Because it’s Friday AGAIN. And because traditions are important. In which I cover the good stuff and the hard stuff in my week, trying for the non-preachy, non-annoying side of self-reflection.
And you get to join in if you feel like it.
Wow, what a crazy, wonderful week.
I am in Sacramento and we are having a day of great fun, and whee.
In the meantime, let’s chicken and close out the week…
The hard stuff
I’m not really sure, it all happened so fast.
Seriously, this week was kind of insane.
The busy: it hurts my head.
It’s like everything was spinning just a little too fast.
And I’m constantly catching myself worrying about who or what I’m forgetting at any given time.
Wanting to catch up and not knowing how or when.
So many things! To be done! And they all will be done.
Just not this week. And that is frustrating.
Adjusting to new ways of doing things (and new ways of being patient about not doing them yet), and this is hard.
Really not in the mood for traveling.
I know it’s a tiny, tiny trip. And my last one for a while.
But I just was in New Mexico and North Carolina and teaching a bunch of Rallies (Rally!) and if I have to travel anywhere, why couldn’t it be recovery time?
Like… Hawaii?
Anyway, I am so done with being smooshed into airplanes.
Really, California?
The whole point of my annual teaching trip there is to be somewhere that’s not cold and rainy.
Sac has had some days where it’s actually been colder than in Portland, if you can imagine that.
The good stuff
Svevo was here!
My favorite uncle, about whom you have heard me tell many delightful stories, came by train to spend three days with us at Hoppy House.
We went for walks and cooked and laughed and played and hung out at the Playground.
Also we went to breakfast at a cafe and I had just written that post about how I get flustered when people want to know my name and say “Jam!” when people want to know what I’m doing for Thanksgiving.
Anyway, we ordered our food and I gave my name as Penelope and he gave his name as Jam. Yes, Jam.
He is the best person ever. I completely cannot believe how lucky I am that we are related.
Also, when he says he’s drinking hot tea, he means that there are chili flakes in it.
Hannukah!
Eating levivot and watching the candles burn.
And just everything being better and prettier and shinier because the holiday is here.
Huge progress made on annoying administrative stuff. Yay.
Reworking giant sessions of the Pirate Log.
Time-consuming, but really, really important. It feels so good to have movement on this.
Being in Sacramento.
Going to Dad’s (no, not related to me, sadly) for sandwiches! The best sandwiches.
I have been missing this place for an entire year. These sandwiches are pretty much the entire reason I agreed to teach at this yoga teacher training, aside from getting to see my beloved sisters-in-crime.
Seeing Michelle and Madeleine.
Being with the people you love. It really is that great.
What a … I don’t even know what the word is. It’s a treasure. Just so lucky to have these women in my life, even if we don’t get to live in the same place, you know?
In the zone.
I’ve been doing all this work on my stuff, with the themes of order and ease.
And at some point towards the middle of the week, I just got into the flow. That thing about waiting to catch the next wave? I caught it, big time.
Possible side effect?
Imagine this extremely unlikely (for me) state of everything working out in ridiculous, impossible, easy ways. To the point that it was kind of creeping me out.
The most perfect shoes in the entire world? One pair, just my size, perfect fit, and at a 30% discount. On the same day my old ones decided to fall apart.
A thing I was looking forward to was canceled, but they hooked me up with a massage instead — with my very favorite person in Portland for all things touch-related.
Oh, and a new therapist was going through a training there so I was given a twenty minute foot massage so I could be the guinea pig. I know, what?
Twitter to the rescue.
It really is the best bar.
Here was my original question:
“I need a word for THIS: someone has solved a problem that *looks* like your problem and wants you to solve yours the same way.”
I got so many answers that I didn’t even know what to do with them. Some of my favorites:
helpiness, hammer-heading, solutionary projection, narcassistance, narcissolution, Aunt-peggery, imposolutioning, faux-lution!
Yay..
And mine: roundholier-than-thou… for people who try to fit square pegs into the nearest available round hole.
I think I’m going to go with solutionary projection for now. It has that lovely combination of being both mock-jargon and something completely true at the same time.
