Because it’s Friday AGAIN. And because traditions are important. In which I cover the good stuff and the hard stuff in my week, trying for the non-preachy, non-annoying side of self-reflection.
And you get to join in if you feel like it.
The hard stuff
The Day of Five Meetings.
Brain fog.
Each one was full of good. And all together they kind of did me in.
The too-muchness of the too-much was … well, if you must know, a bit much.
Crying at the Bannister’s office.
The Bannister is what I’m calling my attorney.
Don’t ask. He’s lovely. And I also burst into tears during our meeting, which was not even slightly his fault. And also surprising and not fun.
An uncomfortable disagreement.
My gentleman friend and I don’t have much we disagree on.
David Bowie. The music, not the man, yes? My gentleman friend approves more than I deem reasonable.
The rest of the 70s. Well, the hideous aesthetic home interior stylings of the rest of the 70s. I approve more than he deems reasonable.
And that’s about it.
As long as he’s not playing Starshine Ziggy Diamond Hunky Dory Dogs Something Something and I’m not trying to paint our refrigerator harvest gold, things are good.
And this week we had a huge disagreement. Which we then sorted out and now all is good.
It was still really hard while it was happening though.
Yet again I thank Jonathan Scheff for introducing me to nonviolent communication, and I apologize for not immediately appreciating its usefulness.
I saw High Plains Drifter.
Well, I saw a chunk of it. Not much. But still.
Way more than I would have liked to.
Ugh. Horribleness. Ugh. Terror. Ugh everything.
In general, I will pretty much always watch a western.*
* Yes, I don’t mind violence if it’s stylized ass-kicking or flamboyant shoot-outs. It’s cruelty and abuse I can’t watch.
Anyway. Ruined my night and most of the next day while I was clearing a lot of gunk out of my world.
Is it still February?
Yeesh.
I’m mostly over the February Cranky, but I’d swear this month was at least ten weeks long.
The good stuff
Lots and lots of Fairy Godmothers.
I got help from Pam and Hiro and Cairene with my Playground project and they all did wonders.
Feeling so relieved to be making progress on this.
Met with the Bannister.
I have a new Bannister.
Steps can be taken! Hooray!
Short blog posts!
Remember when I just could not write anything under fifteen hundred words?
And then I couldn’t get under a thousand?
Because my brain would explode it took twice as long to write short posts?
Ha! I’ve been managing to write 700 word posts and not hurt my head in the process. Huzzah.
Costumes.
I like them.
Pirate boots making everything better this week.
An enormous Shivanautical epiphany.
Haven’t written about this one but it is a big one.
Yay Shiva Nata for making my life ridiculously interesting. And for coming up with perfect, simple solutions in perfect timing for pretty much whatever I’m working on.
Hamentaschen!
Spent most of yesterday baking and oh they are lovely.
I can’t eat them of course because of the sugar but I can look at how pretty they are and listen to the admiring oohs from the people who can.
Totally counts.
My work.
Selma and I taught a bunch of teleclasses this week, all of which were … just fun. Pleasurable.
My people are lovely.
And had some delightful sessions with clients.
And it’s good. Sometimes I forget to stop and breathe and say oh yes I like this thing.
So. Yeah. I like this thing.
And … playing live at the meme beach house!
Yes, that’s a Stuism too.
My brother and I have this thing where we come up with ridiculous band names and then say in this really pretentious, knowing tone, “Oh, well, you know, it’s just one guy.”
This week it’s a British band.
Venn and the Diagrammes.
It’s weird, though, because it’s really just one guy.
Thanks, Walt for giving me this one.
No Stuisms this week. I do believe I may have kicked the habit for a while. We’ll see.
That’s it for me …
And yes yes yes, of course you can join in my Friday ritual right here in the comments bit if you feel like it.
Yeah? Anything hard and/or good happen in your week?
And, as always, have a glorrrrrrrrrrrrious weekend. And a happy week to come.
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yay for baking and pirate boots and fairy godmothers!
What I’d like to see is a fairy godmother in pirate boots baking hamentaschen. That would be some kind of wonderful.
