Because it’s Friday AGAIN. And because traditions are important. In which I cover the good stuff and the hard stuff in my week, trying for the non-preachy, non-annoying side of self-reflection.
And you get to join in if you feel like it.
Oh boy! Friday.
It’s been a weird, twisted little week.
Let’s see …
The hard stuff
Pressure. I am not good at it.
Eight days until the Playground opens.
Insane amounts of things yet to be done and fun yet to be raised.
In the meantime, I still have clients and teaching and the bloggery. More creative juggling than I’d like. Less napping than I’d like.
Meh.
Things being complicated-er than hoped for.
Unexpected flooring issues at the Playground.
After my wonderful gentleman friend spent three days prepping and cleaning and painting so we could get started on it.
Uh oh. Needing a perfect simple solution to show up soon.
Extremely. Aggravating.
Some people in my life whose favorite sport is jumping to conclusions.
And the fact that this still annoys me even though there isn’t anything surprising about it.
Got stood up twice on client calls.
Which totally never happens. I think in five years of doing this it’s happened twice. And now twice in a week.
Both times for perfectly cromulent reasons. But still. Hmmmm.
Bad news in the world of roller derby.
Oh Rose City! We lost embarrassingly to Denver. Gah.
Though then Rocky Mountain went on to get whipped by the Oly Rollers the next day (that totally made me feel better) and went on to destroy Seattle. So that made up for some of the pain.
But still. This season is way too stressful. You know what we need? More Shivanauts on wheels! Next year.
And a happy-sad.
Some dear friends (and neighbors) might be moving to Australia. For three years.
Happy and excited for them but super sadface mouse for me.
The good stuff
That piece of good news we’ve been waiting for?
Yes, the not-getting of which has been the cause for great anxiety, impatience and general malaise in the “hard stuff” section of the Friday Chicken for three weeks now. Yes.
We got the news. Monday evening. And it is good.
And there has been great rejoicing.
Along with huge sighs of relief.
whew
My people.
Here’s what I said yesterday:
Phase 2 of the fun-brewing madness this week has shown me just how much support and encouragement there is for bringing something big and wacky into the world.
This is completely healing my deeply stuckified thought-programming of “you have to do everything yourself and you can’t trust anyone to be there for you”.
Seriously. It’s amazing.
I feel so supported and so loved and cared for. Thank you!
And they’re not just being helper mice but actually creating things to support the Playground.
Like Willie came up with this completely brilliant monster promotion to brew fun for the fun-brewing.
And Tara the Blonde Chicken is teaching a special class to raise monies for us too.
Various craft-ey people and Etsy-ites have written to ask if they can sew pillow cases or make costumes. It’s beautiful.
I feel so completely honored.
Huge deep overpowering gratitude.
For all the fun-brewers and friends and neighbors and blog readers and everyone in my life.
So. Much. Love.
This is a new flavor of grateful that I haven’t experienced before.
Crazy great shivanautical epiphanies.
Heaven. I’ve been doing lots of Shiva Nata and it’s all snap crackle pop in my brain right now.
Fountain of ideas and ways to implement things. Big stuff.
Friends!
A delightful visit with my Amna and much giggling and snacking and silliness.
What a joy. And now sad that she’s gone.
More time at home.
All this running around and doing stuff for the Playground has made me appreciate our beloved Hoppy House even more.
And then this week I got a few days to just do stuff at home and it was delightful.
Hoppy House! I love you!
And … playing live at the meme beach house!
Yes, that’s a Stuism too.
My brother and I have this thing where we come up with ridiculous band names and then say in this really pretentious, knowing tone, “Oh, well, you know, it’s just one guy.”
This week?
Bumblebeat Box
It’s a polka band. They have this album called Flight of the Bumblebeats. But it’s really just one guy.
That’s it for me …
And yes yes yes, of course you can join in my Friday ritual right here in the comments bit if you feel like it.
Yeah? Anything hard and/or good happen in your week?
And, as always, have a glorrrrrrrrrrrrious day and a restful weekend-ing.
And a happy week to come. Shabbat shalom.
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Oh Havi – hugs for the hard. Labor pains to bring your baby fully into the world! (But really love the word cromulent. And that you used it!)
Wish I was on the other side of the country so I could come put in some sweat helping you!
The Hard for us this week:
* As we were recovering from losing our old lady cat, the EO was rear ended. So now we have to deal with insurance companies, strained muscles, a broken bumper that needs replaced…
* Missing the EOs cat. Which makes me miss my Rhys-cat, who’s been gone 2 years now…
*Still have to poke the “baby” kitty every other day to keep her kidneys running.
