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Each week I write these Visions of Possibility and Anticipation to practice asking for what I want. And to get clarity on what that really is, even when asking feels conflicted.
I always get useful information about my relationship with various aspects of the ask. Join in if you like!
Thing 1: an extra dose of peacefulness.
Here’s what I want:
Between the news (from which I am steadily and consciously removing myself) and another situation and the general …. oh how to explain to non-HSP … zappiness in the force…
Extra peacefulness is needed.
Steady, grounded peacefulness that has even more peacefulness inside. It is all peaceful-ed up from all directions.
The qualities inside of the want:
Steadiness. Shelter. Safety. Presence. Grace. Lightness. Resonance. Love. And, of course, peacefulness.
The superpower of being my own anchor.
Ways this might work:
Conducting and compassing. All the time. Even for small doses. Two minutes here, five minutes there.
Get on the floor. Get close to the ground.
Ten breaths. And then another ten.
Lots of old Turkish lady yoga.
Dissolving and radiating.
I’m playing with…
Remembering that I can set up my external environment to support this. And I can fill up on my me-ness, my suchness, and fill my internal space with presence, which is a direct invitation for peacefulness.
Presence and peacefulness are best friends. If I invite one in, the other one will tag along. That is one of the things that showed up at the Crossing.
Also I seem to remember that the last time I asked for peacefulness, I learned a lot about its opposite before the peacefulness came whooshing in. Maybe this time, now that we know each other better, our encounter can begin with sweetness.
Thing 2: Learn more about the hidden usefulness of the Giant Perceived Delay.
Here’s what I want:
There is a thing that Stompopolis needs, and I have not taken care of this need, and it is interesting that I keep choosing other things to do.
So I want to (quietly, lovingly — safety first!) investigate.
Is there something useful about this delay? Maybe it is not at all a delay and instead a Percolating Time. Are there monsters who haven’t been heard? Or maybe there’s something I need in order to take a next step (or to back off and let this cook some more).
Information. That is what I want. And if backing off is needed, then I will back off. I just want to make sure that it’s not sad, scared parts of me whispering go-away-don’t-look.
The qualities inside of the want:
Curiosity. Patience. Desire. Fortitude. Faith. Planting. Spaciousness. Presence. Blowing kisses.
And the superpower of what if this is actually right timing?
Also known as the superpower of Oh Right Nothing Is Wrong. With a pinch of Removing Guilt Helps Everything Go More Smoothly.
Ways this might work:
I’m not sure. I’m going to put this here and practice letting it be.
I’m playing with…
The wish is here. I’ll check in with it over the weekend.
Thing 3: A thing that will hold money and ID when I go dancing.
Here’s what I want:
Havi Bell happiness requires much dancing, bouncing and being in gazelle state. Most of the time this happens in the living room, at the Playground, on the street and of course in dance class. But sometimes it happens ON THE DANCE FLOOR.
And I want a place to put money and ID that is not be a purse and still more effective than sticking everything in my bra.
So. It could be an arm band or a wrist cuff, as long as it can hold identification and maybe a credit card.
It has to be attractive. Or if not let it be bizarre enough that that it looks like part of a nutty outfit because that would work. What else?
- NOT a shoe pocket or an anklet or anything that requires bending over.
- I’ve seen some cute garter belt style solutions to this but I need something that will also work under a tight dress if need be.
- Not a hip pack or anything bouncy. When I dance, I need to DANCE.
The qualities inside of the want:
Ease. Freedom. Beauty. Play. Delight. Grace.
And the superpower of elegant solutions.
Ways this might work:
If anyone here wants to throw out a suggestion or something they’ve seen or tried, that is welcome and appreciated.
Someone on the Floop or maybe at the Frolicsome Bar (facebook) might know of something good.
Etsy.
I’m playing with…
Wanting the want. Dancing it up.
Noticings about the things I want this week…
Presence and ease is big. As is making small changes in approach to change the environment, or vice versa.
Bonus wishes, please!
