May is napping now because we are in June. Naptime for May until next year when May is new and I am new and we meet again. Sweet dreams.
I will whisper my farewells in your ear as I set off on the adventure of June.
And I remind myself that this June is new.
Last June…
Last June I wrote an over-the-top love letter to June, which might be — still — the most Havi thing ever written.
Last June was the beginning with a new love affair with summer. And with the word LUSCIOUS.
I am pleased to report backwards to me-of-one-year-ago that we have fully integrated lusciousness as a part of who we are.
That was June last year. Over. The. Top.
This June is calmer, steadier. Still full of love and heat and fragrance. Still fresh with possibility. But there is more stillness, more pausing to breathe. I’m glad I was there, and now I’m glad to be here.
Thank you, May. Thank you for….
- Home.
- The strong diamond force field that emerged from April’s mad diamond caper.
- Trust and steadiness. Every day, sometimes only for moments and sometimes for long stretches of time.
- The Vicarage.
- True friends. Deep heart sighs for Colleen the Signmaker and Amy the Fairy Doctor, who provided refuge, listening and deep crazy love when I needed it the most.
- Discovering what I want to do with my life. Hahahahahahaha, yes it is related to Quitting Grad School even though I’m not in grad school and I wasn’t sure what grad school even meant.
- Figuring out what grad school is. Now I know.
- Making peace with something painful, and letting it become something less painful.
- Surrender.
- Emptying.
- Joyful reunions.
- 40 Hour extra-silent silent retreat with a fellow agent in Agency.
- Last month’s Deep Unnerving Love turned into Deep Peaceful Glowing Love.
- Operation Tetris and the Newly-New Sweet Reconfiguring.
- Perfect simple solutions.
- Sinking to the floor, every day, and breathing.
And also the things that were hard.
There were hard things in May that turned out to be useful, and are still turning out to be useful, even if I did not enjoy them.
Like not knowing. Like restriction and constraint. Like letting go of a dream that meant everything to me. Like finding out what grad school was and knowing that I needed to quit and having so much grief about that ending.
Emptying emptying emptying. Experiencing what empty is like.
Thank you, May.
Come in, June! What I want from June.
- Writing.
- Getting even quieter.
- Outdoors as much as possible.
- Barefoot on the sand.
- Hello, you are my ally, let’s play.
- This can be so much easier than I think.
- I trust my process. This is right.
- Wait, this is funny!
- Release and receive. Receive and release.
- Quitting grad school is paying off so hard!
Wishes I keep from May.
- I take exquisite care of myself within the day to day of life.
- I smile at doorways, flirt with fountains, delight in noticing the aliveness of being alive.
- A reconfiguration of how I work. This needs to happen with a kind of peaceful, mild, gentleness please.
- Practice: Deep blissful steadiness and the seven wells.
- Empty, replenish, play some more.
A compass of qualities for June.
Trust. Plenty. Laughter. Delight. Firm footing. Calm. Agency. Reverberation.
Superpowers for June.
Expansiveness.
Boltholes and hiding places everywhere.
Recognizing miracles.
Laughing at everything.
Looking at the Stompopolis calendar now…
This month’s quality: SHELTER.
So basically the thing I need more than anything else right now.
Past-me was so smart to plant that for this month.
And the superpower of Steady Replenishing.
Yes, please. This is what I will play with at Stompopolis every day.
Naming the moon.
A tradition I borrowed from Waverly. More about how I do it.
The Moon of Emptying With Love and Filling With Love.
Also the Moon of Strawberries.
That’s this month’s moon. For me. You can have your own moon, obviously.
What I’m listening to this month.
I’m trying to part
with what’s in my heart
You heard me say I’m going away
I’m on the floor outside your door
May it be so.
Sleep tight, May. You were full of miracles and love, and a lot of tears and a lot of smiles. Goodbye what-is-done. Thank you.
June. Come here, honey. Let’s sail away together and see what happens.
Want to play?
You can deposit notes, wishes, superpowers or whatever you like for your month here. We are not dogmatic about ritual: play any way you like.
