Because it’s Friday AGAIN. And because traditions are important. In which I cover the good stuff and the hard stuff in my week, trying for the non-preachy, non-annoying side of self-reflection.
And you get to join in if you feel like it.
Oh, what a week.
I have no idea what happened because I was pretty much in recovery mode from last week in Taos.
So I’ll pretty much say “Oy, what a week!” … and leave it at that.
No, I’m pretty sure that if I sit here with Selma and Stu, and stare at the screen long enough, we’ll come up with something.
The hard stuff
Whiny!
I’m tired! It’s too hot! My hair is all frizzy and it wasn’t in New Mexico and I want to go back to New Mexico!
Et cetera.
Tired.
And missing being on Retreat. And missing teaching. And missing getting to do Shiva Nata wackiness with a room full of people.
And did I mention the tired?
Seriously, I must have slept twelve hours a night this week. Plus naps.
Many, many naps.
And still tired.
Some horrible person said that Paddy Fermor is gone.
He’s not.
It turned out to be a mean, fake rumor.
But it totally shook me up. Like, I cried.
If you do not know Patrick Leigh Fermor and you haven’t yet read A Time of Gifts …
I don’t even know what to say. He means so much to me.
And he’s ninety-four, and typing the final installment of his travel memoirs (after finally agreeing to use a ’51 Olivetti to expedite the process) after decades of writing it all out by hand.
Anyway, I was much relieved to find out that he’s okay. But it was just so much sad. So so so so so much sad.
Thursday.
Thursday was hellish.
I spent most of it under the covers feeling sorry for myself.
Leaving New Mexico.
Did I mention that New Mexico is my new favorite-favoritest state ever?
Because it is. Enchantment is exactly the right word.
So leaving that enormous sky and the smells and the green-chiles-on-everything (yum!) was full of sad and wistful.
The good stuff
Coming back to Portland.
In the airport this kid with long hair was skateboarding down the automated walkway people-mover-ey thing.
And my gentleman friend and I looked at each other and went, oh, Portland! We have missed you!
It’s a good town. Plus it’s full of berries. Berries! Really good ones. And Portlanders. So I really can’t complain.
And being safe at home in Hoppy House is pretty great too.
Also, my gentleman friend roasted chiles he brought back from Chimayo and made me the most fantastic chile rellenos de queso and I might be even slightly more impressed with him than I already was.
Traditions and rituals.
It’s just so good being back in routine.
We saw Mr. Pants!
Speaking of traditions, we (me and my gentleman friend and my brother, but not Selma) went out for our weekly non-Hoppy-House dinner.
And then we ran into Sparky Firepants (Mr. Pants!) and his adorable almost-two-year-old son who is just ridiculously charming.
I felt kind of bad that Selma wasn’t there, because kids love Selma. But I was also kind of glad that she’s such a loner sometimes because kids also drool on her and she hates that.
My pirate tech genius rocks.
Remember when I wrote a Very Personal Ad for someone to do mad moodling and various bits of magical tech wizardry for me?
So I just want to say that I am madly in love with Charlotte Bowen. Charlotte! I adore you!
Hiro is amazing.
I’m pretty much addicted to her particular brand of wackiness and healing (you know Hiro, right?)
And I try to do a session with her at least once a week.
But she just knocked me out this time. Just the most amazing everything-is-better-now thing that I can’t even describe.
Jaw-droppingly great.
I wrote a blog post in the afternoon.
Normally I can only write in the morning.
Any time between 5:30 am to sometime before noon works fine, and then I’m done.
For years I’d tried to force it, and then I just gave myself permission to be a morning writer. Which made life considerably better.
But on Wednesday? I wrote a blog post. At about 4:30 in the afternoon.
Even though it was waaaaaaay past my brain time, as Patsi would say.
Awesome.
And … new at the meme beach house!
Yes, that’s a Stuism too.
My brother and I have this thing where we come up with ridiculous band names and then say in this really pretentious, knowing tone, “Oh, well, you know, it’s just one guy.”
So this week, I bring you:
Hardcore Heinzelmännchen*
Me: “I just dropped peas all over the stairs.”
