Personal ads. They’re … personal! Very.
So my itty bitty personal ads made me realize that it’s time to make a regular practice of trying to feel okay asking for stuff.
Even when the asking thing feels weird and conflicted.
Ever since I posted the first one asking my perfect house to find me, which united me with Hoppy House, I have been a fan of the madness that is personal ads.
And now it’s my Sunday ritual for clarity and remembering and stuff like that. Yay, ritual!
Let us dooo eeeet.
Thing 1: Darlings. Who do you know in Scotland? Near Edinburgh?
Here’s what I want:
Lindsay (that’s @gurubody on Twitter — she’s a client and colleague and person I hugely admire) is an AMAZING teacher.
She’ll be visiting from Spain and doing a program in Edinburgh on Sunday 28 November from 10 until 5.
Highly recommended. Especially for Shivanauts but really for everyone. Can you help me pass this on?
I would love for her to find her right people for this.
Ways this could work:
I can tell you guys.
And remind people.
And hope for the best and plant wishes and say yay.
My commitment.
To support things I care about.
Thing 2: Oh my poor sweater!
Here’s what I want:
My absolute favorite sweater (It’s orange! It’s from Berlin!) has a hole in the shoulder.
Sadface mouse!
I want it healed please! But I do not do knitting and stitching and such, and all the awesome crafty and fix-capable people I know live far away.
Ways this could work:
Maybe you know this person in Portland (the Younger) with the magic knitting needles who can make my sweater happy again!
Maybe you are this person!
(I should also mention here what I don’t want, which is kind, sweet-hearted offers to teach me to do this.
If there were fifty hours in a day, I’d take you up on it. Right now my time goes to running a company, writing and destuckifying, and that’s where I’m at. Thanks!)
My commitment.
To ask around hopefully.
To trust that the person will show up if I keep looking for her (or him).
And I will totally give you a tour of the Playground or buy you a coffee or something if this is you.
Thing 3: Ease with travel, please.
Here’s what I want:
For everything about the trip to Asheville (where Selma and I are teaching the Week of Biggification to happen with grace and smoothness and general fabulousness.
Ways this could work:
It just could.
I could surprise myself.
My commitment.
I will wear my invisible crown and my extremely visible red sovereignty boots. And be sparkly.
And breathe and breathe and breathe and breathe.
And use my emergency calming techniques and stretch and write and read books on the phone (because it’s the future!)
Thing 4: Bloggery magic, preferably in pill form.
Here’s what I want:
So of course I have not written posts for the eight days I’ll be teaching and the other five days I’m on the road.
All together now: hahahahahahahahahaha.
What could happen so that there are good things here and I don’t go crazy?
Ways this could work:
Okay. I can post some of the stuff I’ll be journaling while I’m there.
Maybe I will have a Brilliant Idea while on the plane? Stranger things have happened.
My commitment.
To be receptive to the perfect, simple solution.
To allow for elegance in problem-solving.
To Shiva Nata it up and let the epiphanies tell me what to do.
To wait and see.
Progress report on past Very Personal Ads.
Just to update you on what’s happened since last time.
Let’s see. I wanted sequencing and timing support with my insanely insane week of insanity.
And things did kind of just work, though I have no idea how.
I also asked for help figuring out a non-sugared thing to give out on Halloween. And thanks to genius suggestions from the commenter mice, we are going with bubbles. Bubbles!
Then there was a thing about this conflict in my workspace. And while it isn’t resolved, I’m no longer feeling anxious about it. So yay. Unexpected result!
The last ask was about Hiro’s new class, and from what I hear there’s been great response. Well done, week of insanity. Sparklepoints!
Comment zen. Here’s what I’d love today.
- Your own personal ads, small or large. Things you’ve asked for. Or are asking for. Or would like to ask for. Or updates on last time!
What I’d rather not have:
- The word “manifest”.
- To be told how I should be asking for things.
- To be judged, psychoanalyzed or given advices.
Wishing love and good things for your Very Personal Ads! So glad for everyone doing this with me.
