Okay, I already committed to that for a different purpose but it’s not cheating if I fractal flower, right?) Draft something to post somewhere so I can ask for help with the solution that gets me out of the thing I don’t want to be doing.
Happy wishing to all!
Hooray hooray for the 100th VPA! Wheee!
Thanks for all these opportunities, Havi.
Here’s mine after a long hiatus:
Wants:
-To get some productive work done on a needed project this week, including some important phone calls.
-To continue shrub and tree pruning AND get some herbs planted before I go on trips next week and the week after.
Ways this could happen:
-I could write out a schedule and actually follow it!
-I could talk/write to my fear monster about the project.
-I could make appointments with myself to make the phone calls.
My commitment:
-Try all of these. Maybe one or more will work.
-Make sure the schedule spaces the yard work to avoid the worst heat of the day, some work in my basement where it’s cool, and the project so I don’t get overwhelmed.
Hey, everyone, please make some VPAs for me ’cause mine isn’t working!
I wanted “more yay, less ack! ick! and euw” this week. Here it is Monday evening and guess what I’ve got already. Lots of AAACKK!
Specifically, my husband is once again hospitalized. Mysterious medical symptoms with potentially scary causes.
I’m scheduled to go to Rally next week! HE wants me to go! But if this isn’t resolved or under control by Saturday, I won’t even want to leave.
Meanwhile, everything else that I want to work on is kind of left hanging: house, yardwork, creative work, even family and friends.
And send hugs too. I need some right now.
Perhaps a ballet bag? They often have mesh compartments for toe shoes to dry out, and water bottle holders. Many of them come in a basic black, like this one?
http://www.discountdance.com/dancewear/style_A312.html?&pid=421&Shop=Style&SID=252328254
(I carry a small canvas tote bag and just put the soaked pointe shoes on top, and take them out to dry when I get home. But I want one of these.)
100! W00t!
Can’t name all of the great stuff that’s happened since I joined in on the VPAction. Let’s just say “tons” and also, “more, please!”
What I want #1:
Seamless zippity writing tomorrow.
How it might happen:
Uh…pre-rising while sleeping? The writer-shoemaker elves?
My commitment:
To breathe. To show up at the keyboard (and stay off of whatever it is that we’re calling F**ebook.
What I want #2:
Additional seamless zippity action on Current Big Client Project.
How it might happen:
No idea. None. Unless I already know, and don’t know.
My commitment:
To play. To (again) show up/stay off. To WALK and DRINK WATER and SLEEP, regardless.
As for Havi’s gwishes/VPAs, I have an idear of how we might get her walking some more… π
Gym bag water bottle solution – a carabiner clip from REI in favorite – contrasting – color looped over the shoulder strap near bag zippers. A water bottle with a hole in cap or attached cap. See where I’m going with this? The colored carabiner is a visual reminder, and the bottle just clips on and off for easy access. Just an idea. I carry water bottles via carabiner a lot.
@VickiB — Sending a hug, along with love, support, and comfort for the hard things.
Yay! I have been reading these for about 50 weeks but thus far have never posted my own – I feel like a nice, big fat round number celebration post is an auspicious time/post/occasion to post my own and join in all the getting of sparklepoints!
the thing:
to find the next step. and then take it. to have some direction. to elevate from this rut.
Ways this could work:
i could be open to it and ask questions and take some risks and just start and let things fall into place. Or an opportunity could present itself.
My commitment:
To not worry about this. To not panic and feel locked in to a path, because hey, it’s just ONE step. To look for the opportunities and be active. To work hard when I find it. To not settle for less than a good step. To hold the awareness of the questness of this journey in my head and not be obsessed by destinations.