Personal ads. They’re … personal! Very.
Each week I write these Visions of Possibility and Anticipation to practice asking for what I want. And to get clarity on what that really is, even when asking feels conflicted.
I always get useful information about my relationship with various aspects of the ask. Join in if you like!
Going on a mission that requires Bendiness.
The situation. And background.
I’m going to be in Bend, Oregon.
As Bond Girl, of course. LADY BOND. On a secret mission. Is it another diamond caper? Hard to say.
What I want.
To have fun and get the mission done. Without compromising either of these.
To survive the heat.
To rendezvous with Agent D.
To enjoy.
Anything else about this?
There are a number of bits and pieces I’m worried about. Mostly about work stuff, and getting enough work done. But other things.
The location, other people’s (theoretical!) demands on my time and energy, my own lack of ability to establish clear boundaries, the heat, layers of memories from past missions.
I’m noticing some monster worries, and some LFPs (Ludicrous Fear Popcorn).
The qualities inside of the wants:
Flexibility, of course. It is the essence of BEND.
Hahahaha. Bend jokes.
Flexibility. Trust. Quiet. Steadiness. Calm. Balance. Passion. Pleasure.
And as a superpower, my old friend, the power of saying no to everything, graciously, with majestic glowing boundaries.
What might help?
- I can have a sankalpa, an intention for this Bend time.
- I can be a bell of flexibility.
- I can literally bend. Myself and other things.
- I can bond with bending. Bend into bonding. Be a bond about bendiness.
- Yoga, obviously.
- Dancing it out.
- Building safe rooms.
- Talking it out with the monsters, using the help of a seasoned internal negotiator.
- Asking slightly-wiser-me for help.
- Remembering all the things I love about Bend. The river walk. The river. The mountains. The beer. Agent D. And getting excited about the new beautiful things I will discover and experience.
Hahahaha I just remembered that the main street in Bend is Bond.
Anything else?
Eight slow sweet breaths of steadiness.
I’m playing with…
Skipping some stones.
What I want.
Some of these are secret agent code or silent retreat. Some are qualities and some are dreams. Some are re-asks and some are pre-wishes: tiny seeds for future processing.
- Steadiness.
- Mini-epiphanies.
- Time with Meirav.
- I am pleasantly surprised by EVERY ASPECT of this.
- Good news, from all corners.
- This moment is a miracle too.
- Silent retreat solves all the challenges.
- There is enough time for this.
- It’s like a mini-SHBOTW!
Repeats.
They’re that good!
- Rest into miracles.
- Ahahaha I am an accidental genius! SOLVED.
- What do I need? What do I want?
- Things that need to exit now exit gracefully.
- Things that need to come in now are received with love.
The qualities inside of the wants:
Trust. Treasure. Steadiness. Ground. Love. Heart. Miracles. Readiness.
And the superpower of everything I need to know is revealed to me.
I’m playing with…
Mapping and napping.
Progress report on past Very Personal Ads.
So. Last week, aka San Miguel.
I spent all week investigating the mystery of San Miguel, and learned all kinds of useful and interesting things. Fountains and islands. Clues and more clues. The Floop gave me lots of ideas too. Very hopeful about this. Thank you, everyone who helped!
Playing. Shelter for the comments.
What’s welcome: Your own wishes, gwishes, visions and personal ads, small or large. Updates on past ones if you like. Things sparked for your own process.
I’m receptive to warm wishes for the things I’m working on and playing with.
We ask for what we need, and we give each other space and spaciousness for the process.
This is a place of safety for creative play and exploration, with a very non-dogmatic approach. We don’t tell each other how to ask for things and we don’t give unsolicited advice. We play.
That’s it. Let’s throw a bunch of things in the pot!
As always, amnesty applies. Leave a wish here any time you want.
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Last week, I asked for ease for everyone all around. I can’t speak for anyone else, but the universe unexpectedly made things easier for me on multiple fronts. Modah ani lifanekah…
Also, [l] shook out properly (with some goosing from me), and I have more information about the other two asks.
What I want:
* for my hair to cooperate with my social life
* for my socializing:life ratio to feel less like a tug of war
* for missing things (payment, shredder cord, combination, responses…) to make their way to me
What’s inside? Confidence. Calm. Conservation. Concentration.
What might help? Naps. Water. Zipping up the seams of the fort. Different/more questions.
Playing with: Explaining less (exercising trust). Demoting clothes and linens and maybe tools to the ragbag/bin. (Find a more congenial verb to replace “demoting”?) Wearing favorites even on ordinary and tricky days. Permission to use [x] now rather than waiting for the absolutely right moment that may have already snuck by.