Wonderful presents that arrived this week.
AGAIN, thank you to Karen for the amazing monster pillow, that I love and adore. Also, Karen is a super neat person and you should all hang out with her as much as possible.
I have warm and gorgeous socks, thanks to Yael.
Ooh, and thank you, Alexia and Willie for the wonderful monster journal!
And the Guns N Rollers for the awesome autographed and framed team picture that now lives in the Treasure Room at the Playground.
Beautiful things I read this week.
This post from Shannon describing the Rally:
“I sat under a tree and had a brainy new idea. I picnicked on the floor and drank out of robot mustache glasses. I admired art about getting drunk and eating waffles.”
And I happen to know that this particular tree was a pirate monkey tree!
Speaking of Rally (Rally!), a brilliant piece from Rhiannon about her experience there — with a picture from the Galley, too.
And I wasn’t going to link to Maryann this week because I have been going on and on about how smart she is, and while I am completely right, I was going to spread the love.
But this post! This post! And all the amazing posts of hers that are linked to in it. This is the thing I am always trying to explain about how Shiva Nata makes you a wiser and more connector-moused-up version of yourself. Ahhhh.
And I am so in love with this amazing chair. And so sad that it only sold for $80. Tragic and wrong. But my god the chair.
And … playing live at the meme beach house it’s the Fake Band of the Week!
My brother and I have this thing where we come up with ridiculous band names and then say in this really pretentious, knowing tone, “Oh, well, you know, it’s just one guy.”
This week?
Dancing on Bubblewrap.
They’re playing in town all week. Except that it’s really just one guy.
Thank you, Edwin and the Rallions from the Great Ducking Out last week.
That’s it for me …
And yes yes yes, of course you can join in my Friday ritual right here in the comments bit if you feel like it.
Yeah? Anything hard and/or good happen in your week?
And, as always, have a glorrrrrrrrrrrrious day and a restful weekend-ing.
And a happy week to come. Shabbat shalom.
And also a chag urim sameach to anyone who is celebrating. Sufganiyot for everyone! Except for me!
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Insane describes the week for me as well.
The hard:
– insomnia despite being very tired due to short nights
– much extra work due to change of ISP by employer that rendered email being inaccessible for an extended period and made certain email addresses inacessible. Big problem when I needed to get in touch with students and clients
– not leaving work until 11pm 3 nights in a row
– office assistant drama
The good
+ spa getaway!
+ finally free of pain in big toe thanks to awesome pedicure
+ no more lectures to prepare for 2010!
Oh dear, I SO want to dance on bubblewrap now! I’m seeing a bubblewrap-dacing-party in my near future 😀
This week has been an odd mix, of things that should be easy being hard, and things I’d expected to be hard being ridiculously easy.
The hard:
* Visiting my new friend who would like to be more than friends, after finding out that his foot was broken by a car running over it… him wanting me to hang out, but being too tired to really actually hang out, and me not being sure how to let him know that I really just wanted to go for a walk… Feeling the Sovereignty failure /sigh
* Meeting a friend to celebrate her birthday… except that I missed the meeting, and was then assaulted by They Stood You Up (because they don’t really like you) Monster and his good friend Don’t Be Silly, They Changed Plans and You Were Too Stupid to Check Your Messages Before Leaving Monster /double sigh
The good:
* Turned out she did change plans, but sent her message too late for me to get before I left (so it didn’t really matter that I didn’t check my messages). Silly, but that made me feel better.
* Took the trip to renew my visa, and there was a guy who also needed to renew his visa, and had done it before. He walked me through the whole process, so it was easier than I could possibly have imagined!
* I have been feeling the bliss of life, and it is good
* I officially signed up for FIVE WHOLE DAYS(!!!) of Thai cooking classes /squeal!
Hope everyone’s week has been mostly good, and that next week is even better! Happy Chickening everyone 😀
No Hard this week.
The Good:
A new niece!
A new helper who ran all my errands on Wed.
An old helper who works while I’m out of the office.
Getting my bike back so I can ride it.
The cute boys at the bike store.
Fun unexpected money in the mail.
Lots of new clients.