.-= Jacquelyn´s last post … How Your Business is like Yoga =-.
Bannisters, baking, boots and…er…bepiphanies! Yay!
Crying. Suddenly. BOO. Gentleman Friend issues. Boo. Hugs…in a safe and supportive kinda way.
Yeesh yes on February/crankuary being ten weeks long. Ick.
Hard: No job yet! Scaring me now.
I blew up my inner world and now I have to clean the mess. argh!
Rain rain rain and yes, more rain. When did winter become rain in Maine instead of snow? I want snow! Let the rain stay mainly on the plain where it belongs!
Writer’s block needs it’s ass kicked.
Good: Funny blogs. Better…hysterical ones.
I blew up my inner world and hey, where’d all this new possibly neat stuff come from, must explore.
And after weeks of omgomgomg, finally, had tests that show my jahoobies are just fine and being told by the doc that I have great jahoobies. (he could’ve left out the ‘for a woman of fifty’ part) But yay! Healthy!
lol@banana jesus.
You’ll never convince me that February is the shortest month of the year. Never.
Extra-tender compassion for the disagreement with the gentleman friend! I’m so glad things are all right now.
Hard:
-Feeling the pressure to have some significant work to send my academic adviser this coming Toozday. I should have time to tackle the projects this weekend, but I’m afraid I’ll just keep on getting in my own way. Much anxiety.
-My two sweeties had a disagreement. One of them, when he gets really angry, usually needs several hours to calm down enough to talk things out. I’m better about this than I used to be, but it is still hard for me to wait. Even though this quarrel had nothing to do with me, I still felt helpless and sad while waiting for the two of them to resolve things.
Good:
+Some lovely epiphanies this week, about creative work and self-work and parenting.
+My sister, my daughter and I are going to a songwriting workshop with Gaye Adegbalola tomorrow! So excited! She is absolutely fabulous.
Wishing everyone a wonderful weekend! Feh-brew-ary is almost over! March looks to be coming in like a lion over here, but that’s okay — bring it on! RAWR!
.-= Kathleen Avins´s last post … This probably shouldn’t surprise me… =-.
Hey guess what! February only has two more days! Three if you count today, and I don’t because it’s already in progress. Plus? They’re weekend days. And then it will be March! Woot!
This was a really strange week.
The Hard:
-Getting used to the temporarily-single-mom ropes.
-Also? (and related): Being really jealous of S because he’s going to all these wonderful places that I would like to go. And instead? It snowed every day this week. Ugh.
-Feeling the creative waning and not liking it.
-Work explosion ending in critical team member quitting on the spot….screeching to halt and scratching heads and eeeeeek!
The Good:
-Solitude. Blessed, blessed solitude.
-Absence makes the heart grow fonder…at least in our case.
-Recognizing the waning and starting to think about maybe coming up with some rituals of recognition to acknowledge the necessity of the ebb, and to welcome the return of flow. Thinkity…
-In the long run? It’s really quite a lot better that said “critical” team member is gone. In a way, this is a relief.
.-= Emily´s last post … Creative Every Day, Part 8 =-.
February still with the hard. I have to say, like everyone here I’m very pleased to be seeing the back of it. @havi glad you sorted your stuff with GF.
@wulfie tell us where your funny blogs are! want to read!
@emily – we lost a team member this week. weird feeling..
Finally the sun has come out after a grey, cold and rainy week.
The Hard:
The anticipation of the Reckoning in Brussels.
Never mind Feb lasting for ten weeks, this week feels like it’s been going for months!
A bit of worry for Loaf our cat, think the diabetes is returning. Back to the vet tomorrow.
The Good:
The Reckoning was good. A supportive and reflective meeting with some good outcomes. *Very Pleased*
I blogged my journey to Brussels with photos and silliness. It really helped me relax about the meeting. see the results at http://lucysweetman.posterous.com
I survived the week.
Glorious Weekends to you all, may you be stroked with the soft petals of flowers.
Lucy x
.-= Lucy´s last post … Tower Bridge on a Friday Afternoon =-.