Some of these are secret agent code and some of them are things I’m silent retreat-ing on. Some are qualities that will help. And some are almost pre-wishes: tiny seeds for future processing.
- Decide on new year’s plans. If X, then Y. Etc.
- Knights of The Blue Table?
- Passport!
- Dolphins and herring? Open a dolphin adoption agency? Decisions. Hm.
- Mezuzot.
- 80s!
- Eva.
- Earlier to bed.
- Anticipation.
- Vault time.
- Writing is pleasure.
I’m playing with…
Having a secret thing to look forward to.
Progress report on past Very Personal Ads.
Just to update you on what’s happened since last time.
OHMYGOD. I wanted horizon and water, and then that immediately became available to me in two different ways and then I fought it all week. Huge resistance. All the monsters and all the objections.
But after many productive monster negotiations, it all worked out, and I have MULTIPLE DAYS of horizon and water in my calendar now. Not all at once. But they exist and they are paid for and I am in heaven just thinking about it.
Then I wanted a quality in a quantity. Like a thimbleful of sweetness. Or a pot of silliness.
And Sarah gave me the idea of a Sarah-ful being a unit of measurement, and yes why not. So I am now measuring things in Havi Bells. A Havi Bell of Delight. A Havi Bell of Appreciation.
Then my big ask was about clearing out cobwebs and wow. This was the week of cobweb clearings. I had the superpower of all superpowers of de-cobwebbing. It was INTENSE. Glad I asked.
And all the bonus wishes came true except for one. I don’t know why it took me so long to do bonus wishes. Oh right because the monsters think it’s “cheating”!
Playing. Shelter for the comments.
What’s welcome: Your own wishes, gwishes, visions and personal ads, small or large. Updates on past ones if you like. Things sparked for your own process.
I’m receptive to warm wishes for the things I’m working on and playing with.
We ask for what we need, and we give each other space and spaciousness for the process.
This is a place of safety for creative play and exploration, with a very non-dogmatic approach. We don’t tell each other how to ask for things and we don’t give unsolicited advice. We play.
That’s it. Let’s throw a bunch of things in the pot!
As always, amnesty applies. Leave a wish here any time you want.
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You know what’s really funny – I hadn’t noticed *myself* needing peace and grounding, but I *had* sensed that this friend of mine who is a load more Force-sensitive than I am was needing peace and grounding. Like, literally those words. Isn’t this stuff funny?!
I’m going to experiment with the theory that maybe I’m needing peace and grounding myself too… OH WAIT, I am totally needing peace and grounding. Sheesh. I’ve been all over the place in stressy trying-to-do-things mode for the last few days!!
Love you, Havi <3
Also, gwishing you elegant and unlikely solutions to all your conundrums (conundra?) this week.
And I am bizarrely excited about 'Knights of The Blue Table' without knowing what it is. 😀
And gwishing you lots of peace and grounding, of course. Ha ha! I forgot that bit 🙂
Thank you for the phrase “gazelle state”! It’s the perfect name for something I do in my life and hadn’t recognized as a thing for the Book of Me…but now I can list it!
Many, many warm wishes to you!
Warm wishes for your visions, Havi and everyone who reads.
This week I want to feel Christmas-y. Everyone I talk to says that it doesn’t feel like Christmas and they don’t know why. Neither do I, and I want to feel it.
Decorations are up, finally, and I’ve been playing Christmas music. There are presents under the tree, I have plans to bake Christmas goodies with a friend. We’ve seen the children’s patent at church. We’ve had snow. What is missing?
Whatever it is, I’d like to find it.
I also want to continue to feed tomatoes to the reptiles. Pomodoros for the iguanas helped so much last week! I ended the week in hibernation mode, but the early part was downright exhilarating as I took care of one iguana after another. Wheee! More of that, please.
What I’ll play with: the qualities of curiosity and courage. Setting a timer. Wearing a Santa hat.
Good wishes to all.
This vpa felt so joyful to me. Helping the zappy crazy sad sped-up vibes. Thank you.
