Oh, April, you are napping now because today it is May. Naptime for April.
Until next year when we meet again and we are new.
I am laughing to myself a little, because April naps was one of my secret April wishes. To take lots of naps and let the naps take me…
And now “April naps” is not only a noun but a verb. April naps. April is napping.
Sweet dreams, April.
I will whisper my farewells in your ear as I set off on the adventure of May.
Thank you, April. Thank you for….
- Sweetness.
- A mad diamond caper.
- Deeply steady and deeply unnerving feelings. Feeling all the feelings. So much and so many!
- Everything blossoming. Such lushness.
- The discovery that I can be outrageously glamorous — Bond Girl levels of glamorous — in sneakers, ripped jeans and no makeup, just by remembering the secret holiness of glamour and how it lives inside of me.
- Discovering what I wanted (even though it pissed me off for a while).
- Unexpected miracles of spaciousness and breathing room.
- So very many seeds from then are here, now.
- Rally (Rally!) and everything that happened at the 25th Rally.
- Sweetness. Love. Presence. Trust.
- Ten breaths. Also: having people with whom I can take ten breaths with.
And also the things that were hard.
There were hard things in April that turned out to be useful, and are still turning out to be useful, even if I did not enjoy them.
Like being so sick that I had to reconfigure all sorts of things in my life. Saying farewell to people and experiences. Realizing I have to quit grad school. Except I don’t know what “grad school” is, since I’m not in grad school and also I don’t know how to do it, but it needs to be done all the same.
Thank you, April.
Come in, May! What I want from May.
- I take exquisite care of myself within the day to day of life.
- The superpower of Succinctness.
- To learn all about Succinctness and be surprised at its beauty, at the many forms it can take.
- To smile at doorways, flirt with fountains, delight in noticing the aliveness of being alive.
- A reconfiguration of how I work. This needs to happen with a kind of peaceful, mild, gentleness please.
- Practice: Deep blissful steadiness and the seven wells.
- Hey look, safe houses everywhere.
- Empty, replenish, play some more.
- Bath time.
A compass of qualities for May.
Trust. Plenty. Presence. Radiance. Steadiness. Clarity. Glow. Pleasure.
Superpowers for May.
Succinctness.
Letting small things resonate large.
Resting into miracles.
Looking at the Stompopolis calendar now…
This month’s quality: WONDER.
Adore. Adore. Adore.
And the superpower of Uncovering and Revealing.
Perfect. I will take some more of that, please.
And I will play with this at Stompopolis.
Naming the moon.
A tradition I borrowed from Waverly. More about how I do it.
The Moon of The Sword Of Succinctness, baby!
That’s this month’s moon. For me. You can have your own moon, obviously.
What I’m listening to this month.
She wanna do the damn thing and I’m on her side
She opened up the wings and she gonna fly
She got no time for the fuss and fight
She does it right, she loves her life
May it be so.
Hahaha, excellent, we can begin every sentence with “May it be X” this month.
May it be may it be may it be May.
Sleep tight, April. You were mysterious and challenging, and also one of the most beautiful presence-filled months of my life. Goodbye what-is-done. Thank you.
May May May. Let’s sail away together and see what happens.
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Wishing you a May that is full of all the good things.
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Happy May!
Some big resonance here. I’m actually in grad school, and I don’t need or want to quit, but somehow even so, the phrase “I have to quit grad school” has major mystery, appeal, and power. I feel like I can use it to get SOMEWHERE that I need to go, not sure where yet.
Thanks, Havi, and hope you find out what this phrase means for you, also!
Would love to hear what you figure out…
Happy May!
Some big resonance here. I’m actually in grad school, and I don’t need or want to quit, but somehow even so, the phrase “I have to quit grad school” has major mystery, appeal, and power. I feel like I can use it to get SOMEWHERE that I need to go, not sure where yet.
Thanks, Havi, and hope you find out what this phrase means for you, also!