The hard:
-Sick. *Again*. As soon as I recovered from my stomach thing, C got a cold… which he then gave to me. Thanks.
-Snow. *Again*. And we have a 5-hour drive tomorrow morning.
-Lactose sensitivity. We gave up meat and sweets for Lent, which means I kind of want cheese all the time, since it’s a delicious protein-and-fat compromise. It also is a *really bad idea*, since more than one serving of dairy per day gets unpleasant if I don’t take lactase pills.
-C’s grandmother’s death.
-The last-minute trip to Florida for the funeral right before C took the bar.
-Spending the weekend with in-laws, cleaning out the house of a woman I’ve never met.
-C (a lawyer) and his mother (a grieving daughter) arguing over the interpretation of his grandmother’s will.
-Staying with my parents while C took the bar exam for their state.
-Assorted stressors involving mass transit.
-C waking up in the middle of the night panicking over a question he may have answered incorrectly on the bar.
The good:
+Attending a wedding tomorrow!
+Baked macaroni and cheese, made with soy milk instead of the kind with cows to offset some of the dairy… and deemed by C to be one of the best dinners I’ve ever made.
+Last-minute trip to Florida in the middle of snowy February!
+The in-laws gave us money from the estate to cover our travel expenses.
+Reviewing the will helped C study for the bar.
+My parents’ dog loves me!
+De-stress study sessions at the dive down the street from my parents’ house: cheap beer, free popcorn, hockey on TV, and “Heh, you’re studying for the bar *at* the bar” from the drunks 🙂
+Middle of the night comfort sessions. “I’m gonna fail! I need you to snuggle me! Ooh, boobs!” Heh.
Also, there apparently exists such a thing as a tofu hoagie, but I can’t deem that hard *or* good until I try it. It sounds like it could go either way.
.-= Laura G´s last post … In which I evaluate the past week. =-.
In other news, my spell-check has decided that I actually meant to say “There apparently exists such a thing as a tofu homage.” Tofu Homage? Isn’t that just one guy?
.-= Laura G´s last post … In which I evaluate the past week. =-.
I totally agree, February has lasted WAYYY too long. Time for it to GO!
Hard:
* OUCH! A shoe! thrown at ME! Didn’t see it coming, didn’t deserve it, and it HURTS, dammit.
* Having to call the shoe-thrower out, in public, and then leave the group that allowed the shoe-throwing to occur. Damn!
* Lost a couple of days nursing my internal balance back to health after the shoe.
Good:
* Full support from my sweetie over the shoe incident made everything so much better.
* More time to prepare for my upcoming big art show.
* Got lots of art done this week in spite of emotional upset. Even got some up on my blog finally!
.-= Barbara J Carter´s last post … Santa Fe Painting: Christo Rey =-.
My first chicken! (and it’s happening *before* my first egg, so *that* mystery is finally solved)
And I am going to do it backwards (aka: wrong) – because I am embracing “doing everything wrong.”
The good:
+ progress, decisions made (finally!)
+ brave steps forward (my Thing!)
+ plane tickets! (5 more sleeps until I leave!)
+ weird feeling (excitement? happiness? optimism?)
+ sober for 40+ days now (yay me!)
The hard:
– anxiety around brave steps forward
– feeling a bit bad/guilty about leaving my man behind for a few weeks
– questioning whether my “happiness” is really a sign of “manic behaviour” (along with: overuse! of! exclamation! points! And talking really fast…and too much silliness and giggling)
Usually I am one of the first to post and then more good happens that I need to remember for next week. So this week I waited.
Um yeah,may not do that again, ended up with some extra (temporary) hard 😉
Hard:
Cold, snow, cold. If this keeps up I may have to join the ” He-Man Girls’ and Boys’ I hate February Club”
Anxiety over studio time.
Finding out (an hour ago) all the paperwork I sent in December has been missing since December. Frantically trying to remember file paths and which images I sent. (yeah, Hard, you just had to show me when I waited to Chicken didn’t you?)
Money anxieties. Check which was supposed to be cut in January now on track to arrive “sometime in the first or second week of March”.