*Not nearly enough time to do what I want to get done…
The Good
*Extremely productive this week, despite running around and chauffeuring EO, and getting car fixed.
*My heart-sister and her fiance closed on a house! Yay house close by me!
*Friends coming on Sunday for a cookout and D&D game. That’s always fun.
*Got the tomato and cucumber plants planted, walked the woods in back of my house, and have the little seed of a Big Idea gnawing its way through my brain.
*Local farmer now carrying EGGS as well as all the wonderful veggies and honey! YAY for good food!
*Baby kitty perfectly healthy as long as we keep poking her with subcutaneous fluids. And she’s still cute at 5 years old, even when complaining loudly. 😉
.-= Romilly´s last post … Learning Embroidery? =-.
Oh, polka music is fun!
This week…let’s see…
The hard
– I’ve had a chest cold/sore throat for several days. I’m ready for it to go away now. Really. Please?
The good
+ The combination of acupuncture/Chinese medicine/reducing my hours at the day job to half time is working. Migraines are almost completely gone. Much happiness has ensued.
+ Making lots of gorgeous yarn. Gorgeous yarn = happy Riin.
+ I finally managed to unjam my knitting machine. It still won’t knit properly, but at least I’ve made a bit of progress.
.-= Riin´s last post … How did that happen? =-.
Yay chicken!
The hard…
Started out the week badly with an unfortunate emotional disagreement. Very. Stressful.
So much going on I’m not exercising much. Not good for my sanity or my figure.
Attended a launch event that was ho-hum. Disappointing to give up a day for iffy event.
The good…
Delivered two projects this week. Yay! Progress!
Even though the event was ho-hum, it was nice to finally have the time to go to something and not freak out about deadlines.
Had an epiphany about a new thing I’ve been working on. Awesome! Increases my chance of success.
Have a great weekend!
.-= Avonelle Lovhaug´s last post … Your design will never be “perfect” =-.
I’m focusing on sending good energies toward the playground and all the people helping it to be born.
The Hard:
-Not enough sleep.
-Not enough time with my lady friend.
-My dearest friend lost her grandfather and was fired by text message this week. So much pain and tenderness there.
The Good:
-Successfully completed my first paid portrait shoot.
-Created a good-for-the-time-being logo for my photography business.
-Meeting wonderful new friends and potential collaborators.
I hope everyone has a lovely weekend that includes naps. Or at least one nap.
.-= Kylie´s last post … things are different now than they were then =-.
Oh Havi “cromulent”? I had to look it up.
Found this http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lisa_the_Iconoclast
Coined on the Simpsons? Which I have never watched but really you could have coined this word yourself.
Cheering the good news and loving friends and helper mice. And sorry for the hard.
Oh, Friday. Hello, Friday.
This week… has not been my week. If anyone reads this I would suggest skipping the rest of this paragraph, but I need to dump this somewhere… I keep injuring myself or destroying my stuff in creative accidental ways, my dog ran away (he came back, but that was a sobbing breakdown for which I was not prepared), one of my tires exploded, I need a desk and my desk is delayed and I don’t know when I’m going to get it, I am way behind on this work thing for the summer, a guy who turned into very creepy stalker in high school / college is AT my summer work thing and I have no idea how to handle that other than pray he ignores me as much as I ignore him, chaos absolutely everywhere that I cannot turn into order, wishing I were not here where there is chaos but knowing I can’t afford to be anywhere else because the government unexpectedly took half my summer stipend (they are not smart enough to realize that that’s my whole income for the rest of this year, not what I make every two weeks, so I’ll get it back… sometime in May or June 2011). I am frustrated, tired, hurting, tired, cranky, tired, scared, and tired. With a side of tired.
Bleah to all that.
The GOOD: I have somewhere to put my clothes and books that is not a cardboard box, and if my desk arrives today (please?!?) I will even have my own computer to use and my work supplies put away. My room is clean. My family does love me even if they are steeped in chaos that I don’t know how to handle. And it’s my best friend’s birthday today. Yay birthday!
Happy Friday everybody. I hope everyone’s weekend is better than their week, even if it was a good week!
Creative helper mousing was totally the highlight of my week. *beams* It’s so great to be able to give back, Havi.
And I have no doubt the playground will be the best place ever, and have a floor when it needs to have a floor. Total faith here, for what it’s worth.