In my world of the external, not having a separate writing space is sucking. My internal peace, inspiration, basic functioning seems to depend on it. I don’t know what to do. The space is how I get to presence, nothing else really seems to work at this point. It is good to know, I guess: this is the one thing that works for me in particular, everything else is a distant second place. Lord knows I have tried. Anyway. My new space is where I live, and that is really a huge challenge for me. I am fully in writer-crazy right now! At least it is familiar terrain. Such weirdo misery, so real, so unnecessary.
Wishes:
My vpa is that for the millionth time, this shifts into inspiration, progress, the zone.
That sag- libra writes itself
That the big scary transition stuff looming goes on hold or just works out okay, jeez Louise
Sidling up sideways and then once I am in it, focus ease quickness just the essentials.
Luck, ease, health, affordability on Silent Retreat A
Peace and healing on other silent retreat
Locating the thing I lost in my car or wherever I lost it
New ok routine here during the day
Openings
I echo your first VPA. I am very much in need of peace. Have been traumatized, even with media-avoidance. Keep looking at my six year old son and crying.
So yeah… would really like peace.
I would also like hibernation and clarity in my preparation. But mostly peace. And love.
Peace and sweetness and love. I think just invoking those qualities for the week works.
And hooray for horizon and water!
Inwardness. I want the inwardness of this solstice time. I want the space to be inward.
Ease. I want the necessary things to happen easily and peacefully.
Connection. I feel so alienated from people this time of year, and I want the sweetness of connection while still having inwardness.
May I borrow a cup of everyone else’s visions, please? They all sound so lovely.
Planting a heartfelt gwish for a joyful, magical, peaceful, plentiful holiday season that doesn’t need a lavish budget to feel lavish. May it be so. <3
I want calm and ease in transitions. Oh how I want this.
I want to remain sovereign through the transitions and remember any thrown shoes have nothing to do with me.
I want the superpower of grace under pressure.
I want sparklepoints for making a change and shifting my energy!
oh…and I want tonight’s candlelit yoga class to be as amazing and restorative in reality as I am imagining it in my head
Havi, an idea for thing 3.
You might want to look at the flyactive wristpockets for carrying your things to dance class.
I have been using one when I go running to carry a card or key and they are quite handy.
They are here in Australia but it looks like they do web orders. Website is http://flyactive.com.au/products/wrist-pocket
I don’t have any affiliation with them apart from the fact I like their product.
Now back to being a lurker…
@Havi, I found an item at Dick’s Sporting Goods for a runner friend … it is a wristband thingy that is apple green with gray reflective, and that has a fold/pocket for an I.D. On their website, try Home : Footwear : Running Shop : Headbands & Wristbands and then look for Nathan Wrist Runner, Item Number: 15434536. (The store also had fabulous crazy-color stripey/dotted/star/sploosh-pattern knee-high socks!)
<3 to you and all.
Strangely, someone just posted these on Facebook:
They look fun. And similar to the wrist-pocket type things others have posted, but with beads and crystals and things…
http://wallets2wear.com/
Am I too late to join the conversation? 🙂 Anyway, this is great! I don’t know how badly need these stuffs until I read your post. We get so preoccupied sometimes that we oversee the basic things our “self” needs.
I just love the idea of a Havi Bell as a measure of a quality!
Of course, being of sound geek it reminds me of decibels, and I’m wondering if Havi Bells sort of work like decibels in being a logarithmic scale, with some counterintuitive implications.
A 3 dB increase is actually doubling the amount of power, but at the same time we only perceive it as a slight increase even though there’s actually twice as much. There seems to be something cool and that idea, maybe.
Wishing many Havi Bells of love and joy!
SUN. I want Sun and all the qualities of Sun: warmth, fire, napping-in-the-sun, dancing-in-the-sun, light (warm-spectrum and not-too-bright light only please, but *illumination*, yes please), energy, growth/movement/expansion. Ease, relaxation, comfort, release, shining, sparkling. And Seeing From On High, a benevolent warm golden-bath-y overview of Everything.
I want these qualities for everyone else who wants and/or might need them now, too. That seems integral to the Want; it’s not the private sort of Sun. (For me, right now.)