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Yea for bubbles! My good friend’s child (with celiac) will be trick or treating tomorrow evening and we were just discussing the candy thing – I immediately thought of how nice it would be if more people were giving something like bubbles or stickers and such.
I’ve never done a Very Personal Ad, but think it’s high time I tried it, so here goes!
Here’s what I want: For my little business to stay airborne after liftoff this coming Monday.
I’ve made it to the point where I have my first client, I’m setting up my truly perfect office space tomorrow and everything is go, go, go! I want there to be easy transitions between clients in the future – new business gearing up as this client finishes in a few weeks.
Ways this could work: I could get more client contacts while working with this client or my current client could choose to work with me for another project after this one.
My commitment: To bring the magic to my work, knowing that as I transform my client’s life, knowledge of my skills will be shared with other people who need me. To keep working to grow my business and not just expect it all to fall into place by others just because this one client showed up.
Bubbles!
Oh, I haven’t done this in public in a few weeks, so here goes:
Thing 1: Switching servers
What I want: I have found a nifty new wind/solar-backed hosting partner for my websites. They are green for reals, not fakey. I am excited to give them my money. I am not looking forward to switching data onto their servers, because change freaks me out even when it’s good. Especially when it involves other people’s stuff and being responsible for it.
So I want it to go smoothly, and for things to not break along the way.
Ways this could work: I could read the directions many times. I could switch some of my side projects over first, as guinea pigs. I could talk to their very nice and smart people if anything happens with the tests. My husband could help since he’s a wizard about this.
My commitment: To back up all my files. To work methodically. To not freak out.
Thing 2: Timing is everything
What I want:To bring in a new batch of astrology clients.
I’ve been doing a lot of design lately, and I love my web clients. But I’ve filled my astrology calendar with writing recently, and it’s getting boring. I need new faces, with interesting questions.
Ways this could work: I could define the kind of work I like to do more clearly. I could make it easier for people to understand what exactly I do for them. I could make it easier for them to hire me.
My commitment: To remove the obstacles. To give my hire page more love this week. To do amazing work for the people I have.
Ah, VPAs.
Another success from the last week – the person who answered my ad for help in my office while I went off to write and sit for a week will now be staying on and helping me 2 days a week! Yay!
What I Want:
More perfect clients. I’ve got a bunch and I love them. And my new helper has helped me close out a bunch of files so there is lot’s of room now for new clients!
Ways this could happen:
My old clients could tell people about me and they could hire me.
My articles and things could get people’s attention and they could call me.
I could do the presentations at the places and get clients that way.
I could think up a good new way to serve clients.
My commitment: To keep taking steps. To do the things I know work and to remember that people need me and I have an obligation to let them know I am here.
What else I want:
To be more mindful of what I am putting in my body so that some of this extra padding comes off my body.
Ways this could happen:
I could sit and meditate for a few minutes before each meal. I could journal a bit before each meal. I could remind myself that the food will be there later if I don’t eat it all right now. I could prepare things like brown rice and lentils and veggies ahead of time to make bringing lunch to work easier.
My commitment:
To do those things.
You could ask Angelika, who has a relatively new yarn store(Angelika’s) on SW 1st Ave. in Portland, if she might be willing to fix your orange sweater, or if she knows someone local who would be able to do it.
Sunday! Oh, Sunday. And Halloween to boot. I have some VPAs this week. (also, darn it, I used to know someone in Edinburgh but she moved back to the US.)
Thing 1: A way to make my vacation happen anyway.
My original plan for a vacation has been rather squashed. Fortunately, I hadn’t bought any tickets or reserved anything, so it’s not as big a disaster as it could be, but it still makes me sad. I’d like to figure out a way to still have a vacation this year. It was only going to be three days, so perhaps there’s a way to make a couple of days still happen.
Ways this could work: I could see if someone could take notes for me at the one thing I’d miss if I left a day earlier, which I’d rather not miss, but probably could. I could talk to somebody and ask whether missing the un-missable thing would in fact get me in trouble with that somebody (I was told by another person in charge that it would).