Have a good weekend, Chickeneers!
The hard:
-finding out this morning that a missing person search ended for an old friend’s sister. badly. so much sad.
-realizing that I’ve put on weight this week to the extent that a skirt was pinchy.
-getting my days mixed up and not posting something on time. minor annoyance.
The good:
+getting to see my friend dance tonight at her recital and then have a cooking day with her tomorrow and have a small dinner party afterwards. yay!
+went walking with the awesome dude two nights this week and are planning to continue said walking
+tested a bunch of yummy recipes for the cookbook this week
.-= Scraps´s last post … Progress Pictures: Broken Ties =-.
You know what this whirlwind week does have? A nice backside. That is, it’s nice to see the end of it.
Hard.
-work-drunk followed by work-hangover
-mom-worry…as in the worries that come with being mom.
-bad food, which leads to ick-body
-the never-ending construction and all the little annoyances that continue to come along with that. (like, why did they close the west elevator, change the lock on the stairway door and then close the route to the east door at the same time? ugh.)
-insomnia. not stressed-out insomnia. just not-sleeping insomnia.
Good.
-I learned something from the work-drunk. I learned that self-care and loving breaks in the midst of the work-drunk make the work more effective. Despite a chorus of monsters who don’t believe that’s true. It really is.
-mom-worry was unfounded. everything turned out ok.
-giant project = done. or at least, the hard part is done.
-the miraculous power of chicken
-beautiful hike with Little Bird…we were adventurers tracking dinosaurs. Her slowness teaches me to stop and enjoy instead of powering through everything. Lots of wisdom from a 4-year-old.
.-= Emily´s last post … Greener Than Green =-.
Hey all! Sending lots of healing vibes for the difficult things.
Here’s my rundown:
I am happy to report I can’t think about any really hard stuff this week. Maybe I’m blocking it because I feel good today, and it’s my day off. Or maybe it was just an easy week. How nice.
On to the great!
+I have today off! Extra long weekend. I’m going to go thrift store shopping and get a massage. Very exciting!
+Wonderful graduation gift arrived in the mail from my family and my gentleman friend’s mom.
+Fresh swiss chard, spinach, and lettuces from the garden. Watching the broccoli grow. Coolest thing ever!
+Party at our house this weekend. Seeing friends. Gentleman friend’s amazing cooking.
+Girl cat is coming around and loving on me now.
+Dog curled up beside me with his little dog toy.
Wow, today should be a good day!
.-= Dawn´s last post … Being Stationary =-.
@Emily: I couldn’t agree more that it’s nice to see this week end. And thinking about it’s backside made me giggle.
Omgosh it’s Friiiidaaayyyy! /danceofrelief
Happy Chickening to all! <3!
This week in Kailand~
The Hard:
~My fiance working crazy long hours for a whole week and no days off and argh. Seriously, 14.5 hours in one day? Why? ;^;
~Getting triggered about abandonment issues and loneliness yuck and crying more than I had hoped I would.
~Miscommunications galore and trying to make sense of things when nothing seemed to make sense at all.
~Learning how to work Twitter. I'm so excruciatingly shy it's hard for me to talk to people. And of course one of my monsters thought it would be a good idea to pop up and tell me how narcissistic I seem not talking to people often enough and I'm not important enough to be on Twitter, no one cares, etc. Ew.
~Sovereignty issues popping up because no one seemed to know what they were doing and they were all in my space trying to figure it out.
The Good:
~My fiance gets this weekend off! YEAH! There will be movies and games and popcorn and ice cream and fun.
~Using Tactics from the Monster Manual to deal with my monsters. And then colouring some monsters with my monsters. Woo!
~Wearing rainbow stripey socks and a crown while doing Shiva Nata. I was Queen of France that day.
~Getting a hand-held sewing machine so I can make wee tiny clothes and costumes for my friends in my toy basket. Also proof that I am getting closer to my dream. (One day I will sew myself a Fairy Princess Dress and wear it to the grocery store just because I can.)
~May is almost over! Yay! No more May.
Trusting in right timing is so hard while you are in the wait, but once it has happened, it is so easy to say “hey, that was perfect”. Sending you wishes for the perfect simple solution.
Hard:
Realizing I need to cut out wheat, at least most of it, if I really want to feel better. Wahhh, pizza 🙁
Running out of cash before I ran out of grocery list.
Panic because the library locked my account and I thought it was because I *did* get dinged for the damaged Nigella book, despite what the librarian who checked it in told me.