My gentleman friend: “Is that a Hardcore Heinzelmännchen reference? Because you know … it’s just one guy.”
Yes!
*Thanks to the brilliant @westernworld_ (one of my german twitter friends) who came up with this one!
And … STUISMS of the week.
Stu is my paranoid McCarthy-ist voice-to-text software who delights in torturing me misunderstanding me. I can’t stand him.
I didn’t use Stu all that much this week because he kept getting stuck on capitalizing each word and I couldn’t find the command (not like he really listens to that many commands anyway) to make him stop.
And then at one point he actually said gay long instead of “internal”. I’m not even kidding. And that weirded me out so much that I actually went and pressed quit and started again.
My other favorite from this week?
but it’s not Qual instead of “but it’s not cool”
Uh, am I a valley girl? What is that accent?
Okay. The rest of the Stuisms:
- Guinevere I see Harry instead of “whenever I see her”
- I owe you say the fist thing instead of “I always say the first thing”
- “Tom?” instead of “Huh?”
- who are the Way more dignified than IM instead of “who are way more biggified than I am.”
- un-entire weekend instead of “an entire weekend.”
That’s it for me …
And yes yes yes, of course you can join in my Friday ritual right here in the comments bit if you feel like it.
Yeah? Anything hard and/or good happen in your week?
And, as always, have a glorrrrrrrrrrrrious weekend. And a happy week to come.
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Oh boy! I get to lead off the comments!
Havi, I completely second the “Oy, what a week”.
The hard:
– Way, way too much work, way too little time. Can’t even detail it because it was a blur. All I know is it involved too little sleep and major guilt at all the stuff that is piling up.
– The continued decline of our kitty. Husband actually broached the “putting down” topic. It isn’t time for that yet, but probably sooner than we want. Sucks, sucks big time. NEVER had to deal with this before. NEVER.
– Whiny students, whiny potential co-instructor. NO MORE WHINING. You either want your degree or not. You either want to teach or not. Stop wasting my time and energy. Ok, vent off.
The good:
– Riding 75 miles on my bike into strong head winds to raise funds for MS research to support my 23 year old student who was diagnosed last year. I just can’t wrap my head around being diagnosed so young with such a terrible progressive disease. But was proud to support her! And proud that I whipped my legs into shape in just 1 month!
– Resolving a problem with financial aid for a couple of my students. Actually, it was a problem I caused by a well-intentioned decision earlier in the year that had consequences I didn’t realize. But felt good that I was able to fix my error and make things right by my students.
– My department chair and office assistant who are guiding me though the chaos this summer. Couldn’t do it without them.
– Getting my book list for my first 2 course in my doctoral program! It is starting to feel real! Getting excited!
Have a great week everyone!
Havi, thank you for your kind appreciation! **Blush** I’m going to take a deep breath and let it flow in. 🙂
Hard this week:
Hurt my back and leg and couldn’t walk, couldn’t sit in one position for long . . . felt the way I did just a few weeks after my hip surgery. Ugh.
Signed up for a retreat in September (my 60th birthday present to myself) and scared myself half to death about spending so much money.
Good this week:
Had a treatment from my osteopath, and am walking again. With a cane, and gingerly, but I can walk!
Had an incredibly powerful healing session with Pirate Queen Havi, which took me on a journey into the depths and back again. Returned with new treasures.
Had a long talk with all of my selves and reached an agreement about writing and teaching projects for the coming year.
@WildHeartQueen Chris Zydel and I got together this week and are co-teaching a retreat in Portland next year! Yippeee! 🙂
Oh, what a week!
Have a wonderful weekend, everyone.
Love, Hiro
.-= Hiro Boga´s last post … Remembering Hiroshima =-.
The Hard:
Miscommunications and everybody’s Stuff at the last minute at work. Me appointed intermediary to make “everybody” happy (except, of course, me).
TIRED. Allergies and insomnia that kept me up most of the night on Tuesday, making the above issues even harder to deal with.
I want my teddy bear. Who is in storage in Eugene, OR, 2500 miles away. (hmm. just realized that I miss him… after 8 years. Wonder what that means?)
