Friday chickenBecause it’s Friday AGAIN. And because traditions are important. In which I cover the good stuff and the hard stuff in my week, trying for the non-preachy, non-annoying side of self-reflection.

And you get to join in if you feel like it.

For the first time, in … let’s see, one hundred and twenty four weeks, I’m not in the mood to chicken.

In fact, my impression right now is this: I really did not enjoy this week.

But I know that when things aren’t working, I can always come back to the culture of this blog and the rituals of the week, since both the culture and the rituals are things that hold themselves.

Self-sustaining. Like a yoga pose. Or a sea chantey.

And I’m hoping that working through the hard and the good will remind me of some of what did work.

Or at least help me be more present with whatever is going on under the surface.

The hard stuff

Agh. Of course. The worst week. Always.

There’s something about the end of December and the ambient cultural gunk about the holidays and the approach of the new year.

It’s just not good. And there’s no escaping it.

I have been hiding out in my force field, but man, there’s a lot of general bleargh in the air. Depressing.

Completely and utterly overwhelmed.

Possibly related to the above.

Possibly related to the giant piles (both literal and metaphorical) waiting on me.

Some of these piles are filled with iguanas (very metaphorical), and that just makes the whole thing harder.

“Behind.” Whatever that means. Being behind. An awful feeling.

This is a phrase I dislike. It’s not helpful. It’s not a useful way of thinking about things.

But still I find myself looking at all the stuff I’d gotten ready for the new year by this time in 2009. And shaking my head.

This year has been full of interesting challenges. I’m sure something good will come out of this “behind” thing.

I just don’t know what it is yet and right now there’s some tightness there.

Sickness still taking its time.

Flannel handkerchiefs = yay.

Running out of flannel handkerchiefs because they’re all in the laundry = something that has never, ever happened.

You would not believe the amounts of goo I have watched leave my body over the past two weeks.

Applications overload.

We had so many people apply to the Kitchen Table from the waiting list, it has been completely insane.

I thought I was almost done with reading applications but then this week I think I read something like another seventy billion pages and also my brain exploded.

Still not back into routine.

This might be related to the “everything is getting on my nerves” part of this week.

Feeling a strong need to clear the decks.

I know this feeling. This usually doesn’t bode well.

I mean, it generally results in good things after the storm. But right now I need to take a bunch of things apart.

The good stuff

Looking forward to Zombie Yule.

Barricading myself in and avoiding the world: not just my tradition anymore.

Haven’t decided what I’m going to do yet, but Zombie Yule!

Orange hat.

It’s so orange!

Blindingly orange.

I love it.

Car cleaning!

The inside of my gentleman friend’s car has not seen a vacuum since something like 1992.

As of this week, that is no longer true. And there was also shampoo.

I am disproportionately happy about this.

Getting excited about the new group of Kitchen Table mice.

The Kitchen Table is where we practice all the stuff we talk about here.

And where we get to experience what it’s like living and breathing inside a culture where you’re allowed to have your gwishes, and it’s safe to be yourself, and everyone else is working on their stuff too.

Being around thoughtful, curious, loving, fabulous people. It’s a haven. And I can tell that our third year is going to be absolutely amazing.*

*And there are a few spots still open so even if you didn’t make it to the waiting list before it closed… you might still have a chance. If you want to apply, go to the secret backdoor page (password: speedymouse).

Workless Wednesday.

Even if it was only half workless.

Yay!

Secret Play Date!

This is Maryann’s beautiful thing.

I love it so much I can hardly stand it.

Read the post about it and get ready for Toozday. Or do it now. That works too. Secret play date is my favorite part of the week.

She’s @maryanndevine on Twitter.

Ohmygod my clients are doing such amazing things.

And I’m watching them develop business cultures that are so … subversive and revolutionary and fabulous.

So much progress and so much brilliance.

It’s really very exciting to be me right now.

Now, let’s orbit.

Somehow in a week where NOTHING was amusing, this fabulously inane commercial that really should not be funny at all managed to zoom in on my funnybone.

That sentence made my week.

Video at the bottom.

Fun presents that arrived at the Playground this week.

We got crazy sparkly superhero gloves from @judespacks (with fringe!). That she made. Very, very cool.

An album of songs! Songs! From Blue and her band Hello the Future. I am the luckiest.

And someone in Hawaii sent these very cool surfer light-switch things! I have no idea who you are, but thank you. They’re fantastic.

Also a giant bunny from an anonymous bunny-giver. Not in Hawaii, though. Yay, giant fluff-bunny!

And … playing live at the meme beach house!

Yes, that’s a Stuism too.

My brother and I have this thing where we come up with ridiculous band names and then say in this really pretentious, knowing tone, “Oh, well, you know, it’s just one guy.”

This week’s band:

George Michael Roger That.

Oh, they are marvelous. Maybe you saw them open for Recursive Angst. Except that of course it’s really just one guy

* Hat-tip to Jeff (@jmoriarty) for Recursive Angst. Which is also just one guy. As is Jeff.

That’s it for me …

And yes yes yes, of course you can join in my Friday ritual right here in the comments bit if you feel like it.

Yeah? Anything hard and/or good happen in your week?

And, as always, have a glorrrrrrrrrrrrious day and a restful weekend-ing.

And a happy week to come. Shabbat shalom.

This is for you!

The Fluent Self