Aisha’s car is having electrical problems and I may have to reschedule my appointment with the shaman.
Good:
Got to see my friends this week. One at Donkey, because he lives in town, the other saw my Facebook post about painting in the yard and was driving through after decorating her parents’ graves and dropped by to say hi.
Found out the library has a new policy of “if it’s overdue by a day, your account is locked”. Whew.
Art making! Mojo! Wheee! Two pieces in process for a small works show in Groton NY and more in my head waiting to be born.
Painting in the front yard. Another water tower piece, this one 62″ x 108″. Hyooge. 🙂
Good pictures of my work at the High Road Gallery website (link on sidebar at my blog). Good looking show!
I went sleeveless in public and no one died! (this is a huge one).
Wonderful organic apples from The Farmacy, and tasty gluten free vegan baked goods from me. Homemade hummus and cucumber sammiches on brown rice bread. Happy otter. 🙂
Discovering I have an inner otter.
Shiva Nata in my dreams. Wow. 😀
And we get to go to Marietta, the scenic route along 550 with all the hills and the trees like green broccoli. Gonna feed some ducks and hopefully visit my friend Anna 😀
.-= Andi´s last post … A Little Bit High, A Little Bit Low =-.
Bumblebeat Box! I can totally hear “Flight of the Bumblebeats” as a polka, perhaps a bit klezmer-esque.
My hard:
-My sweetie got triggered by something and started throwing shoes — projecting shoes, really. I think a part of him realized that he was projecting, but it took the rest of him a while to run down.
-Wishing for more discretionary funds.
My good:
+Plugging away at my dissertation proposal, one baby step at a time, and actually enjoying a lot of it.
+Early birthday gifts — my birthday is still nearly a month away, but I know some of what will be arriving in the mail, and it’s fun to anticipate.
+Went on a field trip with my daughter, that turned out to be a very cozy and loving shared experience. It was a huge improvement over last year’s class trip, which took place in a bowling alley; something about the combination of constant noise and people telling her what to do seems to make my daughter just fall to pieces in bowling alleys. This year, we were outside, and there was swimming and a petting zoo and a creek and gentle horses to ride…and peace.
Much love to all the Chickeneers! Hugs for the hard, and rejoicing for the good!
.-= Kathleen Avins´s last post … Disabling the autopilot =-.
Sending you good floor wishes, with a possible side of good floor elves doing some magic to get it sorted.
Beth – hugs.
My chicken is surprised this week.
The hard:
– dealing with the parts of me that think I should be doing Something Productive all the time as well as thinking that it is Horribly Self Indulgent to do anything I enjoy (even if that is productive). Taking a rest is clearly next to kitten kicking in the list of Terrible Things I Can Do. (note – no kittens have been kicked in the making of this chicken.)
– a shoe. A predictable shoe, and one that I know comes from that persons stuff but still – ouch.
The good:
– getting everyting done and sent off on time without any weeping or gnashing of teeth. The grace, the calm I’ve asked for – totally there.
– I asked if I do something a leetle off the curriculum for the next part of my MA and not only did they say yet, but there was enthusiasm and a whole lot of believing in Jane’s ability to do good stuff. Awesome.
– resting. Walking on the beach, reading a book, napping, playing with the cats.
– some very pleasing photography experiments.
– epiphanies – thank you shiva nata.
– looking forward to going to Berlin next week, despite the voice of doom that tells me it that looking forward to something will cause it to be doomed. Being less impressed by the doom! doom! doom! monkeys = good times.
Hi,
And I am so happy that it’s coming together for you over there w/playground et al. Awesome!
Hard:
the usual formula j-o-b + daily life obligations – little time to process stuff and create joy
working on it
writer’s block – no shortage of idea, just not knowing how to intelligibly present them, overthinking? Probably.
working on it
Noticing my tendency to be preachy and annoying : D
Good:
actually starting to feel like I have some friends after living in this city for five years and pretty much having my son to talk to (Do you know who Bib Fortuna is? I sure do) god, trees and my brother and sister-in-law (oh and the bimonthly tearful conversations on the phone with my mother : D
Ran. Breathed. Felt. Transcended.
Roasted a fine chicken and was blessed to share it with loved ones.
Choosing a different way to be helpful/a friend and not being preachy and annoying (hard but good)
Thank you.
Dasvedanya and have a wonderful weekend.
Happy Friday, everyone! Here’s to chickens with nice backsides!