Finding dirt on the cheeks of my current WIP. *How* in the heck did that happen? Anxious over how to fix it (spot clean with Eucalan? or rip out and re-sew?)
Good:
People have been craving tasty homemade baked goods, so my weekly invoices have crept up enough to make up for check being late.
Getting paperwork sent in and confirmation on when checks should be here.
Rosewater cupcakes. Once I make them. 🙂
More manager special mushrooms, which means more manager special mushroom paprika goulash 😀
That costume post here really opened a lot of doors in my brain and I can see old baggage that needs to be taken out. Amazing post. I think it is my new #1.
Shiva Rea yoga DVD. Downward dog FTW. 😉
Some more studio time coming up right after I post this. More blogging imminent.
Oh and if you have a Big Lots store near you, ours had Yogi Tea for only $2/box. Amazing deal. Amazing tea 🙂
Sending hugs for the hard and cheers for the good!
.-= Andi´s last post … When Life Gives You Art =-.
Hard:
-Schedules getting rearranged without my consent. So, so not fun. Having to cancel plans that I had been looking forward to for three months, etc. Blech.
-While the rest of me likes snow, my sinuses don’t like sudden changes in weather, so early this week was painful. There was a lot of Advil (one of the best inventions of all time, incidentally).
Good:
-It’s my birthday today. Free food and discounts! Phone calls and cards! Tangible evidence that I have friends and family who love me! It’s a great day. Helps make the rest of February worth slogging through. 😉
-Resolution on some financial stuff. Having my bank account show the right numbers is always reassuring.
-Most of me likes snow, and it’s snowing at this very moment. Yay!
Happy weekend to all.
Again with the Fridays! Seems like they come faster and faster anymore.
@Havi Hugs and good vibes over the meetings, tears and disagreements. Bleah! Glad the worst is over. And it occurred to me this morning, apropos of NOTHING that you are amazing for having given up sugar and ergo CHOCOLATE for TEN YEARS…wow. You are a bigger man than I. wait, what?
@Andi Rosewater Cupcakes?!? O my. Please share recipe? Pls?
Onward and upward with the Chicken…
Hard: Snow. Snow. Cold. Spring being wrestled to the mat again by Mother Nature. Okay, Winter, we get it. You’re da man, etc. Now go away! (Or as my sweetie says when dropping me off somewhere, I love you now get out! ;0)
More Hard: My grandmother keeps calling me up to complain that my mother is not answering the phone in her dementia unit! Like I can help that? And she ALWAYS calls when I am just getting into the groove of yoga or something fun. Rahr!
Even More Hard: My mom’s crazy dog will NOT let me trim her toenails despite the fact that they are so long that they are causing her to walk funny. Today she tried to bite me (me! The hand that feeds her!) and so I made an appointment to get it done at a real live Grooming Parlor. (It’s just one guy.)
Good: Got a LOT of birthday love and pink sparkly things!
More Good: Spent a lot of time moving my clothes upstairs into the former bedroom where my mom was and redoing the closet all pinkified. Ironic that we talked about costumes and that the FlyLady’s wardrobe lady is sending out Olympic Closet Challenges all week…AFTER I started the process! Isn’t that VIERD?!?
Even More Good: Got rid of BOXES and BAGS of Mom’s stuff via freecycle.org! Just put it on the front porch and magically it goes away to people who need it! WOOOOT
The Goodest of the Good: I love love LOVE having a pink blog! I have really been figuring out some good stuff and am so grateful to everyone here (specially Selma) for pointing the way.
And in case you didn’t know it, TWITTER ROCKS. So many new friends all over the world! So many clever and amusing blogs that I can hardly tear myself away!
Love. That is all.
.-= chicsinger simone´s last post … Monster negotiations =-.
The Hard.
– Had some shoes thrown at me by my teammates in email just before I went to bed. Why the flaming firetruck do I read these things before bed *knowing* what’s in them?
– Stress eating.
– No time to exercise this week.
– Weary when I go to bed, not just tired.
– So much work. Just so much work.