Road trip today to see the new niece!
Discovered the yumminess of coconut milk.
Being alive.
Hello again, Friday chicken. I have been away from the internet (with the exception of work-related interneting), but that also means missing out on my favorite blogs and other fun hot spots.
Here’s my week:
The Hard:
-Bruxism, anyone? The teethgrinding is having repercussions.
-Terrible dentist and dental office.
-Stubborn plantar fasciitis is sidelining me from moving my body in ways i’d like — namely, dancing and just generally bouncing around.
-Not getting ANY responses to my ad to start a smart women’s bookclub. Why can’t I find anyone who wants to meet face-to-face and talk about books (rather than just use the meeting as an excuse to talk about anything but books)???? Why???
-Irritation with holiday stuff.
-Learning that my bf’s mother may not actually like me. How can I not take that personally?
-Missing my parents, esp my mother, this time of year.
The Good:
+LOVING the new job. Not just liking. Loving. It’s a great place for me, full of stimulating, smart, invested people. I actually get to use my noggin!
+Signing up for monthly massages again. And working through the guilt and need to “justify” this to some outside “authority.”
+Enjoying literacy tutoring. Seeing someone learn a new language is fascinating. Love doing lesson planning, too. If only I could do this for a living — wait, I do now! 🙂
Sigh…Friday.
The hard:
– Needing to do stuff at the day job that while not technically impossible is such a pain in the ass that I want to throw things and run from the building screaming, never to return.
The good:
+ Orders have really picked up, inching me closer to the point where I can afford to quit the soul-sucking day job and do stuff I actually enjoy full time.
+ I’m cleaning my studio bit by bit and finding cool stuff in the process. Stuff that wasn’t really hidden from view, but had been sitting there taking up space in an awkward way for so long I sort of just didn’t notice it anymore.
Now I’m envisioning flamenco on bubblewrap. I just may have to try that sometime. Castanets!
Friday? Really? Wow.
Hard:
–Dissertation proposal going slow as molasses, even though I’ve been working on it daily. That scares me.
–Not enough sleep.
Good:
–I’m enjoying getting to know the Emergency Calming Techniques. Very comforting.
–I signed up for Pace and Kyeli’s 52 Weeks to Awesome. That feels like a tremendous gift to myself, and an act of sovereignty to say yes to this.
–Willie’s Shiva Nata to Mr. Fancypants. It just made me happy.
–Love, kindness, hope, self-work, self-care…and self-respect, even when the monsters are yelling at me.
Oh, and I feel like offering virtual hugs today. Warm drinks, too. Any takers?
You’re welcome for the monster journal, Havi! Thank you for the inspiration and all the good stuff.
Solutionary projection is a great phrase. How did that not exist already?
This week, I learned to knit. Yes. I know we normally start with the hard stuff, but this was too exciting to wait. I knitted a hamster. And his name was Tony, and it turned out he had a rough childhood but he’s good people, really.
The hard: Feeling like my thing (you know, the thing) isn’t real and everybody else already does it and I should grow up and do something boring.
My back’s been feeling tweaked. Trying to yoga out the creases but it’s not untweaking easily.
The good: knitting! I’m not very good yet, but I can do the two main type of stitches so long as they’re not in the same row. Not bad for three days work.
Spending time with the boyfriend, shopping and huddling together in bed with piles of blankets on top because of the cold. And swimming.
I gave myself two days off, and did no work whatsoever. Aaah, luxury. ^__^
Hugs to all the hard for you, and cheers to all the good.
When I read Dancing on Bubblewrap, I immediately got that song, Walking on Sunshine in my head. Must. Replace. Immediately. Dancing on Bubblewrap sounds really fun, though.
The hard: Lots of people here. Not enough sleep. Need some introvert recovery time. Feeling like I have no idea where I want to start going with my tiny, sweet thing. Which is kind of true but also kind of not true. Maybe I just need to know the steps to get where I want to go.