The hard
– HUGE fight with hubby about designing my website. In the end, neither one of us got our way and no one compromised either. And I don’t have a whole lot of faith that he’ll either design my website without holding a grudge or even that he’ll design it at all.
– Now having to think about the possibility that he won’t design my website and that I’ll have to make time to learn WordPress and deal with it myself. Not at all interested in doing that.
– Feeling resentful that hubby said he’d do it and now having to make space for the possibility that he won’t.
– Dead people. Too many in one week. On Sunday, learned that a good friend of the family had died. Then, on Wednesday, news that hubby’s friend also died. Suddenly and unexpectedly.
– Seeing hubby really hurting about friend’s death and feeling helpless… ugh!
– Arrived at a client meeting on Thursday to learn that they were expecting a presentation from me, after they specifically told me they didn’t. Was completely unprepared for that and left the meeting feeling bad about it.
– Bleeding monies. So many things needed buying…. bank account is looking lonely.
The good
– trip to Vancouver BC for music shopping. Glad to see that there are still a few independent music stores where one can browse sheet music. I even found a few things in the 50% off bin.
– train ride to Vancouver goes along the water and through some lovely farmland where there were baby goats to look at.
– Looks like I might land a couple of projects that have been percolating for awhile. This means monies coming in. Yay!
.-= Chris´s last post … Taking orders =-.
Friday? Not possible, but since you are all here it has to be true. Sending everyone compassion for the hard and hoorays for the good.
My hard:
– Incredible fatigue after return from India, this still lasts.
– Circles under my eyes that seem to reach down towards my belly-button.
– Husband stuck in a town in India because of Air India strike, had to re-organzize and re-book everything and this whole strike ended up costing AN AWFUL LOT OF MONEY, really, an amount that hurts and that is just gone.
– Realizing that the trip to India just totally pushed all my HSP buttons and still feeling that I failed.
– Knowing that there are fear issues that need to be tackled, feeling lackadaisacal about facing these monsters.
– Paperwork, red tape.
– Brother in distress.
My good:
– Appointment with my kineologist was a wake-up call in some respects. Her support is always such a treat. know that the trip to India was an experience that pushed my buttons for a reason.
– I shook hand with some of my monsters and decided to face them – gradually.
– Lots of time to give in to my need for sleep and quiet.
– Husband back home.
– Reading Elizabeth Gilbert’s “Eat, Pray, Love”.
– Cancelling everything that otherwise would have been on my plate for next week.
Have a great weekend!
@Andi: The Farmacy. I love that!
Big hugs for everyone’s hard this week, and cheers for the good.
This week’s hard:
– My motivation and patience for working on big things has gone on vacation. This while I have two big things hanging out on my desk that desperately need to be worked on.
– Realizing just how much stuff I have to get done for summer shows and such and how little time I have left to do it.
– Lots of little gnat-like to-dos flitting about, resisting getting whapped.
– Semi-hermit mode for the past couple weeks, which is kind of good, but also means lots of catching up with phone calls and e-mails and such that I put on the back burner while getting my hermit on.
This week’s good:
– All that hard work in the gardens is paying off with not just pretties to look at, but lost weight. (Which needs to be lost.)
– Snakes! I was moving some rocks last weekend and uncovered a little nest of (harmless) baby snakes. So unexpected and fun to watch.
– An out-of-the-blue special order and an invitation to sell in a new out-of-state-gallery.
Happy Friday, everyone!
.-= Lori Paximadis´s last post … the only constant is change =-.
Big hugs to everyone for the hard and cheers for all the good.
The hard:
The pup had two gulping episodes this week, one really long and hard, and I spent a few days almost obsessing about possible causes. Another reason to curse a good memory as I have over a year of episodes to run through and look for commonalities. Ugh.
Trying to keep a dog from eating *any* wheat seems near impossible, what with people slipping him treats and him finding “treats” just waiting for him in bushes or on the sidewalk or ..
The good:
I found something on Google related to the pup’s issue that was useful and gave me a new direction and with that finding + a round of Shiva Nata plus a chance issue mentioned by a neighbor, I think I may have an idea as to what’s happening.
A lovely neighbor who listened when I needed it.
A visit to the waterfalls with Amna and pup.
Portland food carts.
I tried barefoot running in the squishy muddy wet grass at the park (this feels like heaven).
It is the end of the month and I still have a little money, even enough to buy a set of cards from a lovely artist on etsy. I cannot wait to send them out.