– Too much time commuting on the bus this week.
– Frozen shoulder still frozen, but not as much.
– Feeling stupid and out of place at school.
The Good.
+ My creativity is coming back online, bit by bit.
+ Getting better at restoring my internal balance when shoes are thrown at me, and choosing not to take the bait. At the next morning’s meeting, they were all smiles and politeness (which is all I ask, in a way).
+ Good sessions with my counselor. Giving me good images, ideas to think about.
+ Sleeping through the night and not waking up at 3:20am with a pounding heart — yay!
+ Forcing myself to commute by bus encourages me to stay on campus and focus on work that needs doing.
+ Had a tutorial session with my statistics TA and another student from the class sat in. The three of us had a great time and got more out of the experience than when I’ve gone in for the one-on-one.
+ Good heart-to-heart with a faculty member at school about my current situation. A different perspective, which I needed to hear.
I could go on and on with – and +. Thanks for letting us write on your wall!
.-= Mike´s last post … Science is boring! =-.
Yay for Friday chickens!
This week’s hard:
– Lack of motivation to do much with my long-awaited days off other than stare blankly at the TV and/or aimlessly surf the web.
– Losing the two-day fight against the sinus headache.
– Bad cat scratch on the back of my hand. It’s itching now.
This week’s good:
– Finally starting to get back into the groove after the two months of solid work followed by the four days of zombie decompression.
– New stuff brewing in the studio; photos taken so I can start listing tonight as we watch more Olympics.
– I’ve got the Olympic fever, bad. It’s been really fun to watch this time around. Snowcross!
.-= Lori Paximadis´s last post … busy afternoon =-.
Hard:
I’m on day 12 of consecutive eight-to-eleven hour work days. Five more days to go.
Last minute changes. Developers and team generally frazzled beyond belief. Desperately trying not to snap at each other. Mental and physical fatigue.
You get the point…
Good:
Hippie Hubby came home from the mountains and started doing the at-home chores. Making me foods. Tending the cat box. TOOK ME TO A SPA LAST NIGHT. (I do love him so much.)
Program manager gave me a case of red bull. Buys the team lunch and dinner and cupcakes. Is just really great to work for.
hm.
The hard!
Um. Stress over decisions. BIG ONES. To stay? To go? It’s tough.
Doubt over how hard to push for things I want. Argh. It’s not ‘in my nature’ to push! Damnit. But if I don’t, there’s resentment. So start clean, and put it all out there.
The GOOD!
So. much. good. It’s ALL good! Everyone around me is amazing. The job is amazing. And I have so many choices. How great is that!? Also excited about where things are taking us. Very excited!
I love both Bowie and Neil. You can’t go wrong with Neil! Especially the Live at Massey Hall in Toronto. It’s SO good. 🙂
The Hard:
Everyone in the house getting sick.
Our new chicken Colette struggling to settle in.
Struggling with my healthy diet.
Missing an artists’ talk that I really wanted to go to because I was sick, exhausted and the blooming chicken refused to go back into the run.
Hearing that a friend is having difficulties.
The Good:
Going to a fantastic Tea & Textile afternoon & meeting some cool new people.
Having an awesome massage.
I made art, did some gardening & sorted out the intro page on website.
Maintaining my weight even though I was in Scotland last week and eating whatever I wanted.
My new mineral eyeshadow arriving & being madly in love with the colours. Plus there were 3 freebies in the package, which was exciting.
Reading Trust Agents and having lots of lightbulb moments.
.-= Kirsty Hall´s last post … Goodbye Pepper, Hello Colette =-.
I just wanted to say thank you to you Havi, and to your regulars and to the Beloved Lurkers, of which I am one mostly. Thank you for this place of safety and hilarity and open heartedness. It is of the deepest kind of healing and has, many times lifted my soul in the last few ick-fill months.
Thank you, Havi and Selma. And thank you everyone who shares their vulnerabilities with such braveness here. I am grateful.
Absorbed a variety of information this week. Also had some realizations, although sans Shiva Nata still quite useful. Case in point, today’s shop update, a series I’m looking to rename as it’s not so much about the shop as marking my progress pursuing a life sustained by art. (The marking of it means I have to DO something about it each week.)