Warm wishes to all y’all.
Four (!!) weeks ago I asked for things which have been showing up in all the delicious ways.
Operation G.O.O.D. was more stressful than I had hoped, but seems perfectly forgettable now, four weeks later.
Operation A.S.K. is delightful. I am asking for all the right things, and they are showing up. So let me ASK some more… Borrowing some, “More, please!” from Max.
-Unexpectedly delightful connections… More, please!
-Hot nights (and mornings).. More, please!
-Delightful possibility in road trip form with a person I adore… More, please!
-Conversations about all the important and interesting things… More, please!
-Business epiphanies and clarity… More, please!
-Easy presence with writing… More, please!
-A perfectly simple solution to enable Operation Winter Vacation… More, please!
-Client-types… More, please!
-Visibility… More, please!
-Operation Fish in Water…. More, please!
Hmm… yes. Those.
I’ve been waiting eagerly to post this: last week, about The Return of The Butler, I said that there wasn’t anything I could do about it but I was putting it out there. The very next day we were able to do something that helped the Butler to return, and today he asked MrB for some info that will help resolve his situation.
As for the other asks, I got some good information about them, even when I didn’t get what I asked for.
This week:
I want sleep. I plan to resurrect an old Sleep System and re-try it.
I want Op BugOut to be effective and easy.
I asked for help with something and I want that help to be forthcoming, with ease and efficacy.
I am going to put these wants out there and be open to what happens, staying focused on the qualities and using the tools.
Ooooh, everything here is so gleefully delicious to me! Bond! In Bend! Op Bug-out! HA HA YES.
And, of course, More please! Here are my More, pleases, with “oh, thank you!” understood and contained within:
– beach days: More, please!
– tea with Agent Sarahemily: More, please!
– pleasure reading: More, please!
– basket-weaving (NOT CODE): More, please!
– Formaggio barbecue (especially the Pearl): Dear heaven, more, please!
– Shellback chats: More, please!
– Alone time with Supergravity Jones: More, more, MORE! Please.
Last week I asked for sustenance and synthesis, “small love tokens and tiny kind gestures.”
Last week and now this week feel like anything but those things, but I recognize that my gwishes from last week have shown up in small, subtle ways.
This week I am wishing for support, grounding and crystal cleat boundaries. I’m wishing love and sustenance for [M], and I’m gwishing a peaceful solution for this hurricane that has blown into our lives out of nowhere.
Two mysteries:
Why is this week so long? My-three-week-long week was supposed to end yesterday, but it turned out it goes until Sunday. And I’m feeling a bit fed up with it, really.
Why is Bend, OR., popping up everywhere? Never heard of it until, like, 48 hours ago.
Let’s put it on the wish list, which now reads:
+ How long are my weeks? An answer to this, please.
+ Also: A new week, please!
+ What do I know about Bend? Bring this to Floop.
+ Sturdy sovereignty. WHAM BOOM I declare this integrated.
+ Visit to the Force of Cave: Hello mixed feelings and missed opportunities … Clarity here, please.
+ Time for sewing. Hmmm. Did the emptying and replenishing of my wardrobe meet the hidden need here? No, not really. Re-asking.
+ I don’t remember what else and don’t really care.
It’s been a while since I did this too!
progress: White Flowers continues happily. Some weeks I do more than others, but I do a few of these every day, and I feel better every day because of it, and get more info. Lately I’ve been learning that the cumulative effect is to give me a stornger Force Field in general, and to leave me feeling better supported even on days i slack off. More of this, please.
LOts of Investigations on Desire, thru Operation TTT and other things, are revealing lots of clews. Op 3T has taken a small step back for the moment, but I know that all this inquiry benefits the desire project, Project Cupcake, and that it is moving forward well.
I need to journal a LOT more on all my projects.
Exiting the Day’s new routines are landing well. Earlier bed, yoga nidra, more consistent in practice–all good! This is really making me happy.
What do I want to come in/continue?
-we’re in Ritual season. more and deeper
-the ease-filled transitons of Operation KIttyCat: so far so good!
-more journaling, more writing
-Treehouse Time to review the Year’s Dedications from Imbolc.
-my Harvest.not sure what it is, but i want it
– GoldenGreen
-a suitable Mabon. Not sure what that requires but it’s something about: abundance, food, celebration, the Earth, connection and fellowship, right timing, community and being in a beautiful place. SO May it Be.
-ShipShape the House. seems impossible, but we get closer but by bit.
-work the Golden Pentacle. I really need to re-commit to this practice.
-more practice of the practice.
-cleaniong up my diet