Cookies ..
Possibly there is more, but I cannot think of it right now – it really was a lovely week except for the pup’s troubles.
.-= Elizabeth´s last post … filling the creative well =-.
Hard:
* asthma
* dog with eye trouble
* other people’s !@#!@# drama
* still not done with project at top of my list
* not allowing myself to watch Roland Garros matches because groceries come first
* realizing that at this time last year, I was similarly behind and not getting to see as much of France as I’d planned because I felt obligated to work
Good:
* meds
* showers!
* having fun with perfume. I wore one this week called “Enraged Bunny Musk” 🙂
* being entertained by reports of the goings-on at Roland Garros
* two new projects lined up
* I am really good at my job, and I love it
And on that note, back to work! Blessings and featherlicious fun to all. 🙂
.-= Mechaieh´s last post … il y a un temps pour toute affaire sous les cieux… =-.
Hard, hard, hard. My uncle is dying. I hope my mother gets there in time to say her goodbyes. Oh, the abrupt pain. Unexpected turns for the worst are awful.
Good-ish. I survived my ex-anniversary. Bigger pain overshadowed it.
The hard
Questioning the redesign of my website, is it really ok to be that much me. what will people think. Do I care.
Swelling and yuck from my root canal which decided to go wrong,.. but now it’s right again.
General tiredness from too much running.
good
website rewrite is almost mostly done.
Mr Awesome is on his way home for the weekend, which makes me feel happy. 🙂
Good attendance to my classes. Private sessions magical! Yay!
Deep resting made me feel rejuvenated. And ready for the next adventure!
Sending happy thoughts to your floor, and the whole playground!
Happy Friday fellow chickaneers!
Grats on all the good, and hugs for all the hard… at least we can be in this together!
The Hard:
– Trying to remember how to listen to my body
– Realizing the damage I’ve done by NOT listening to my body, and trying to forgive myself for it.
– Having patience… waiting on news (hopefully good) about something I really want, and trying very hard not to drive myself (and everyone around me) crazy with the waiting-stress
– Still stressing over money, and the Beau not having a job, and feeling like we need to have A Talk about his job hunting efforts, all while my monster is screaming at me that if I even think about bringing up A Talk, the Beau will leave me and I’ll be alone FOREVER!!!
– Dealing with my extremely energetic puppy in the middle of a 3 week break from daycare… trying very hard to remember that I love her, even when she is tearing apart the cushions on my couch… trying even harder to not feel like a horrible fur-mom /sigh
The Good:
+ Rediscovering how amazing it feels when I do listen to my body
+ Watching my niece play her violin like a pro… damn that girl is talented! So much pride 😀
+ Having an epiphany re: dealing with the fur-child, and being able to laugh at myself over it
+ Having an epiphany which led to my being able to apply to do something that I’ve been dying for the chance to do
+ Realizing that asking for help isn’t the horribly-awful thing I always fear it to be
+ Realizing that I have people in my life who actually want to help me, if only I can bring myself to ask them for it!
+ Having epiphanies all over the place, and realizing that this whole “being mindful” thing spills into my entire life, not just the areas I was intentionally being mindful in… if that makes sense
+ Realizing that even in the midst of the hard, I can take a moment for myself, breathe deep, and be ok… even if just for that one moment.
I’m wishing you so much good luck with your Fun Brewing, Havi! I hope the floors provide a good foundation, the fun bubbles up, and everything is awesome just when it needs to be.
The Hard
– My hard drive on my work computer had a massive data fault yesterday and had to be reformatted.
– My tummy’s just been generally acting up and this DID NOT HELP.
– Last SpeakEasy call was this Weds. No more SpeakEasy! Sadface.
– ComLuv is annoying me this week, and I have to go fiddle with my account.
– Wanting to give more than love and good wishes to Havi’s big playground Fun-Brewing but not having it available.
– Serious “oh god not another product I might want but don’t want to put money into right now” launch fatigue.
– Showed a nifty design to a client and she didn’t seem to dig it much. Sadface, and also need to reread her critique to figure out what’s hitting her wrong since it was sort of vague & jumble. Confidence meh.
– Generally feeling stressed and wanting to hide, while knowing I need to seek more visibility instead.
The Good
+ My BFF came to my rescue, took me to Fry’s, and we bought a bigger, faster, awesomer drive to replace it.
+ Time Machine worked EXACTLY as advertised, and restored my data flawlessly. Except for how it’s no longer choking on the lack of HD space, my computer is back like it never died.
