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Each week I write these Visions of Possibility and Anticipation to practice asking for what I want. And to get clarity on what that really is, even when asking feels conflicted.

I always get useful information about my relationship with various aspects of the ask. Join in if you like!

TWO HUNDRED WEEKS of visioning today.

Wow.

We might as well celebrate. Which is convenient, because the last two of my big wishes this week are celebratory ones, and the first one is in need of some of that energy too.

Thing 1. Allowing Emergence to come from Emergency.

The situation. And background.

This week I sat with a scary work emergency and I tried to make it anything but.

I tried letting it be an adventure, an edge, a door.

But in the end I had to surrender to the true sensation of it in my body: it felt like emergency. With the parts that are urgent and vital, scary and painful, overwhelming and disheartening.

And then I noticed that “emergency” holds Emergence, a word I love.

So that’s what I want. I want Emergence to emerge from what felt like a state of emergency.

We put the EMERGENCE in… no, wait, that’s not right, we take the emergence out of emergency. It’s all emergence.

Hilariously, I also noticed this week that Compass is hiding in plain sight right inside of Compassion, a word that I often put into my word-compasses.

What I want.

Emergence. I want emergence.

Miracles to emerge. Perfect simple solutions to reveal themselves. Those moments of grace meets faith meets elegant previously-not-considered option.

And I want to feel what it is like to translate in my body from “oh no this is wrong” to “oh wait, nothing is wrong, this is useful and there are doors everywhere”.

What might help?

• NPH! Naps as portalbridges to [things that start with H].
• Asking for help.
• No, really. Asking out loud.
• Reconfiguring.
• Ask over and over again: What do I need?

Anything else?

I got some intel from (internal) HQ about quitting grad school.

(I’m not in grad school, but I had a dream about quitting grad school, and it’s become kind of a stand-in for what do I need to let go of?)

Basically what I got was that all unsovereign things (relationships, situations, encounters) need to leave. Either I end them or they get ended. Either I quit grad school or grad school kicks me.

So I’m sitting with that. Closing circles where I can. Cutting what I can. Saying thank you about endings instead of seeing them as obstacles.

Remembering that red lights don’t mean something is wrong, they mean refuge.

I’m playing with…

Putting compassion into the compass, and letting the compass have compassion.

Looking for words inside of words.

Feeling all the qualities of emergence:

Trust. Newness. Presence. Beginnings. Resetting. Order. Glow. Right timing.

Thing 2. The BUTTMONSTER COLORING BOOK!

The situation. And background.

I tried to write a page about the brand new and completely incredible buttmonster coloring book, which is my absolute favorite thing in the entire world.

Except what I have to say is:

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!! Squeakitty-squeak! Ohmygod the cuteness it is unbearable.

And even though I watched everyone at last week’s Rally (Rally!) play with the new coloring book while giggling, problem-solving and having mini-epiphanies, I still don’t have anything to say.

I even asked them, and they all went, Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

So that wasn’t helpful at all. 🙂

Also everyone was really into cutting out buttmonster illustrations and gluing them into their notebooks and work stuff for instant cheering up.

What I want.

It’s Plum Duff this week, which means the Buttmonster Coloring Book is for sale, this week only.

Through Toozday night.

I want much rejoicing over the Buttmonster Coloring Book. I want the people who are excited about the wonderful world of these crazy make-everything-better creatures to be united with this coloring book.

I would like little stories about the amazing things that happened at Rally through playing with this new best thing.

What might help?

I am going to give you the link to this.

And I’m going to color in my coloring book.

Anything else?

Look at all these actual buttmonster butts!

I’m playing with…

Living the qualities of buttmonsters:

Playfulness. Glee. Possibility. Delight. Reassurance. Imagination. Calm. Everything-is-okay.

And telling you about the hidden plum duff page (PASSWORD: refuge) so that you can go there and find the buttmonster coloring book and/or adopt buttmonsters!

Trusting that thisis the exact right time for play.

Thing 3. Almost half-price Rally!

The situation. And background.

There is a massive discount on the 2014 Rallies.

This never happens, but it is happening now.

I have been [verb]-ing the magical and extraordinary thing that is Rally (Rally!) for a few years now.

TWENTY FIVE Rallies. That is a lot of Rallying.

I have learned many interesting things, including:

Rally always works. Rally works in unexpected ways, under the surface. Rallying changes how I approach everything in my life. Rallying makes me way better at being me in the world.

Mainly: The way people are after they have rallied (and I get to see this when they come to other rallies) is so remarkably different. People are more patient with themselves, more compassionate, more adventurous and curious in their internal experiments, more steadily calm and grounded, more glowingly beautifully themselves. I believe so hard in the magic of Rally.

We now have three Rallies open in 2014, and I want the people who need them to find them.

What I want.

It is currently Plum Duff (PASSWORD: refuge).

Plum Duff is a very once-in-a-while special thing that we do.

It ends late TUESDAY NIGHT, which is very, very soon.

And during Plum Duff, you can save either $900 or $1000 on Rally in 2014.

Except we call them clues instead of dollars. But still. The clues are very-reduced.

This is a very big deal. We’ve never done this. We’re also retroactively applying this to people who had already signed up for a 2014 Rally.

What might help?

I’m telling you about this now.

I’m playing with…

Rejoicing in Rally through living the qualities of Rally:

Play. Grounding. Possibility. Sovereignty. Freedom. Shelter. Good surprises. Delight.

And telling you about plum duff (PASSWORD: refuge), which is where the sale lives. Until Toozday night.

What else do I want.

Some of these are secret agent code and some are taking a silent retreat on.

Some are qualities and some are dreams. Some are re-asks and some are pre-wishes: tiny seeds for future processing.

• Breathe.
• Easy passage.
• Easy goodbyes.
• A steadiness of purpose.
• Knowing that I have what I need. And if I don’t, I can improvise.
• Good news everywhere!
• Rest into miracles.
• Choosing quiet
• The labyrinth, each day new.
• How many ways are there to quit grad school?
• Hello, sky.
• Coded decoding..
• Preparing for the voyage.
• Safe travels. Easy transitions.
• Ask Barrington.

Repeats from last week.

Either because they’re good ones, or because they need some extra spaciousness.

• Operation Rest Well.
• Respecting the Seven Wells, while remembering that the First Well always comes first.
• Welcome, fears. Come this way. Straight to the hugging room! We have it all set up for you.
• Sweet blissful steadiness.
• Things that need to exit now exit gracefully.

I’m playing with…

Wishing

Progress report on past Very Personal Ads.

Just to update you on what’s happened since last time.

I wanted to do way fewer things, with more presence. This actually worked. I am astonished.

I wanted to love the red lights, and I did. And I wanted NPH and Plum Duff, both of which happened. Also I asked for code and good god, was there code this week. So. Much. Code. Entire conversations in code, it was awesome.

Playing. Shelter for the comments.

What’s welcome: Your own wishes, gwishes, visions and personal ads, small or large. Updates on past ones if you like. Things sparked for your own process.

I’m receptive to warm wishes for the things I’m working on and playing with.

We ask for what we need, and we give each other space and spaciousness for the process.

This is a place of safety for creative play and exploration, with a very non-dogmatic approach. We don’t tell each other how to ask for things and we don’t give unsolicited advice. We play.

That’s it. Let’s throw a bunch of things in the pot!

As always, amnesty applies. Leave a wish here any time you want.

xox