No time to get near a personal non-work computer to post to either of my blogs. 🙁
A bunch of stuff is ALMOST done.. I hate almosts. I like being in progress, or FINISHED.
The Good:
Getting stuff put together. A file of handwritten blog posts just waiting to get pre-posted. Almost done stitching a model for a new design.
My husband. Even stressed, he’s a GoodThing.
Wishcraft – and realizing that despite feeling like I hadn’t gotten anything out of it the last time I did it, I’ve managed to get over 1/2 way to my ideal day, AND I’m still using the planning techniques I learned from Barbara in person almost 20 years ago. (Good grief, has it really been that long?!)
.-= G. Romilly´s last post … My not-quite-a-UFO pile – Cats by Kelly =-.
Is un-entire a word? And Qual? What’s that? Stu is odd this week.
I wonder when MY braintime is. I guess it’d be easier to figure out if I didn’t have to be in this sleepy office very day. The place that knows not day and night…
Anyway, hard: Feeling confused about what I want and how I define success. My book got a great review in a real print magazine, is listed on Amazon and sells regularly, and still I’m all “waaah, I just don’t feel like I’m achieving anything!” What is with that, Will? SRSLY.
Got some dread about some Serious Things that are coming up. Running workshops. Working with kids. Being visible. I actually trained to be a teacher for a few months, but I dropped out, traumatised and disillusioned. And now I’m going to run some drawing workshops. Eeeeeeeh!
Good: Yoga! How long have I been doing it now? Don’t know how I ever did without.
People liked my silly e-book! Wheee! I even have people on my mailinglist now, yay! Hi you guys! ^_^
Wishcraft. Worked my way through some (not all) of the exercises, it was inspiring and fun. My only worry is that my dream seems so small. Just me, running a little creative business that supports me and the boyfriend, and in the evening we watch Dr. Who. My “perfect day” is mostly made up of stuff I already do. Am I dreaming too small, or is that just all I really want?
Lots of questions in my Chicken this week. Interesting.
Since when is Instant Messaging not dignified?!
Anyways.
Hard:
I have been dumb and staying up late reading random things online and not getting enough sleep.
I’m getting together with friends to go to a ballgame this weekend, but my one friend’s wife backed out, which makes me so irrationally paranoid (yes, redundant, I know) because she keeps getting offended by innocent things I say, and I don’t know if she’s one of those people who don’t beleive guys and girls can be friends without it turning into a Thing, but I do know I almost never hear from him anymore while my fiance and another of our mutual guy friends do, and when I was in their wedding I was announced as her friend, not his, even though I barely knew her, and… gah! And now they’re gonna have a baby, which, AWESOME! but I have a sinking feeling that means he’s never going to be my friend anymore (which would just be understandably sucky if that applied to the guys, as well, but…)
Good:
The wedding shower I *wanted* was made of awesome.
We got all out thank-you notes out — they took a week for the first shower, and under a week for the second (C attended the second shower, so he had to do half of the notes — saved SO MUCH time). We win.
Plane tickets for the honeymoon are bought, and we got areally sweet deal on our unity candle set.
C actually marked “Encourage Laura to do NaNoWriMo” on his calendar for November 1. I knew I kept him around for a reason!
And I came up with some new features I want to try on my blog(s), so fingers crossed!
.-= Laura G´s last post … In which I am happy =-.
Well.
Hard
None of my friends are around, so I have actually mostly being staying in and doing not much at all.
I’ve stopped blogging because it just seems to be a bit pointless, which is sort of a shame.
I am trying to start a little radio station, but it’s hard and I want to just hide away and it can start itself. But that’s not going to happen. I spent most of the week just trying to think of a name for it.
Good
I have a name for it now 🙂 not the exciting “yes that’s perfect!” name I was hoping for, but a good strong name. And things are starting to slowly roll into motion.
I’m going on a second Sunday adventure this weekend with one of my best friends, so that should be nice and therapeutic.
I have a frizzy hair joke for this frizzy hair edition 🙂
Me (to Hairstylist): My hair gets SO BIG in humidity. Can you recommend something to help with that?