My commitment: To definitely do the first thing. To do the second thing if I can get to a point where I feel comfortable asking. And to forgive myself if I can’t do the second thing. Also to forgive myself for having the strong sense of duty that got me into this mess in the first place.
Thing 2: Somewhere to go on the weekends that involves other people.
Normally this would be church, but I haven’t found the right church here and I’m not going to be here long enough for me to consider conversion seriously. Even so, it’s starting to bother me that no one would be concerned if I disappeared until a couple days into the next work week. So I’d like to find a regular thing to do, that does not take too terribly much in the way of time, and involves people I’d enjoy being around.
Ways this could work: A string-related group maybe? A volunteer gig somewhere?
My commitment: To hunt around online. If I find something, to try to find a way to quietly check it out in a way that does not make me feel unsafe. (I feel like I need a trench coat and fedora for this, but still too hot, alas.) To not give up if this doesn’t work out.
Luck for everybody’s VPAs!
I have lots of knitters & crafters on my Twitter, so I passed the message on, Havi. I hope you find someone.
It’s ages since I’ve done one of these, I still find it hard to express what I want and even harder to accept that I need to commit to the solutions. 🙂
What I want:
For the Super-Exciting Something that I’m launching this week to make a ton of money and bring in lots of lovely new people who haven’t worked with me before.
Ways this could happen:
I could tell people. A lot. Even though telling people makes me feel a bit ick and used-car-salesperson.
I could make a cool funny video that people want to share.
I could ask people to share it.
My commitment:
All of the above.
I know many knitters in that area, I’ll pass this along. 🙂
Progress report: filed one review, received an extension on the others, didn’t get sick.
For this week, my asks:
Thing 1: reviewing mojo
Time to turn those pumpkins into coaches. Preferably without taking all blessed day for each one. Part of my stuck is probably the fear that they’re too ready to chew up time I can’t spare from billable work.
Ways this could work:
* Do billable work first, then let myself stay up to write the reviews.
* Treat the reviews as blog entries or drabble chains rather than Reviews, so that the mojo can relax and mojo away
Thing 2: copyediting mojo
Busy month ahead. Need to stay on track with deliverables so that Thanksgiving week doesn’t end up as major clusterf*** of minimal sleep.
Ways this could work:
*Tackle the mss. first each day — which is what I want to do anyway! It’s not spoiling myself to work on work first just because it’s fun.
*The spouse and visitors have survived seeing the house in worse shape. They’re not going to think less of me or that I’m not taking proper care of them because I’m putting deliverables ahead of chores.
* A chapter a day keeps the “OMG you’ll never get another job and end up fishing scraps out of Atlantic City trashbins” monster at bay.
Thing 3: feeling good enough to be active and resume working out
Bruised my tailbone last week. And other things haven’t stopped hurting.
Ways this could work:
*Ice and ibuprofen. I’m a wuss about both, and yet I feel so much better when I actually get around to employing them.
*Low-impact exercises that don’t involve tailbone or legs, such as bicep curls.
*Enough sleep and eating lots of plants so that my body doesn’t stress itself coping with additional misery.
Thing 4: jeans that fit
It doesn’t have to happen this week, considering things 1-3 are plenty to handle. But man, it would be nice to possess a pair of pants that I can wear with t-shirts that properly flatters what I’m told is a fine derriere, accommodates my comparatively large waist and short legs, and goes with every non-neutral shirt and sweater I own, not to mention the black velvet pullover from one of my favorite 80-something that only looks right with jeans.
Ways this could work:
* I could keep in mind that there’s a custom jeans place in town and save my shekels toward an appointment with them (rather than stressing out about measuring myself properly and then not finding anything just right in the catalogs or stores).
* I could make a point of remembering that I don’t mind spending money to reward people who know what they’re doing and do it well, and from everything I’ve heard, the folks at this jeans place are that good. The jeans will cost me less than the last time my car was in the shop — doesn’t an expert clothing maven deserve as much as an okay mechanic?
* I could keep in mind that my waist isn’t going to fluctuate in size all that much from one year to the next, even after I resume getting serious about working out. And that when I do succeed in losing a couple inches, that’s what belts are for.