The good: It’s Hannukah! Welcome the yearly time of me wishing I were Jewish. Friends visiting is also a good this week, in addition to a hard. Even though I don’t know the steps to get there, my business is becoming more real. I’m starting to discover the steps that need to happen, and I think I’m starting to become the kind of person who can do this. I’m also extremely excited because I’m going to pick up the first share of our winter CSA tomorrow. Community and vegetables, all at once. Oh, and I’m back to being 100% refined sugar-free. It feels mahvelous.
Hugs, light and fuzzy socks to all.
We keep some bubble wrap on the basement floor at all times for stomping on. There’s nothing like listening to your 4-year-old to help you, um, bring out your inner 4-year-old…
I’m in San Diego! (Waving in your direction.) But only for a few more hours.
So, chicken:
Hard:
-traveling. So far a relatively easy trip and it’s quick, but I hate the way it throws all my routines completely off. The eating especially gets all screwed up.
-sadface husband. I want so badly to help and there is nothing I can do to help.
-Procrastination. Bigtime…but only on work.
Good:
-I’m about to go for a walk along the harbor or something like that. It smells nice here. And I don’t have to work until 1 pm, then leave at 3, so this is an easy day.
-I’m not sick anymore. After a month of sick, then sick, then sick, this is good news.
-sadface husband wrote a beautiful song that I love. Actually he wrote two that I love, but I really really love the one.
-Renewed focus on a healthy relationship between my head-voice and my body-voice.
yay sacramento!
yay michelle!
yay madeleine!
the hard:
– an issue with one of my students has completely unearthed every single one of my childhood memories of abuse.
– wanting to lash out at everyone that didn’t help this kid
– wanting to lash out at everyone that hurt this kid (or any kid)
– not wanting to completely fall apart in front of kid when i visit and freak him out
the good:
– connecting with the social worker and she was so nice and clearly already connected to the kid, i cried.
– going to see the kid
– coming to the workshop today
– reverb10
Re: solutionary projecting, it seems like whenever you give advice, even if it’s solicited, you’re doing it. We only know our own experience. The way it’s described in the post makes it sound like a bad thing, but I think it’s the nature of the beast. Sometimes you’re spot on. Sometimes you’re not. As long as the advice giver is listening and adjusts her advice based on what the receiver says, it’s all good.
The hard:
– Ongoing Situation. Which I can’t really do anything about. And the things I *can* do are at risk of feeling over-pushy to the relevant person. And until it’s resolved, I don’t know what’s happening in a couple of important ways.
– Feeling really, really angry about a bunch of stuff related to the Ongoing Situation.
– Struggling to manage the anger….
– Wanting to distance myself from someone who has made it very clear that they’re not prepared to accept a ‘no’ (which I have been teaching myself to treat as a Big Red Alarm Sign); but being asked not to do that (for legitimate reasons) by someone who’s important to me. Which is also making me angry & upset.
The good:
– It’s All A Learning Experience, right? [sigh] I can choose to see this as *practise*.
– The snow is pretty, and hasn’t really stopped me from doing anything (which is fortunate for me!).
– I had a lovely meal out with one of my partners.
I’m glad it’s Friday, I think, even though this is my weekend-that-is-not-a-weekend. 72 hour test starting in an hour and a half. But I’m going to chicken anyway. Oh, also:
@Kathleen– you are not alone. The proposal is a hard part that takes too long, if I recall rightly from three friends who are also working on their dissertations (and one who just finished). I don’t know if that helps but hugs for the molasses anyway. And hot chocolate if you’re interested in that.
@Willie– welcome to knitting! Yay yay yay!
For myself, the hard:
-This test. Oh how I don’t want to.
-I hurt. A lot. Painkillers and hot packs, please work faster.
-Things breaking or not working right.
-Safety issues. Privacy issues. Hard conversations that so far have not made a difference, not knowing whether or how to try again.
-Living on an emotional roller coaster for reasons unknown (probably hormones and weather changes; ew).
The good:
-It is not 80 degrees and 70% humidity outside. It is in fact in the 60’s and less than 40% humidity. It’s a miracle.
-At least I do have 72 hours to do the test, so there’s hopefully enough time to do some good work and not humiliate myself.
-Flannel pajamas and slippers.
