Personal ads. They’re … personal! Very.
Each week I write these Visions of Possibility and Anticipation to practice asking for what I want. And to get clarity on what that really is, even when asking feels conflicted.
I always get useful information about my relationship with various aspects of the ask. Join in if you like!
Operation Buffer Magic.
The situation. And background.
Something about a new way of transitions.
I am noticing that I need way more space between things.
More entry and more exit.
This is funny, because I have spent most of this year having trouble loving the hallways.
(The hallways as in “when one door closes another one opens but it’s hell in the hallway”).
I don’t know what is needed, but it has to do with buffers. Extra space and spaciousness, breathing room.
What else do I know about this?
I am not sure, but I have clues and some useful questions that I may use as skipping stones, so I’m putting them here.
- Ritual is important.
- If I want buffers, I have to build them in.
- There are examples of this that already exist.
- The question: what is working? Look at that.
- Who do I know who is good at this?
- When is it hard for me to give myself permission to have shelter?
- What is a buffer?
- What would help me transit with more ease?
Anything else?
Code names and anagrams. What do secret agents know about buffers?
Anything else?
Oh, of course!
This is the superpower of Kishufit (Incoming Me). She excels at buffers and transitions. She is all about taking time — UNAPOLOGETICALLY — to get ready for the next thing.
I will talk to her.
What I want.
To take pleasure in transitions, and in learning how to do this.
To trust in the fractal flowers.
The qualities inside of the wants:
Same compass as the last two weeks:
Replenishing. Play. Presence. Pleasure. Plenty. Radiance. Receptivity. Resonance.
And the superpower of There Is Magically Enough Time.
What might help?
Visualizing and perceiving various kinds of buffers.
What I want.
Some of these are secret agent code or silent retreat. Some are qualities and some are dreams. Some are re-asks and some are pre-wishes: tiny seeds for future processing.
- Sweet blissful steadiness.
- Miracles everywhere.
- The ballroom has its own magic, just like the Spiegelsaal.
- This doesn’t require my input!
- Ha, it’s so perfect that it turned out like this.
- Past me is a GENIUS.
- Newness. Vitality. Sustenance. Peacefulness.
- I have what I need, and I appreciate it.
- Hawaii.
- Next year’s Rallies fill up by themselves even though I’m not around to tell people about them!
- I can see why this moment is good.
- The superpower of pausing to breathe.
I’m playing with…
Mapping and napping.
Announcement!
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Progress report on past Very Personal Ads.
So. Last week, aka Turning And Returning….
Silent retreat on this one for now.
Playing. Shelter for the comments.
What’s welcome: Your own wishes, gwishes, visions and personal ads, small or large. Updates on past ones if you like. Things sparked for your own process.
I’m receptive to warm wishes for the things I’m working on and playing with.
We ask for what we need, and we give each other space and spaciousness for the process.
This is a place of safety for creative play and exploration, with a very non-dogmatic approach. We don’t tell each other how to ask for things and we don’t give unsolicited advice. We play.
That’s it. Let’s throw a bunch of things in the pot!
As always, amnesty applies. Leave a wish here any time you want.
xox
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– Boxes! I need boxes.
– I have Plan A and Plan B. I like them both. Whichever one happens, I want them to work as well as they possibly can.
– Everything seems to be happening at the last possible moment. If that’s the way it wants to happen, please can I have the trust and confidence and patience to live with that, and not fall into a little stressed-out heap by Wednesday
– A way to fit in more cycling than I have planned at the moment.
– Rest. Lots of rest.
– This week there will be all the people. I would like space where there are not people, so that I can recharge.
– The beginning of the transition to long-distance relationship to not be horrible.
– Filling the gaps. And seeing which gaps don’t need to be filled.
– Keep writing yourself, book. I will keep a blank page ready for you.
This week most of my energy was sucked up by the DoomCold, but let’s see.
What’s working lately: Best Practices, visiting the Holy wells, ritual.
What I’d like:
-continued ease and elegant transitions
-SuperPower of Knowing what to do next
-resting into mircles and then there they are
-GoldenGreen
– Mabon. trusting right timing, breathing in abundance, ritual, conenction, cycles, practice, craft.
-ShipShaping the House (had a bit of positive movement here)
VPA 1: Afternoon calyx.
WIW: calyx in the afternoon only.
wtcw: no idea, this has been so freaking hard forever. i’ve tried keys and cues and writing notes on my hand. Being well-rested helps.
ict: Being open and playful and curious about how to do this. holding it as a goal and gwishing/percepting/compassing towawrds it. journaling more on it. what are the qualities i’m seeking?
Hopping back on the VPA wagon (I’m picturing a harvest hayride to the pumpkin patch.)
Questing things for this week:
– I love yoga, and I have been studiously, scrupulously, obsessively avoiding it for the past two months. Since “watching yourself avoid the practice still counts as doing the practice,” I want to investigate this pattern gently and non-judgementally: Is it fear of injury? Pain? Wanting to move instead of holding poses? Feeling pressured to match the positive, glow-y atmosphere of the studio on days when I feel anything but?
– Operation renew passport. Only a few more things to connect. Progress please!
– A breath for my project, which is now one-third finished. A breath for the hard parts that I have already worked through, and a breath for the hard(er) parts yet to come. One page at a time.
– Agent M has been under a lot of stress, and his coping strategies involve silent retreat and solo time. I have lots of ludicrous fear popcorn about this, even though I require the same type of recharge strategies. I want a sense of ease, trust and support, and to feel confident that everything will be ok, one way or another.
I am noticing that I need way more space between things.
Oh yes, this! So much transition, and impatience with it at the same time as it feels so right for this to take time. Noticing this is a pattern, and allowing it to be.
VPA for this week, hmm. Ease. Flow. Cheer. Equanimity and “Yes, I got this” to be how I roll this week. Truthfully, not as a pretend. Also all the rest I need is mine to have. SMB!
Yes! All the stuff about hallways.
Things I would like this week:
-A small miracle for the car
-More understandings and clarity for myself about my needs for emotional support when things are hard.
-A hand to hold at the funeral.
-Cuddles. Dear lord. I’ve had a very affectionate week but things are hard and I’m wanting more.
-Wanting what I want
-Deciding to do both things being easy
-Ease with flow
-A delightful weekend retreat!
-Operation Tolllllllless success (which mostly involves paying attention)
-The thing in Woostah
Make it so.
Entry and exit:
I am entering a new class at the community college tonight, and will be exiting one of my private classes on Wednesday. Wishing for smooth joyous transitions with these changes.
MrB’ stuckness of last week has come unstuck and now things are messy. Wishing for the ability to help make it less messy and less stuck.
Last bits of travel arrangments for September need to be made; wishing for that to occur with ease.
More travel arrangements for October to be made; wishing for ease and grace with the arrangements and the event we are attending.
Appropriate containers for the things that need to be contained.
Access to information I need.
Cooperation from the person I need cooperation from.
Into the pot!
Operation Octopetala
(Dryas octopetala = mountain avens = short flowers with small leaves that “can grow in high, rocky ground.”)
Playing with: Metaphors. Moving things around. Letting things sit (“sit” = the many things they actually might be doing without me perceiving those things just yet. Boiling is not the only way for food to cook).
Silent retreat on the rest. Warm wishes to all y’all.
Buffers! I am VERY INTERESTED in buffers right now.
Specifically, I’m thinking about Powers of Invisible Unspoken Buffers that are Always Just Right. Hmmmm. What do I know about these?