* Moreover, I could remind myself that I generally spend less on clothes and self-decoration in a year than many of my peers spend in a month, and that contrary to how I was raised, it really is okay to pay retail, and for something that serves you well for just a couple years, and then to give it away.
* And, that my partner doesn’t ask for much, but he does point out now and then that he actually likes seeing me in flattering clothes. And that he’s threatened to burn three of my current specimens of pants because, comfy though they are (which is why I won’t let him), they are basically forked sacks.
…huh. I didn’t actually realize until I started writing that last Thing how much of it is tied to my fear of wasting money. Gonna have to dwell on that some more.
Thanks for the space and the prompts, Havi, and best wishes to everyone for their asks.
Very Personal Ad #10
Update on last week!:
Thing 1 was loving guidance. Thing 3 was unstucking the me-stick. These two came together, as it turned out. This week in The Artist’s Way was reading deprivation, and even though I, uh, might have cheated a little bit, it still accomplished quite a lot. There was lots of emotional tempesting going on, lots of strung-out stressedness that led to thoughtful realizations that led to the little bit of water making it around the clog. The blockage isn’t gone, but it’s a lot more gone than it was.
Thing 2 was sovereignty. This one has been especially difficult. I was raised in a very pro-nagging, free advice-giving sort of way. I have it in my head this is okay, when really, it’s vanity. Nobody is asking me for this help. I’m not giving them the option. I’m just “speaking my mind”: commanding without giving the orders, demanding without thinking of others. It’s not a real wonder I don’t have many friends. Somehow, I became a bit of a bully. And while I’m aware of it and working toward it now, it has a lot of inertia.
So, this week!
Thing 1: Loving guidance
What I would like: For the changes taking place to continue their stately march against the tide.
How this could happen: Therapy.
Great self-care while my spirit goes though these spasms.
Remembering gentleness, anti-pushing.
Remembering that changing the things I don’t like is just as good as adding things I do.
Rest.
My commitment: To do the therapy.
To rest.
To set reminders so that I don’t slip.
Te be gentle when I do slip.
To remember that there will be slips and that they don’t mean I’m failing, but that I’m succeeding.
Thing 2: Courage
What I would like: The strength to not step backward. The energy, the gumption to push…. To TAKE another step forward.
How this could happen: Rest.
Excellent spoiling.
Liquid courage. (Chai.)
Finding a way to hunker down against the winds.
My commitment: To do therapy.
To rest.
To talk to the male-person about what I’m doing.
To not beat myself up over slippery-slopes that keep moving.
Thing 3: Healing
What I would like: The strength to keep going with my physical therapy. The resolve to do the martial arts I love. The courage to pick up running, dancing, Shiva Nata – all those things I want.
How this could happen: Mittens and braces.
Chai.
Talk to the male-person.
Ask for help.
Set reminders for these things now and stick to them.
My commitment: To set the reminders.
To speak.
To take good care of myself before, after, during.
To not push.
Thing 4: Life
What I would like: For this desperate, clawing, scraping, crawling to take a side track off a cliff and let me get back to living. To remember what life was and what it could be if I start dreaming again. To remember that “finding a career” is not more important than living, and that it’s found BY living and paying the hell attention!
How this could happen: Therapy.
Epiphanies.
Gentle, loving guidance.
Coming across those words that make it all better.
Something falling into my lap (the way it does when you’re not pushing).
NOT PUSHING.
Finding the courage to be free of these trappings.
My commitment: To do the therapy.
To be gentle.
To keep a watchful eye out for trouble in there.
To remember all those people who left the beaten path of the world to be free, and aren’t dying.
To find the real me buried in there.
What I want: To enjoy nanowrimo this year, to complete nanowrimo and not feel bogged down by houseguests and major deadlines at work. To feel like I deserve this fun.
How could this happen: Not really sure, since I do feel bogged down. So perhaps things could get very easy? I could get things done in way less time than I could possibly imagine right now? Magic time stretching force field? Or elves doing some of my work so I have time to write? I suddenly feel rested on only 4 hours of sleep a night? I’m up for anything.