-Hot chocolate, chai, tea. All the wonderful things I can enjoy when it is not 80 degrees outside. (I know there are people who enjoy hot drinks in any weather, I’m just not one of them…)
And hugs all around. Happy Friday!
Again, has this only been one week. Fairly sure the time/space continuum has been warped somewhere.
The hard:
– the ill
– the having to go to work (in the snow too) because of the punitive sickness policy
– and also getting behind on uni work
– and then stressing about this
– lapsing into patterns of doom
– not being able to meet my amazing cousin because of the weather, him getting stranded and me being worried sick about him
– apparently my feet are too small to fit into normal adult women’s trainers that are sold in the UK!
The good:
– being able to notice that it is a pattern of doom
– people doing lovely things like clearly pavements and footbridges
– being able to go home early owing to snow
– suddenly doing much more connecting with people
– taking some photos I actually like
– having delicious food made for me
– people at work being caring with the ill
– buying amazing rose fairy lights
– almost finished Christmas shopping
– looking forward to Christmas, and giving people their awesome gifts, and spending time with family and friends for the first time ever.
Oh boy, this week.
The ridiculously hard:
Bringing my dragon to the dragon-whisperer and having it go way, way worse than I’d imagined.
The wonderfully good:
Latkes, both potato and apple. People who unexpectedly show up to cook pad thai for me in my kitchen. Reading Rhiannon’s blog about NVC this morning. Going to the holiday ale fest tonight.
Many, many hugs for all the hard around this table. And giant thumbs up and smiles for all the balancing goodness on the other side.
That chair is amazing! I cannot believe it sold for $80. I hope it went to the most perfect person who is just overjoyed at their luck.
hI ALLLLL
Havi – I love the sound of your week – it sounds sooo goood!
Okay so lots of good. Yay ya yayyy.
Work was not horribly busy, stressy. There was lots of spaciousness at work. Phewwwww!
I re-read something I wrote and liked it. My playmate at work (discreetly) enacted it with me and I knew that it sounded…it sounded goooood…pleasure! Getting myself ready to show it to a few of my thesp buddies. Need an outside eye now.
I have ordered a microphone dobedoo. Woo hoooo. So excited! Because then I can create a few producty things and record a few performances and play more with my creative muscles and share this journey more easily.
I had a good week of sleep. Yayyy.
I had the most amazing cupcake/reading from Bridget which spoke to the part of me that needed reassurance, practical advice, love and hope on a big scale. I feel more freedom inside just on the back of my amazing cupcake.
The situation with my love eased a lot.
The bad
Not seeing my love this week because of his shifts when we really need more time together.
Always wanting more sleep – even when I get it.
The dark, the cold. I really, really hate it.
The Christmasy holiday stuff. Not a fan.
The peer pressure in ze cubicle is ridiculous. Feeling excluded. Bt knowing this won’t last forever.
The desire for strengthening boundaries with some of these peeps. An energetic thing – so I don’t have to prove my point.
Not a bad week though. No big things to complain about!!!
I’m pretty sure it’s still Wednesday, but I’ll play along with the Chicken anyway:
The Hard:
Having a friend come to a nearby town and then missing each other repeatedly. Sad face.
One super long day of travel. Twelve hours on buses and at stations.
The Good:
I’m living at a surf camp in Costa Rica. Beach access and eye candy. All around yum.
I’ve decided to focus on the bigifying, a bit nervous making, but good.
Very nice boys live here too. One just offered to go to the store for me. Such sweethearts.
Even though it’s the busy season at the day job, I still have time to walk to the beach every day.
Oh, and I launched a product. Well, I released it, launching still seems all big and scary. Enjoying the Holidays for the Easily Overwhelmed. Happy dance!
Hugs for the hard and celebrations for the good to you all. 🙂
How come it’s Friday already????? Here’s to @Willie Hewes Tony the Hamster and eyeryone else’s good! Havi, I want the pair of perfect shoes, too. This will have to go into my VPA.
The hard:
– Arrival of winter with full force: snow, minus way too many degrees centigrade.
– The reaction of my mother to potential long-term news on my job-front.