Hairstylist (to Me): Oh, honey… you’ve got empathic hair… It absorbs moisture from the air, and takes it on as its own. Your hair needs better boundaries.
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P.S. If you are an empath, please don’t be offended by this goofy joke. I’m a (big-haired) empath, too, and the joke just came to me on a humid, muggy day when I had a hair explosion!
.-= Erika Harris´s last post … Why I love Einstein. (Yes, the hair. And the mind beneath it. But that’s just the beginning…) =-.
So tired this week.
What’s been hard:
-Feeling lethargic and depressed. Trying to acknowledge my late mother’s birthday, but not knowing how to celebrate her w/out feeling upset. That doesn’t feel like a celebration.
-Taking long naps and feeling guilty. Then not sleeping well at night due to long daytime naps.
-Despairing over the dozens of job applications I’ve sent out with no responses. What am I meant to do?
-Skipping workouts due to fatigue.
-Skipping meals or eating poorly due to lack of interest in food.
What’s been good:
-Listening to my body and letting myself feel crappy. Trusting it will pass.
-Eating breakfast for dinner because it is comforting.
-Starting the process of packing up my house to make a new home with my boyfriend.
-Wonderful phone conversation with a friend.
-Cuddling with my cute pug.
-Cool enough evening last night to put the fan in the window.
-A therapist who listens but also offers solutions.
Hi Darling,
Coming from someone who is so madly in love obsessed with New Mexico that it is embarrassingly scary…… all I can say is …. good luck! Once you get dinged by the Land of Enchantment big skies, red rocks, chile fairy there is NO going back!!
My hard this week:
Two of the people that I love the most in all the world are going through very hard times right now and I can’t FIX it. I can be there and listen and love them… which is all good and fine… but I can’t make the pain go away and it’s making me feel very sad and powerless.
My back has been hurting me… which hasn’t happened in a very long time and I worry about it getting worse cause when that happens it can be very, very, can’t-move-or- get-up-off-of-the-couch-for-a-week bad.
The good:
My little video about the intuitive painting process is getting lots of great attention from many wonderful folks.
I’m going to be interviewed- AGAIN- on another radio program.
Had a fabulous session with Havi where I met my creativity snake and my money jungle and my mother tree and can’t WAIT to see what magical, wacky fabulousness THAT brings.
Hiro Boga and I are planning and scheming and creating a women’s creativity and intuition workshop together for next year in Portland! Too much FUN!!
Hugs,love and glitter,
Chris
.-= chris zydel´s last post … How I Learned To Trust In The Creative Process – Whether I Like It Or Not =-.
AH-hahaha. “Guinevere I see Harry” is for some reason ridiculously funny to me and I cannot stop giggling about it. Writing it on a post-it above my desk, thank you so much, I now want a STU just so I can create such frivolities.
Hardest: Thursday was just plain awful.
Goodest: E-mail from friend I Adore and hadn’t talked to in way too long.
Hahahahaha! Yes, still funny.
.-= Briana´s last post … Finding your thing in the sweet spot =-.
The hard…
– Continued frustrations with poor customer support from various organizations. Why is it so hard to get answers to simple questions?
– Struggling with a slight lack of motivation this week. It started large, but is getting better.
– Preparing to do some stuff I don’t want to do next week. Ugh.
The good…
– Had a great Sunday supporting my husband’s 100 mile ride. (One of the riders crashed hard, but fortunately no broken bones. His $9,000 bike frame cracked in two places, tho.)
– Got two calls from potential new customers this week. So business continues to pick up. Yay!
– On track to meet my weight goal next weekend. Double yay!
.-= Avonelle Lovhaug´s last post … The secret to buying custom software for less =-.
@Erika I LOVE your big hair joke!!!
The Hard:
– headache-a-day; painful stretching feeling in my hip joint. urgh.