My commitment: To remind myself that nanowrimo is for fun, houseguests and birthdays are also fun. The basic premise is to increase joy not stress. To wear my tiara my entire birthday month, perhaps even starting early today!
Ease to everyone with all the VPAs! xx M
Bubbles! Awesome.
Good luck with your sweater. A few years ago my favorite blue sweater had a hole along the shoulder too. My sister-in-law fixed it without any needles. Rethreading the threads by hand or something? Possibly magic. Maybe post a photo of the hole online somewhere to help potential fixers diagnose the problem and see if it’s something they can fix & what they’d need or don’t need to do it. Just a thought.
Last week I didn’t write an ask because I was so clear on what I wanted to accomplish. I finished all of it and far more than seemed possible so I’m kind of glad I didn’t sell myself short with specifics. I don’t know if that mojo is perpetually sustainable, but it was rad while it was here.
Have a lovely week, everybody, and good luck with your VPAs!
As someone who persists in wearing favourite garmets even when they have (small) holes in them, I wish your jumper a speedy recovery.
So far I’m looking to get my job application finished tomorrow. I still haven’t found a mirror – they all seem hideous and overpriced. I don’t mind forking out for something decent but some of the price:quality ratios have made me wonder if we’re still living in sixteenth century.
Anyway…moving swifly on from the rantypants.
VPA 1 – Get my job application finished to the highest standard possible, and submitted for the deadline.
How this could happen:
– I can set aside time tomorrow to get it finished
– I can call the woman to ask about the length of the personal statement
– I can let my personality shine through rather than trying to cover it up
My commitment:
– Do my best, and not torture myself mentally over it
VPA 2 – Work on my novel for a couple of hours.
How this could happen:
– Again, set aside a chunk of time
My commitment:
– to let myself rest if I’m tired or plain not in the mood
– to celebrate what I’ve achieved so far
Bubbles! BUBBLES! You’ve just inspired me to buy some bubble mixture online…I’ve been meaning to introduce more play into my world with bubbles for ages now =) YAY! {happy dance}. Now I’ll be checking the post obsessively until my new bubble toys arrive. Again, YAY!
If you are bringing your sweater to Asheville, I will happily look at it there for you. Depending on what is going on with it, I can maybe (will I have time? it seems likely) fix it there. I will bring some tools along with me. Do you have extra of the yarn it was made with? Sometimes they put a little bit in with the garment if you buy it new. I’ll bring along some orange threads that I have to see if one will match. Just let me know whether or not you want to do that so I know whether to pack the stuff or not.
Looks like you’ve got sweater help. You may still want to look at this. http://www.woolfiller.com/
I know you’re looking for someone to repair not to take up a new craft. So I offer this (in the spirit of love for beloved sweaters) for your craftier readers.
Wow, it’s late.
And I went out a-romping, even though I didn’t really feel like it, and it went reasonably well so that was good.
So this will be fast.
Thing one: that barn door? Could close if it will close, or open if it will open. Please and thank you. The swinging back and forth is making me crazy.
Ways this could work: I could ask. I could let go of it since it is out of my control. I could focus on other things.
commitment: to keep moving forward and to go to my massage tomorrow.
Thing two: ohhnewprojectfun! I am doing a bunch of new things. I have a shorteasycheap meditation on my website. I am hoping people find it and buy it to help them relax. Also? A teleclass that I would love to have fill right up to the brim because finding the words for talking about sex makes everyone’s sex life better (and it’s free! What’s not to like?) Third? A random brainstorm in honor of NaNoWriMo for a recorded class thing about writing your fantasies into stories that you like, with heroes that you like and endings that you like. Funfunfun! Must find time. And finally? I am trying to start a conversation on my Facebook page bout what people wish they’d known as kids about sex, because that makes me and the parents of the world better sex educators.
Ways this could work: Remember it’s fun. Recharge the recorder batteries. Tell you that all of it is at my website (click my name for a link) and if you are interested I would love to have you. Do it imperfectly and feed the perfection monster some tea.
Commitment: yes.
@Havi: wishing you seven league boots.