Relatedly: less red and more warmsoftorangeyellowpeach.
Possibilities here: Awareness. Noticing. Use and appreciation for the components I already have (fireplace, lamps, fabrics, colors). Being open to unexpected sources for this. Reminders that it’s okay to want. Support.
I CANNOT WAIT for this solstice and my part of the world starting to tilt back towards Sol. Considerably more so than usual, it feels like.
And a big Silent Retreat gwish. That which is very, very tender and painful and precious and slowly, slowly coming into the light. (To the Sun.)
Hello, Visioneers. (Good movie btw)
Today, I want to continue de-cobwebbing (thanks for the metaphor Havi). I want to be amazed at how much I can get done in one song. I want to feel really cared for tonight, and especially when I wake up tomorrow.
Qualities: Peaceful, steady, grounded energy. Puttering. Making and dedicating space. Magic.
The next few days I want:
Low on stress and high on delight at work, please. Enjoyment and smiles and special decoration, and not a lot of pressure.
This will lead me to What I Want For Vacation.
Two weeks that include time at home, massive cobweb clearing, peacefulness, lots of quality + quantity time with my love, quiet celebration, beauty, rest, restoration, and sleep. May it be so.
Love to all.
Very warm wishes for the horizon and water! And safety for learning more about the delay! And I can picture an shiny (Havi) Bell containing any number of great things.
Also, because I was drinking and reading, I thought I saw Fondue in a list of qualities. Yay, fondue! (That reminds me of a pocket where I haven’t let love in. Hmm. If I was nicer to person X, we could have fondue together again. FYI, if someone’s food square drops off her fork into the fondue pot, she has to kiss the person next to her.)
Re dancing accessories: I bought a lovely arm band made out of leather scavenged from old cars. It makes my wrist sweat, but it works! Plus, it makes me feel like Wonder Woman!
Aha, now for gwishing on a [gold] star…
All I want is holding hands with:
1. the me who was unexpectedly in complete, utter bliss while waiting for the train (Freudian slip: I first wrote brain). Bliss me is unflappable and impervious to analytical pokes. I just need to ask my feet to remember the tingle.
2. my work Project, who obviously looks like a butt-monkey and wants to run across a meadow of daisies…with me! Soon, the beginning of the relationship endorphins will wear off enough to really notice that his hair looks nothing like Elvis’. So much to discover.
Oh, there will be an anniversary. We’ll have to walk it off.
Many weeks I was thinking how I wished I couldbe more aware of the Hiding Presents for FutureMe, or noticing gifts from Pastme, and boy did that happen! That wasa constant source of yum: the first day it snowed for morning commute, i felt so loved that past-me put 500 bucks worth of new tires on the car. PastMe was a doll to put the Good Gloves and the NeckColarScarf thingie in my bag and not in my coat pocket, so that everywhere i needed extra warmth I was ready, regardless of the coat i was wearing. Genius!
Thanks to starting Level 2 in the Flailing, all kinds of lil insights and connections. usually about new clever ways to do X. It’s been a while since i’ve had such delightful bing!
Invoking the SuperPower of This is Not Soemthing I need to Worry about was ery helpful. And also, the related superpower of Everything is Fine.
Lots of yummy Stompopolis gifts for me recently too, which always feels like a slight Course Correction.
VPA 1: Enough Already.
WIW: I’ve proxied, journaled and investigated. I HAVE to get back to the actual WRITING part of writing. Must do this. at this point it is just a matter of applying ass to chair, but my extended fallow time is hard to transition out of.
WTCW: I have lots of support. Call on the mastermind group, get an accountability buddy. Spend soem time tomoorrow and really map out, look at all the otes I’ve taken. Carve out an hour and just sit there. Call on support.
ICT: I will give myself an hour tomorrow and sat and sun, and i will sit in front of the computer with my file open. I will do my workout early ebcaue that alwasy helps.
Bonus wishes:
-so many lil peices everywhere, i need to pull them toegther
-feeling better