+ Nice young man I had a date with yesterday was very sweet about me having to cut it short to drive to Fry’s. Sigh.
+ My first Naomi Ittybiz consulting call was today and I have some awesome homework, and she made some great observations. I’ll be reorganizing Antemortem Arts by subject rather than medium, and going on a big Twitter following binge, among other things.
+ Have been putting on my big girl panties and just fixing shit that bothers me lately, instead of tolerating it as a minor irritation. I feel this is a positive sign of changes I’m making overall, but I like seeing it writ small where it’s obvious as well as in the bigger spaces where it’s harder to see the progress.
+ Saw How to Train Your Dragon on Saturday and it was way fun. I loved all the art in the credits!
+ Have been painting and am so, so happy with all the bright inspirey goodness in my life right now.
.-= Amy Crook´s last post … How I Almost Threw Away $400 =-.
I am home in time to do the Chicken! Jiggety Jig.
The good:
Portlandia! Havi and the GF! Going with Elizabeth and Atlas on a waterfall adventure. Hanging with Bridget and KT friends. Meeting many fine lady chickens! Powell’s books. Delicious foods. Being so lovingly hosted and toured around and hospitaliated. You guys really know how to make a girl feel loved. 🙂
The hard:
I’m home! Just now! And I have no idea what to do with myself. It’s only been a week, but seriously. What did I do when I found myself at home? I can’t remember.
On a related note, not super-looking forward to the re-entry blues. And the mulling of What Comes Next. I’m afraid it’s something big.
.-= Amna´s last post … The shoulder détente =-.
OH the darn floor. Sounds like a “grounding” ritual may be in order?
Yay to everyone’s good and hugs for the hard.
My hard:
-The moodswings, the pimples, the insomnia followed by more moodswings, all due to the drug to stop the female problem
-Getting bad news on the biopsy front–precancer. I have a choice to “watch and wait” which for me means “watch and worry” or to have a hysterectomy. I’m choosing hysterectomy .
-Grief and sadness and worry over this choice. And guilt.
-Husband NOT understanding of my outbursts, which have distanced him and I can’t really even control them. Not my fault. Frustration.
-SHOES at work. Multiple, big nasty shoes.
The good:
+CHOOSING the hysterectomy. This is a choice, not me being the victim. I don’t have to have it. Power in choosing.
+finding a support website where women who have hysterectomy become princesses. I’ve always wanted to be a princess.
+You know that time I’ve been asking for to really figure out what my next move will be career-wise? I have to take 4-6 weeks off from work. Not exactly what I was looking for, but hey, I’ll have a lot of time to meditate. And write. And color my monster coloring book.
+ I reached out to my mom for comfort, and allowed myself to accept the comfort she was able to give me, even though it wasn’t how I wanted it, and that was a BIG change
+ Picturing my monsters having a huge uproar over this in a ballroom, and my TRUTH as a small quiet voice over on the side, whispering into the microphone: It’s going to be OK.
+Realizing halfway through my reaction over the shoes that the shoes were shoes and deciding not to react.
+ Letting myself cry and feel everything instead of stuffing it down.
+ our new ferret, who has a ferret disease, is getting better under our care. AND she’s made friends with one of the other three.
It’s Saturday but shhhh 😛
So glad you got good news and are feeling supported!
The Hard:
* exams
* coursework (so revision for exams couldn’t be done)
* housemates noisy at 4am
* somewhat “on-my-own” supportwise
* internet issues makes connecting revision hard
* getting sunstroke hurts
Good:
* I had a MAJOR epiphany over a previous VPA 🙂
* I got offered a voluntary placement to help those in need
* Reminders of using metaphors
* finishing ym coursework in time
* finally seeing clarity over my sweet, tiny thing/project
* A friend lending me her notes to revise from
* Another friend came round Monday night and we stayed up til 3am chatting and laughing and singing and just taking a break from stress.
* Disney movies make everything better.
Have a wonderful week everyone!
.-= Rose´s last post … Insights – Asking for Help =-.
so happy to read patience pays off and good things can come to those who practice!
the hard:
shoes. steel toed boots flying at my teacher head
crazy peeps for me and my sweets
friends having a hard time too: gravely ill parents, break ups, not pregnant yets
homeland security – seriously, did you think you’d find this one on the good list?
mom’s health declining
the good:
monster coloring book
sovereignty lessons on the fluent self
havi’s posts this week
the kindness of twitter friends
kudos and atta boys from people i respect
a new project i’m totally excited about!
being asked my professional opinion and it being heard
teaching yoga and people responding!
finding another blogger that is writing my thoughts about work stuff – crazy! she’s brilliant!