– My reaction to my mother’s reaction: sudden total loss of energy and a dream about something I hadn’t dreamt about for a long time.
– Moments of feeling owerpowered by my to-do list.
The good:
– Good time at home and with husband.
– Long, long chat with friend.
– A work thing cancelled that makes my work life a lot easier. I had VPAd for this weeks ago.
– Finding a really lovely letter among all the work mail and snail mail after my return from my long weekend.
I went to “Walking on Sunshine” too. LOL
This week went very fast.
Hard:
Not having our car. We had Aisha’s car, but that meant not wanting to go out too much since it’s not our car. And then finding out yesterday that they had just gotten the part in (we dropped the car off on Sunday night). So we picked up our car and start all over again on Monday (but hopefully faster because they have the right part).
Rain all day on Tuesday. Lots of rain. Flood type rain if we hadn’t been having drought rain, the rivers and creeks are all swollen. Missing out on the last NaNoWriMo meetup because you couldn’t pay me enough to go out in that cold rain.
Good:
Doctor’s appointment ran very late on Wednesday but I was ok because I was doing yoga in my head and enjoying the snow globe that was the world that day.
Getting the “all clear” from the doctor (wink wink, nudge nudge)
Making major progress on my fish quilt.
Really good art group meeting today.
Being asked by my friend, who is an accomplished artist and psychologist in her own right, to coach her, starting next month. I am beyond flattered and honored.
Happy Friday, everyone!
The hard:
– Multiple phone calls to bureaucratic agencies of the highest annoyance factor. I spent probably a solid eight hours on the phone explaining, getting transferred, getting cut off, listening to hold music, and so on.
– I missed the final call of my little Kitchen Table group. ::sadface::
– Trying to determine if a project is something that will make money in the future and if I should commit to it. No answers yet, which is really frustrating.
– Blurry eyes and headaches.
The good:
+ Got to spend time with my Hippie. Fun time. Laughing time. Sushi!
+ Had lunch with my best friend.
+ Rode a bicycle for the first time in about 20 years.
+ Took some nice walks, one of which took me from my house across the Broadway bridge into the Pearl district and back again.
+ Made progress on getting finances entered in QB.
Hello, Internet After Dark…
So the hard: second week of not having a daily yoga practice. Last week was stay-in-bed sick, although I crawled out twice to do the Essential Asanas, and this week was Ladies’ Holiday. WANT TO DO YOGA NOW PLS KTHXBAI.
But! The good! I wrote a bunch of short songs and rewrote some Christmas tunes for a holiday concert I’m playing tomorrow morning! Very excited about the concert, and very pleased with myself for rewriting Sleigh Ride as NINTENDO Sleigh Ride (let’s hear those chiptunes jingling, ring-ting-tingling too… come on, it’s lovely weather for Nintendo together with you…).
the hard:
-being behind on a project
-feeling guilty for being late
-feeling like I have to work on it all the time
-having to say no to lots of things I’d rather do, like dancing tango and going to listen to tree stories
-one-and-a-half people got laid off at day job (I wanted to be laid off but could not persuade my boss to do so)
-a legal issue that my sister and I have been working on for over year just went way south due to a new judge being assigned
the good:
+getting what chickening is all about (thanks to the Rally!)
+noticing all the changes due to Rallying and Ducking out over Thanksgiving week, like not getting upset about my patterns being there, just saying “Hi Patterns!”
+talking to my project instead of trying to “work on it” (thanks to the Rally!)
+recording one of my essays on plants and LIKING the way it sounds (I never like the way I sound) (could that be thanks to the Rally?)
+getting a batch of new hamster erasers (that’s due to the Rally too because I left my hamster there after the Rally to play with the ducks)
Ooh, my first Friday chicken!
@Kylie: a backwards flow chart a la Barbara Sher might help?
The hard:
-Owie feet from freak slipping-on-stairs accident
-Tired overwhelmed sweetheart
-Brief visits from the Who Do You Think You Are monster (see below)
The good:
-I started my blog!!!!
-Lots of creative work done on my Thing
-Learning some Celtic instrumental music with my singing partner
-I started my blog!!