Would love to hear what you figure out…
Thank you April for showing me how powerful every day practice is, and how much fun learning for myself can be. Thank you for teaching me about sweet intentions and flow.
And hello there, May. I’m ready for you! I want sweet, heart melting openness and joy, cushioned with grounded vitality. I want to feel ensconced in the miracle of joyful, playful flow. The superpower of radiant ease as a grounded way to glide through my days. I want to revel, inspire, and feel inspired. Also: empty and replenish, clear away and glow more.
Qualities I desire: Warmth. Trust. Pleasure. Delight. Radiance. Grounded vitality.
Superpowers: Resonance, Perfectly Suited Intentions, Miracles Appearing All the Time.
MAY it be so! 😉
MAY I find and savour delight.
Thank you to April for:
Making me realize what I am good and ready to let go of.
Bringing me closer to the power of now and enduring what cannot or has not been cure so far.
Good times with family members.
More sun here and there towards the end.
Clarity. I had asked for it. Bozeman is a no-go for me.
The message to trust a higher power from one who goes with the flow quite well.
Psychic happenings.
The hard –
Ongoing battle with major depression episode.
Loneliness that I thought I could not stand another moment
Getting clarity that I don’t want my part-time business anymore, but not knowing what next.
Not getting any support for artistic endeavors.
Lack of social support as well where I was.
The past creeping up on me and crying a lot about my ex.
Home-sickness.
What I want from May –
More socializing, even if I have to force myself.
More energy at lower altitude, hopefully.
Discovering Michigan.
More clarity on where to go next, where to live.
Good times with mom – and mostly peace.
More energy.
More of a commitment to my art.
More discipline for yoga.
More meditation.
More adventure most of all and openness to the flow.
Answers.
Treatment for medical problems started.
Student loan gone.
Qualities for May –
Renewal, openness, receptivity, clarity, adventure, creativity, love, mindfulness, peace.
Superpowers for May –
Being in flow, gratitude for what I have, making the most of what comes and the least of what is gone.
May will be May, come what may! Wishes for you Havi, and everyone for a good and fun-filled May. Not Maybe, but May for sure!
Oh May! Every time I get here and find myself here, and discover that April was not able to do what it set out to to (again! which is try to make sure that I never see May) I am just so glad to be here! With the flowers, and open windows and leaves.
I think that May is the month of righting the ship and holding her steady so I can meet up with the other ship to discuss the transfer, the briefcases, the gold coins and then turning my ship into something magic I can bring with me where ever I go.
It is the month of trusting that I am on the right path and that there are only ladders and no chutes, I just have to be sure to go the right way on the ladders.
And may May be what you wish!
I am leaving an offering of cherry blossoms, with warm wishes that May be beautiful. (See what I did there?) 😉
Ah, May. April was good but May will be the best.
Qualities for May: Forgiveness of self and others.
Openness. Clarity. Follow Through.
Superpowers: Laughter and FUN. Understanding and listening to the Voice that guides me.
May is bringing a whole change of scenery. With that change, I also hope for a change of perspective. I want to be challenged to open my heart and let new people and experiences in.
Oh! I am feeling compelled to say goodnight to April (until the next one).
April had in it:
* The end of pesach, and all the yummy chametz.
* A late dinner with an old friend. Random elbow scars (#justoneguy) and heart repair.
* Working in person with colleagues!
* A beautiful show with some cry-worthy songs.
* The week of destruction and community in Boston.
* Worry and relief, worry and relief.
* A red dress that is epic.
* Rally #25, which was also an almost-reunion of the Crossing. SHELLBACKS, I LOVE YOU GUYS. Glowing.
* The best hour that has ever been spent on a porch swing.
* The happiest bubbeh.
Steadiness amongst the chaos. More grounded than I thought I could be. Thank you, April.
Welcome back, May, old friend. Let’s have sweetness and delight and surprises together.