.-= Tami´s last post … Song of the Day! =-.
Better late than never!
Here’s hoping that the floor fairies arrive quickly and resolve your problems!
The Hard:
– Moving. 14 years in the same office. Moving just 30 feet. Exhausting. Many sore body parts. And still not completely unpacked
– Legal wrangles. Prospective research client is playing lawyer. University lawyer not amused. Scary language put in by client. Lost a night of sleep over it.
– General exhaustion from having way too much on my plate.
The Good:
+ Spouse and two great friends who helped relocate 14 years of stuff 30 feet. Much harder than you could imagine.
+ New tenants also helped with move. I really like them! Nice to have the building fully occupied again. I think it is happy to have people using it too 😉
+ Younger kitty’s liver numbers still perfectly normal (had a big scare 6 months ago). Whew!
+ University lawyer who is working hard to look out for both the best interests of the university and me!
+ Student workers! For once I have more than adequate coverage for my upcoming business trip.
Hope everyone enjoys the LONG holiday weekend.
The hard:
– my thumb is still broken, and thus still in a splint. Arghghghggh. Very frustrating.
– fairly sure that I am going to be turned down by the charity I’ve been doing volunteer training with. More irritatingly, I still don’t really understand what it is that they’ve been trying to get me to change in the way I’ve been doing stuff. (I think I may just about understand now, but it’s a bit late now!)
– seems like it’s been a long week & I haven’t got as much stuff done as I’d have liked to.
The good:
– good counselling session.
– thumb is hurting a lot less!
– hung out with a friend on Friday and that was really nice.
– went to another friend’s comedy evening thing which was also good fun — and good to get myself actually out of the house.
– have found out that someone locally is doing some local-food-network things, which I’m keen to get involved in.
– I got an iPad this week! I love it very, very, very much.
.-= Juliet´s last post … iPad! =-.
More and more I am just loving the tone of your blogging, Havi.
I ordered your Shiva Nata kit and I must tell you that I have not TOUCHED it yet, but it is already doing things, while it sits quietly in the corner of my home-office.
I am shyly edging closer.
.-= Amy Martin´s last post … Hello world! =-.
I’m wishing you so much good luck with your Fun Brewing, Havi! I hope the floors provide a good foundation, the fun bubbles up, and everything is awesome just when it needs to be.
The Hard
– My hard drive on my work computer had a massive data fault yesterday and had to be reformatted.
– My tummy’s just been generally acting up and this DID NOT HELP.
– Last SpeakEasy call was this Weds. No more SpeakEasy! Sadface.
– ComLuv is annoying me this week, and I have to go fiddle with my account.
– Wanting to give more than love and good wishes to Havi’s big playground Fun-Brewing but not having it available.
– Serious “oh god not another product I might want but don’t want to put money into right now” launch fatigue.
– Showed a nifty design to a client and she didn’t seem to dig it much. Sadface, and also need to reread her critique to figure out what’s hitting her wrong since it was sort of vague & jumble. Confidence meh.
– Generally feeling stressed and wanting to hide, while knowing I need to seek more visibility instead.
The Good
+ My BFF came to my rescue, took me to Fry’s, and we bought a bigger, faster, awesomer drive to replace it.
+ Time Machine worked EXACTLY as advertised, and restored my data flawlessly. Except for how it’s no longer choking on the lack of HD space, my computer is back like it never died.
+ Nice young man I had a date with yesterday was very sweet about me having to cut it short to drive to Fry’s. Sigh.
+ My first Naomi Ittybiz consulting call was today and I have some awesome homework, and she made some great observations. I’ll be reorganizing Antemortem Arts by subject rather than medium, and going on a big Twitter following binge, among other things.
+ Have been putting on my big girl panties and just fixing shit that bothers me lately, instead of tolerating it as a minor irritation. I feel this is a positive sign of changes I’m making overall, but I like seeing it writ small where it’s obvious as well as in the bigger spaces where it’s harder to see the progress.
+ Saw How to Train Your Dragon on Saturday and it was way fun. I loved all the art in the credits!
+ Have been painting and am so, so happy with all the bright inspirey goodness in my life right now.
.-= Amy Crook´s last post … How I Almost Threw Away $400 =-.