I was concerned about that post series, both its content and name, seeming like sleazy marketing, something I’m probably hypersensitive to from here. I think it’s awesome your no marketing approach works for you, but I don’t have your scale of following or type of Thing. So… I’m working on finding a balance so that I can talk about my photos, what I’m offering, without feeling bad or sleazy about it.
.-= claire´s last post … Shop Update Friday #3 =-.
@Havi, sorry to hear about the continuing crankypants of February. Maybe one of your costumes could be crankypants that you can wear for a while when the mood takes you, and then remove symbolically when it’s time?
It’s been a long week, a strange mix of busybusy and oh oops not now after all.
The Hard:
– Many of the end-of-week plans got cancelled, 2 lunches, a class, and 2 dinners.
– Deadlines and busy and having to wrest collateral from the clutches of clients.
– February — the first 3 weeks take forever, but the last week zips by in a flood of “omg everyone wants something by the 1st!”
– Weather of gloom and doom and can’t decide.
– One of my two pairs of jeans is wearing out. Sad.
– Spent my art supply budget and then some, so going to have to be good next month to make up for it. Or sell more stuff.
– Old client with new project continues to waffle about starting, but wants it asap. Oh, people.
– Lots of people in hospital this week (though none of them me).
The Good:
+ Quiet time at home instead of those plans, and getting to see different friends for one of the lunches and probably dinners.
+ Weather let up to do some laundry.
+ New jeans were shockingly easy to find! And I had some money for them, sorta. Finally the muffin-top low-rise is out and jeans that at least sorta fit are back in. I even found a black pair!
+ Bought lots of new art supplies this past weekend, and have used some of them already.
+ Finishing up one project and working on another, and loving the gentle flow of new clients & projects into my life thanks to all I’ve learned about marketing in the past year.
+ Everyone’s out of the hospital and recovered or recovering now.
+ Cold weather = cuddly kittehs. Pod has been especially loving lately, which is wonderful.
+ Bills are paid, money and work keep coming in, and I can work even when it’s raining outside.
+ I’ve had a chance to do creative stuff for clients a lot this week, and have more in my future. Such an awesome change in my business focus that I have wanted, but wasn’t sure was possible!
.-= Amy Crook´s last post … Just What Change Do I Want to See? =-.
Friday! Chicken!
The hard:
– Lots of moments stressing me out about not stressing me out.
– Husband’s godfather died and I couldn’t go with him to the funeral.
– Didn’t even have one eighth of the hermit time I felt I needed.
– Tired. I want sun, long walks, wind in my face.
– Upcoming decisions.
The good:
– Just two more days and the yukkiest month of the year will be over. First day without my winter coat today. Yay, I no longer feel as though I am walking around in a sleeping bag.
– Ilio-sacral joint back into place and hence I can enjoy Paul Grilley’s DVD again. May have made a heroic mistake that had made the joint pop out.
– A job offer, out of the blue, from a place I used to work for. As off September, for one theatre season. Happy that they asked me. Only downside is that it is in a different city. I am given time to make up my mind.
– Made Chinese dumplings for a belated Chinese New Year celebration with friends who shared our time in Beijing. Happy memories and yummy dumplings.
– Touching gesture by my father.
– More ballet in a week than I have seen in the last months.
Okay the never seemingly never ending snow and cold are driving me over the edge. While I’m grateful that our snow volumes are nothing near what the east coast has gotten, I’m still sick of the stuff. And if it doesn’t get back to seasonal temps soon……….
The hard:
– overpacked days. Seriously. every single day has at least one meeting or appointment. This week, 4 events seem to be the norm. Can’t make any progress on my to do list because I can’t focus cause I’m running here there and everywhere.
– need a vacation and no time to take one. my doctoral program seriously needs to have 1 week off every few classes. If there are 8 classes per year x 6 weeks per class, then in theory there should be 4 weeks off. The class over Christmas went 8 weeks and had double the work. So much for a break.