We make this safe space by not telling each other what to do, how to be or how to feel. We make room for each other.
Wishing you a June that is full of all the good things.
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Oh, June. I need your superpower to be Sovereignty. Need it.
Fortunately, you have whispered to me that for me, you are the Moon of Iced Water. What if every time I took a sip of iced water, my crown became shinier? It’s worth a try…
A tiny miracle just happened! I love this.
My gwishes for June:
Long, slow breaths
All that is mine returns to me
There is plenty of time
Fractal flowers
This is easy
Wondering
Oh June you are so splendid! May was lovely and sad, it had plenty fo snow and cold rain, and lots of crying. So much crying.
May held a lot of grief and mournin. I yelled rather too much. But it was the Moon of COmofrt and Stillness and I did soemthign evey single day to care for myself.
May was about Paring Down, I released and let go and pared down a LOT. I pared down t the point where suddenly there were peices that were connected anymore. The Next Steps were elusive, and i even started having the hard thoughts of what the Hell Next where is this all going? DO we need course corrections or do we need to go back to port and re-assess?
June is birthday month for me, hooray, and I treat myselgf all month long. And never were the words “shelter” and “steady replenishment” more welcome or needed.
what worked in May: time outs, Conducting, vigorous movement when i could.
What I want for June: peace, gentleness, steady replenishment, reconnection and connection, unexpected blessings and welcome surprises, more omfort, mose stillness.
To work with the Golden Pentacle, especially the Sovereignty and Passion points. Continue figuring out what i know about white Flowers (recent hint: they appear at the end of sustained and pusing effort.
I’m not sure why i cant be sober, but i need to investigate that. this is perennial, i cant seem to resolve it
One of the things I’ve had to accept is that i am responsible for lots more people than myself. i go back to Miami again tomorrow, and while there my job is to be in service, and not much else. i need to be okay with this. But I’m also feeling the sad and the tired and holding the feeling of I’d like some real time off please very close. Dot want to be paralyzed by this. JUne could be the time when responsibilites and obligations land but there’s room for Sovereignty and Agency and Choice with them.
Oh goodness, May. You were crazy. We did so many things together. I cannot even believe all that happened in one month. A brief list: Final final paper, summeryness, graduation, North Carolina, Andrew’s graduation, highways-times-5, moving, bachelorette party, goodbyes, Sasquatch, birthday/quarter century.
Holy shit.
May is the month of rhododendrons. May is the month of sweet beginnings. This May was the month of goodbyes. Of transition. Of wild excitement and crazy stress and exhaustion.
So thank you, May, and goodbye.
The full moon on May 24th, you are an especially unforgettable moon. Crazy wild howls to you. And so this moon you ushered in, what shall I call you? The moon before should be the Moon of Rhododendrons. And this moon I’m in now…you have a secret name. But your name means emptying and replenishing. Photosynthesis. Becoming a creature of gold, of warm sunlight. Youthful invigoration. Joy. Inspiration. Purpose. All of these things go into your name, which is a secret name I say to myself.
Hello, June.
June is the month of strawberries, something it shares with May. Fresh fruit and vegetables from our gardens, June ushers in a season of fertility and bounty. Litha. Vacation time, to rest and rejuvenate. But also a time of great energy, growing, flourishing. Everything is so green.
Intentions for June:
Writing. Creativity.
Health. Growing. Strengthening. Coming into my fullness. Blooming.
Celebrating with friends and family, renewing old bonds.
Transition and preparation.
Emptying and replenishing, releasing, and refilling with goodness.
SHELTER is the perfect quality for this month. How does the calendar always seem to know exactly what is needed? Lusciousness is also perfect for right now. Other qualities I invite to dance with me and June:
Sovereignty
Creativity
Inspiration
Health
Congruence
Love
Safety
Blooming
Sending loving wishes to everyone’s May just past and the June that we are welcoming.
I especially love Havi’s sentence:
I take exquisite care of myself within the day to day of life.
I claim that for myself (again). Exquisite care during this most exquisite of months.