– too much of the work I hate doing at work
– avoiding that work all week, making it into a bigger and bigger gremlin
– My partner is having a hard time, and I don’t know how to help her make it “all better”
– Emotional hangover from talking to a friend about some trouble with her partner
– crazy fear and anxiety about the next few weeks, when most of my closest friends are leaving the city (and even the time zone)
The Good:
– hanging out with a friend and her newborn, feeling like I’m not going to be discounted in birth-world as a not-yet-mom
– impromptu movie with a friend. not a good movie, out too late on a school night, but good to say yes to a hang-out and spend time with a friend who is leaving soon enough.
– we’re finally adopting a kitty! our new family member is coming to us tomorrow and i can’t can’t can’t WAIT.
Busy week here too.
The Hard: Mom back in the hospital. We are talking maybe 5th surgery in 3 years? All related back to a knee replacement. So any spare mojo floating around this fabulous joint, if you’ve got nowhere else to be, please direct yourself towards getting Mom back on her feet and _healthy_.
Asking a nagging question of the new BF. An unfounded concern, but still, it was difficult to broach the subject, but I am so glad I did. (This being brave and doing difficult and scary things, and leaping with no net, and finding that things really _do_ turn out O.K., is a theme this summer…. I am starting to.. well, not exactly _like_ it, but being brave about scary things is getting better.)
Summer almost over!!!!!!! School is starting about a week earlier this year, and the Back-to-School excitement has not yet kicked in, so it’s a doldrummy anxiety that (hopefully soon) will turn into anticipation of Fall, and new sweaters and oooooh… boots… 🙂 apple picking… But wait! Northern Illinois is just starting sweetcorn season!!! Gotta go in order…
The Good:
Saturday, Field Museum “Pirates!” exhibit with a friend. (Not nearly as cool as it would have been if you had been featured, Havi.) Sunday, whitewater rafting with friends. Wednesday, fishing on Lake Michigan with family. Thursday, a major clearing of the air with the new BF. Not really a misunderstanding, but wow, I am relieved. XOXOXO to the universe.
The hard:
-At the beginning of the week, there was a lot of feelings of ‘what are you doing with yourself,’
-I’m afraid of putting my business out there (still fighting the urge to put quotes around “business” because I feel exactly like, “who do you think you are? your ‘business’? you? really? ha!”)
-I’m afraid that no one will come.
-I’m afraid that the idea is dumb.
-I’m afraid…
The good:
-I’m noticing that I have a lot of fear around this new business idea, and that this fear and I are going to work it out when it’s right.
-I’m noticing that even though I have this fear, I also have a lot of excitement and energy to move forward with this idea.
-My copy of Wishcraft came in at the library. Inspiring. Really. And I’ve been playing around a lot with five lives (sometimes only three lives… sometimes twenty…)
-I started putting my stuff out there… what I do. I’m now looking for my people. Are you out there?
-I started two twitter accounts: one for me (@qb9er) and one for my business (@catcarepdx) and am actively participating in tweeting (twittering? being a twit? twittish behavior?)
-I have a start date for an official part-time job (one that pays the rent while I’m figuring it all out)
.-= Jen´s last post … Cats Beat the Heat with Iced Water =-.
Whoo! We got Jen on Twitter. Rock. On. Yay.
@Ingrid – I kind of wish I *could* have been in a museum exhibit on pirates, just to surprise you. It’s like jumping out of a cake, only better.
@Erika – somehow the thought that my big hair is reflecting my empathic highly sensitive self completely makes me giggle. Big! Hair!
@Paul – a sunday Adventure! That sounds like fun.
Okey-dokey, have to do some work-work-work. Will check in again in a big. Happy happy friday, guys.
skater on moving walkway = awesome. Reminds me of: http://www.qwantz.com/index.php?comic=1509
Hard:
Loneliness.
Lame-duck limbo (sorry Selma!). As in, why bother doing X if I’m not going to be here in two months. Also as in, I’m really not sure what I want to do in two months and that is scary. Also as in, I’m still in the routine I want to be out of.
The Assignment Pattern. Even though it’s now OVER I’m not feeling very happy about it.
The other day at the canal I watched a mother duck lose one of her babies. At the start of my walk she had seven and then later she had six. I’ve been told these ducks end up casually exchanging ducklings a lot because they can’t count. Still disturbed though.