Howdy Chickeneers!
Havi, I told everyone I thought would appreciate it about solutionary projecting. I love the name – and (sigh)I do it.
The Hard:
Not getting enough sleep and the freezing cold in friend’s house in Boston for Thanksgiving.
Encountering a really big monster- the Responsibility Monster-who makes me think that it’s my fault and there’s something wrong with me when people choose to leave my school after having been in my classroom. Ouch. Much sadness. This is big and I can’t even write coherently about it so I’ll stop.
Hannukah starting in the middle of a work week when I don’t have time to enjoy and make my extra special latkes based on Nanny Sarah’s recipe until weekend.
The Good:
Seeing my son (now 25) drumming his heart out in Brooklyn indie band called Emil and Friends at Mercury Lounge in NYC – ASR you are awesome.
Having my foodie daughter (now 21) say she’s coming all the way home tonight for my extra special Nanny Sarah latkes, cause nobody (get that, nobody)can even touch how great they are.
My awesome graduate program at the Graduate Institute meets this weekend with focus on holistic healing.
Getting to read Havi’s brilliant posts and interesting comment mouse contributions.
Oof. What a week!
The hard stuff
The business. Oops. as in.. busy-ness. Buzz buzz. I had deadlines and no sleep and staying up til 4am when you don’t drink tea or coffee is hard.
Not only that but a deadline to a competition and knowledge that I now have time to do X – i’ve lsot the vibrancy from it and it feels like a chore so I’m letting it rest.. but I feel guilty because I have free time now and could be doing it.
Yeah. “free” time.
Snow. This is england. We get snow in February. Brighton sees 3 inches, my hometown sees 18 inches.
Brighton saw 12 and life STOPPED. In my hometown that’s nothing! So yes. odd and annoying as I had plans but meh. pretty.
The good stuff
Got the deadlines in.
W00p.
I’m doing tiny bits of novel-writing. Of this project. And it’s beginning to be vibrant again.
Family.
I’ve been having this major fight with my old best friend for 4 months now. And we sat down this week and really communicated – non-violently [oddly we’d been doing nonviolent messages for these months but it was my violent “i love you but you’re being stupid” rant that got us to sit it down and chat about it.]
So yay. Been catching up big time, spending loads of time together online and all’s right with the world again.
As you said, “Being with the people you love. It really is that great.”
Sleep.
Well, I napped [3rd time this year?] which gave me major headaches and threw off my sleep. And then last night I slept for 10 hours. And it was wonderful.
I feel like I’m heading into the flow; about to catch this wave. It could be awesome.
Have a glorrriousss weekend followed by a fabtastic week 🙂
I’m with Jane: Who’s out there doing this unauthorized space/time warping? Seriously, it should only be Tuesday. Maybe Wednesday. Not the day after Friday (late to the chicken again).
This week’s hard:
– Highly distractable. Oooooo… shiny!
– Had to turn down an editing job I would have *loved* to have. Really, really, really thought hard about that one, and tried to get a few extra days added to the schedule to make it work, but in the end, had to let it go.
– So much to do yesterday that I had to skip yoga. I almost never do that. Then spent the rest of the day feeling guilty about it.
This week’s good:
– Being aware of and honoring my limits.
– Deep tissue massage makes the back and shoulders happy.
– Light at the end of the tunnel.
Happy weekend, Chickeneers!
So much gratitude that your hard this week was what created my good. Not that self-sacrifice is a good thing, but yeah.
My hard was doing Shiva Nata with you yesterday. And then at some point it became my good. Because it became easy. Not the actual pattern and movement, but the letting it go and just doing it and finally being able to walk away from the giant howler monkey colony that usually lives in my head. Which M.O these days is to sit in front of the cage and repeat, “I’m not listening to you… I’m not listening to you…”–which is so much better than the old M.O. of “omg you’re so right” or “SHUT UP! I’M SO MAD AT YOU!” New momentary Shiva Nata M.O. was walking away from the cage and saying, “Huh? We’re you all saying something? Because I’m a little too busy flailing about like a crazy person over here. Bye bye.” So much good.
*deep bow*