The first day of November, I will VPA for the whole month once again because I am not very modest and want to ask for quite a few things.
Such as:
– Part of a thing at work that requires massive and meticulous organization to be cancelled. This would be a relief for me and would also make things a lot easier for many other people involved.
– Working on clarifying my relationship with money and why it is, over and over again, an issue of dispute between me and my husband.
– A healthy balance between work and the part of life that is not work. I love what I am doing but parts of it are at times to much for an HSP.
– Finding a good way to think about all upcoming things that I need to think about without lifting myself out of the present moment.
– A good way of togetherness when my husband will be around for 10 days while I will have to work.
– Good sleep. At the moment I am wide awake for about 1 hour in the middle of each night.
How this can work:
– As for the organizational thing: the papers that need to be provided by Wednesday will not be provided and my boss will cancel the whole thing which will make me and many others go “yeah”.
– Shiva Nata for the money thing.
– Silence. Meditation.
– Figuring out if there are maybe after all things I don’t need to think about as yet.
– Meditation before going to bed.
– The balance between time at work and time with husband can just work out miraculously.
My committment:
– Silence seems a key for many things. I will go back to my lost meditation routine.
– I will keep all my fingers crossed that the whole mega thing at work will be cancelled. If this doesn’t happen I know I will learn a lot from the process of its organization and will accept the challenge.
Drat! I lived in Edinburgh until May; now I’m in the North Highlands. But if I’m chatting with anyone who sends off that bell of “Hey, this could be for them”, I’ll pass along the details.
I have two desires that are seemingly in conflict:
1. I want to be resting, in a state of incubation.
2. I want to complete a draft of my dissertation proposal.
My VPA for this week is to find a way to allow both of these things to happen.
How this can happen: Hmm. Good question. I do believe that there is possibility within this apparent paradox. I suppose I can begin by treating this as a gentle experiment: if I allow myself to be in a restful, reflective frame of mind when I sit down to write the proposal, what will happen?
My commitment: I will focus on taking care of myself. If I find myself feeling tense, I will look for ways to release the tension.
Happy Monday, everyone.
What I want: More social time. I’m doing this experiment to see if more time with friends adds to my happiness. So in want more interaction with people than I would usually have.
How this could work: People could magically invite me to do things out of the blue. I could think of fun things and have the courage to ask people to do them with me. Schedules could magically align.
My commitment: To invite someone to do something. To write about the fears and monsters that come up around this. To be more (mindfully) persistent than I usually would be.
Wishing everyone colorful fall leaves and fuzzy socks.
What I want: I want to resolve my marriage issues – either make peace with my husband or make the decision to leave.
How this could work:
I could fall in love with my husband again.
We could both continue with therapy and come to the joint decision that this is/is not worth continuing
I can continue with therapy if my husband chooses not to, and work though my own issues related to this relationship.
The answer will become clear
My commitment
to continue working with my most wonderful counselor and working on meeting my own emotional needs and my daughter’s regardless of what my husband is doing
to continue to pursue the process of pursuing happiness and a soulful relationship, even if it is harder than coasting through life.
Hi Havi,
here’s what I’ve asked for today…
http://colourfulcoach.wordpress.com/2010/11/02/hello-universe-can-you-hear-me/
and the Universe is already replying.
I know someone who lives near Edinburgh so I’ve forwarded the stuff about your friend’s event on to her
Cathy
x
So late to the party on this, but doing it anyway.
Thing One: Personal Life Shifts
Huge seismic shifts in my personal life recently that I’m trying to come to terms with. It feels like both a beginning and an end, and I’d like to try and greet whatever it is with grace and dignity.
Ways this could happen:
I could make space for myself to really think.
I can try and get past blame for things.
I can try and accept whatever outcome happens and make several sets of plans for the future.
My Commitment:
To gather space in my life (I’m actually going away for two weeks to do this mid-month)
To not take on other people’s issues if I can help it, and to focus on my own.
To spend time with people I trust and love, instead of working all the time like a gerbil.
To sleep lots.