Good:
Per my personal ad, at least now I can focus on other things.
Also, gold star for taking care of myself. Anxiety levels were way down from last week.
Besides the assignment, this other huge project at work made its official debut, and that one I am really happy about.
Cleaning! At last.
I re-listened to the Shiva Nata call and then I did a ton of it this week. Zooming cheekily up and down the levels. Pretty crazy results, too.
I took the last of my nail polish off with nail polish remover – the last little bit that wouldn’t come off with my chipping and chipping at it – and it was way easier than I thought it would be.
Jen, I checked out your site- I don’t have a cat, but I think this is a *good* idea!
@Ingrid – Thanks so much for your kind words and support! It means so very, very much.
.-= Jen´s last post … Cats Beat the Heat with Iced Water =-.
who are the Way more dignified than IM? Who indeed? Sounds like STU may have joined some kind of esoteric cult, there.
Hard this week: Lack of sleep, argh. Overwhelming to-do list. Lots of little delays on our extension job. People coming down with colds.
Good this week: Being paid! Yay! Not one, but TWO cheques! (And one was for singing in a professional recording session, which is way glitzy.) Some progress on the works despite the delays. Hanging out with friends. People reading my blog and leaving comments.
.-= Lean Ni Chuilleanain´s last post … Very Secret Mysteries, no. 3: Crochet =-.
“Un-entire weekend” — I can relate. Sometimes it feels like there should be more weekend. Like cowbell. Only weekend.
The hard:
– Overscheduled again. This is a recurring theme with me, and I’m having a hard time learning to not be such an optimist with my capabilities.
– My house is embarrassingly disaster-zone-ish, and I just don’t have time to clean until next week. The dust is bringing me down.
The good:
– Through all the crazy, it still didn’t occur to me to skip yoga class this morning.
– I found a really wonderful local sandwich shop. The food is delicious and well priced and it makes me happy to spend my money with my neighbors rather than a chain place.
– Even though I’m overscheduled, I’m not feeling a ton of stress about it, and I’ve managed to maintain a great mood all week.
– I’m going to be the featured artist on one of my favorite blogs next week (so I should probably stop writing and go list some more stuff on Etsy…).
Thanks again for sharing this space with us, Havi.
.-= Lori Paximadis´s last post … tidbits: August already? edition =-.
This week just doesn’t feel like it’s over yet, because it isn’t, for me… I still have meetings! Sigh.
The Hard:
– Meetings! Meetings that got flaked on, rescheduled, can-this-person-come-instead-of-that-person-ed, ran long, swapped out and moved around. But meant I will have been out of the house 5 days this week doing meeting things, and my little introvert soul is crying for mercy.
– A person who keeps failing to meet a commitment with me and acting like it’s no big deal, even though their more public persona is that these commitments are a big deal and important. I’m trying not to make it about me, as it’s oh so clearly her, but bah. Hard.
– Lots of decisions and unsureness.
The Good:
+ Big Annual Project is almost done, and it’s great this year! Client wasn’t sure about the cover at first but she’s loving it now, which is a relief.
+ Hooked Client up with Networking Partner to everyone’s benefit.
+ Money came in! Piles of it, most of which was not earmarked for anything. Hence the decisions, since there’s always always always a pile of other debts and wants and madness to consider. But omg, the relief and joy of just having a bank account balance of goodness.
+ I’m starting an awesome awesome new project that got hooked up through Havi’s blog! It is brilliant and I’m confident about it and I can’t wait until this week is OVER so I can get started on it.
+ Saw a great friend last night who often treats me, and got to treat him to sushi. It was awesome. Also, delicious.
+ Game night tonight!
+ Getting a new smartphone! My old one is edging its way close to 3 years old and has already had the battery replaced once, and I’ve kind of hated it from day one anyway. I’m 99% sold on joining the iPhone cult, but I want to fondle the myTouch G2s this weekend. Mmmmapps.
+ My cats make sure that I know that they vastly prefer the weeks when I’m in by snuggling and cuddling as soon as I get home, and it makes all the effort feel worthwhile — after all, I work so I can feed and house them, you know. 😉
I love how these check-ins always show me in an undeniable way that the good in my life outweighs the difficulties. Thanks, Havi!