– feeling like I sucked at my lecture in class Wednesday night because I just didn’t have enough time to properly prepare.
– lawyers are in my near future. the lawsuit with the ex-boss is proceeding. Trying to put them off for at least 4 weeks until I get on the other side of some work deadlings, but I don’t think that is going to happen.
The good:
– February has been full of money! More expense reports ended up on today’s paycheck which goes a long way to offset the mess that January’s outflow did to my checking account.
– My husband who goes to the store so that I have SOMETHING to eat in the house.
– My students who are picking up the slack and keeping things running at the center.
– a former awesome tenant from my past career that has reentered my new career to help service and sell equipment that I need for my lab! Could have never foreseen this, but it is truly a Godsend!
Hang in there everyone, Cranky February is almost a memory!
February is still now and weather is playing temperature games. Never liked these games…
The Hard:
– Lost focus on priorites and got late delivering projects
– Rain, Rain, Rain all week
– 12 hours workdays
– No meditation or exercise
The Good:
– Met extraordinary people on/off line
– Started a coaching program
– Read 2 books
– Started blogging again
– Got 2 new clients
– Participated in this exercise for the first time
Glad I did it, bless you.
@Steve and all the other first time Chickeneers, welcome to the party.. It’s a throw it all out there kind of place, we’ll give hugs for the Hard, high fives for the Good..
.-= Lucy´s last post … Tower Bridge on a Friday Afternoon =-.
The good: newdog is starting to get the hang of various things. I sold another article (& more importantly, to do so, I emailed someone I was a bit nervous about emailing. go me!). I went climbing *twice* (I love climbing, and it makes me happy). I wrote a fair bit of fiction, and worked out where to go next with the novel-that-got-stuck (ans: quite a lot of rewriting, but I think it will be *better* by a long way for it).
The hard: newdog is still not entirely there with housetraining overnight :-/ and as a result I haven’t been sleeping well. I had a short story rejected (but hey, now I can make it better & send it out again…). It rained pretty much ALL WEEK & I couldn’t get down the allotment to get started on this year’s planting.
Next week I want to really work on building the more creative writing I do (as opposed to the commissioned deadline-ish stuff, which I find easier to get going on) into my schedule. I think this may revolve around STEPPING AWAY FROM THE INTERNET 🙂
@Havi … yes to pleasurable experiences experienced with pleasure (and not guilt and shame, which is how so many of us experience them)
My HARD was huge this week. Big combat boots thrown at me. I’ve done my Chicken on my own blog.
http://humanbeingblog.com/2010/02/whack-a-mole-and-the-people-pleasing-autobahn/
The GOOD
+Figuring out I have an Internal Defense Attorney Monster
+Receiving my awesome Monster Journal in the mail
+Holding my 3 week old nephew for an hour and feeding him a bottle
+Making a pretty good video with voice over and everything at work
+The Canadian ice dancers and figure skaters
+The wonderful zippering-up feeling of old, deep wounds spontaneously healing when I had a moment of bing this morning
+One last dinner with my brother and his wife, who are moving back to LA this weekend
+Having a supportive boss
+A great week with my daughter
+My awesome husband
+A great night of salsa dancing last night
+Totally sucking at adding legs and rotations to my level 1 shiva nata practice, and being OK with the sucking
I’m a little late for a Friday chicken (on Saturday) but I just wanted to thank you, Havi, for something so beautiful that it brought tears to my eyes.
“And it’s good. Sometimes I forget to stop and breathe and say oh yes I like this thing.”
That is inspiring and reassuring and loving in the truest way… it tells me both that when I get to my thing in the way I want to, it will be Good. And it also reminds me that this thing, whatever the thing is that I’m doing, now, at any random moment, is Good, too.
Part of what I love about you, Havi, is how true your love is for yourself. All kinds of luscious soft comfort, for me, to see.
Thank you.
@Lucy I’ll start keeping track!
@Claire I had an idea and sent you an email about non-sleazy marketing.
Ah, that is the best fake band of the week EVER. I like.
.-= Wormy´s last post … The best day off ever =-.