Thing Two: Business Stuff
I’m doing a huge product launch and I have set huge scary goals for it. I’m also very invested in the product; it was something I did to save a friend, and I know that it works and it can help other people, but I’m also scared of doing some of the things that I know I have to do to make it successful.
Things I Could Do:
Guest blog lots about why it was created and how it can be used for good.
Talk to other people about offering it who I think would really believe in it.
Remember that marketing is not inherently evil, and that I know I’m selling something real and useful and life changing.
My Commitment:
To love my new product
To try and not get launch fear
To try and focus on the tangible benefits
i want to ask for so many things right now but I can’t. I just don’t have it in me today.
1. a job
2. money
3. action
4. routine
p.s.
you guys rule!
What I want:
For my new project, The Studio for Rethinking Ourselves, to start finding enough right people to be able cover the rent starting November and keep on paying for itself thereafter. Also, for the Studio to fill up with activities, so that it becomes a joyful community of people.
Ways this could work:
Friends could pass along information about the studio’s offerings to other friends who they know need these offerings.
People who already know about the studio could go look at our website and realize a particular offering has their name on it.
People who have things to offer at the studio will come ask to use it.
These people might bring their own right people, who will also become the Studio’s right people.
People will start passing interesting-to-them blog posts along to others, causing the readership to increase, which means more people might find there’s an offering they want to join in person.
My commitment:
To make invitations clearly and lovingly to anyone in Taipei who has content and needs a place to host it.
To write posts and a welcome page that more accurately reflect who I am and the mission of the Studio.
To make myself as open as can be to suggestions, and ideas, and responses to my invitation.
To trust that everything is already perfect, and things will happen how they need to.
Oh, and also:
I want a wooden massage table for the craniosacral sessions to show up before Nov 6, and for as low a cost as possible.
Ways it could happen:
My friend could find the time to drive to Tainan.
Someone I know with a table could offer to lend it for the three weeks we need it.
Someone will point me to a table that needs a home, and I could get it for free.
My commitment:
to SMS everyone I know connected to massage and craniosacral about this
to be open to creative ways to resolve the problem (alternative table options)
An update on last-time-slash-my-only-VPA-so-far:
It went well. 😀 My partner and I made a deal not to stress over timetables or specific activities (other than seeing our favorite musicians at Strowler Nights!), so we were pretty chill and flexible the entire mini-vacation. I was able to let myself not worry when I knew he wouldn’t be anxious about anything, and vice versa – it’s a feedback spiral of relaxation. 😀
Because of the weather, we did not camp, but instead found an extremely affordable hotel room with heat and a shower and a bed so comfortable that I sort of passed out sooner than intended – which was okay, because we got into town some six hours later than we planned, due to a very late home departure. (This happens to us every time on roadtrips.)
And my partner drove through the only period of intense fog we had – his eyes are better than mine for that – and I drove through the holy gods the oceans are falling from the stars rainstorm that we had when we left Seattle, which ended the exact moment we crossed the line into Portland. (This is Havimagic, I think. Or maybe just Oregonmagic.) That was only 3.5 hours of absolute misery, instead of all fourteen hours of the drive home, so I was pretty okay with that. And my I-thought-I-broke-it-toe was a total champ and did just fine with all the standing and walking and shoe-confined driving.
So, yes. Happy. 🙂
Late to the party too!
Hopes, wishes….
For ideas to settle and for me to sense what the resistance areound them is really about.
For me to take a small risk and work with someone on some of my ideas, products, mini scripts. Because i have this real sense of movement now which is propelling me forward and excitement about the possibilities that are available for us all.
i’d love to stay in love with my ideas and find myself with more support around me. im craving some zingy brainstorming and feeling an absence of people to do that with right now.
For sleep to return – it’s been absent this week and its hard to feel good in my body and alert and calm. This is because of being stretched too thinly in the cubicle and being in the most bizarre of circumstances.
And i need and want to get back to exercise again. I’ve had a week with nothing. So this weekend just one Yoga class and i will go from there.
and as always hoping for ease and comfort for us all – whatever we are challenged by or playing with.
Love
Leila xxx