.-= Amy Crook´s last post … Meeting Myself Halfway =-.
Just wanted to lead off by saying thank YOU, Havi! The love is definitely mutual. 🙂
Hard Stuff this week:
5 days of less than 5 hours of sleep a night
Got a little bit anxious over a few deadlines
I’m still recovering from the flu and don’t feel so great
Fantastic Stuff this week:
I launched a beautiful website for my business
I got some really supportive emails (and a blog mention!) from awesome people
My clients are gorgeous people who do amazing stuff!
It’s the weekend, and the weather is beautiful
I’m about to go take a long walk to the seashore and just soak it all in
.-= Charlotte´s last post … Are You Sure This Thing’s On? =-.
This week was a bit of a rollercoaster for me.
The hard:
*My dad. After thinking he was going to be able to go home this week and move on with his life, it turns out that his surgery a few weeks ago left lots of infected bone. He has another surgery planned for Monday morning to remove the rest of his sternum and anything else that’s infected. And then there will be another once he’s had some time to heal, moving muscles to protect his heart/chest. And for some reason this one has me the most scared & worried of all of his surgeries so far.
*Arguing with my sweetie
*Thursday. It sucked for me too. I went to work and frowned and got very little done all day – would probably have been far better served by a day under the covers.
*Serious sleepiness. I’m usually not ready to go to bed until midnight or so, and was ready to fall asleep in my chair by 10 for 3 nights in a row.
The good:
*Craft show! I had a fabulous weekend – got a great response from people, made a lot of sales. My spirograph jewelry sets definitely found some of their Right People – like the lady who was literally bouncing with excitement as she walked away after buying one. On the way home Sunday night I told my sweetie that the weekend had kind of been one big ego-stroke. And it was *really* nice.
*Friends! We stayed with some good friends up in Seattle for the show, and they had another couple we really enjoy over for a BBQ on Saturday night. And I met a local twitter-pal in person at the show.
*The surgeon that my dad will have for this surgery is the first person he’s seen for a while that has really seemed to take what’s going on seriously and to be totally straight with him. That’s very hopeful.
*The arguing with my sweetie ended up with some really good conversation and new understanding on both sides.
.-= Shannon Henry´s last post … Spirosketch is ready! =-.
I LOVE Heinzelmannchen (can’t do the umlaut but you know what I mean)! When I was in Germany they had these little cartoon interludes on the TV starring Heinzelmannchen, and that pretty much saved me. That and David Dana.
Okay. So.
Hard:
~ Fear about my sweetie’s dad, who had to be hospitalized and is now in a “rehab” place which I’m worried might be more of a “warehouse” place because my sister told me some terrible stories.
~ Worry about our boy, who is away from home this week. And fine. (Despite the dangerous dog.)
~ Missing our boy, who did I mention is away from home. TOO QUIET HERE.
Rockin:
~ We’re painting our house after living here for 10 years.
~ We are not repainting it white. The grey has a lovely shimmer I hadn’t anticipated.
~ Dark purple doors and shutters are more exciting than I could ever have imagined.
~ I figured out a way to make that slide that was bugging me in my slidedeck (Yay, http://chartle.net!)
~ Made lunches every day this week and didn’t mind.
~ I have lots of cool ideas coming to me these days.
~ I got to hang with my dear old friend Karen in NYC with no kid in tow… felt very decadent. There is no medicine more powerful than a friend who knows you well and loves you deeply, I think.
.-= Shelley´s last post … Beware of Dog =-.
Okay..
Hard
-relationship yuck that showed my stuff new
– son’s both came home to live(20 and 21)I have really been enjoying the quiet nest!
Okay..
Hard
-Relationship yuck that showed my stuff new.
– Sons both came home to live(20 and 21)I have really been enjoying the quiet nest.
-House is very messy due to the above.
-Day job is just not fun.
-Not enough time.
Good
-Finding this site and Havi and Selma and all of you.
-Sons came home to live. Love them! They have amazing stories and are so much fun. They make me laugh all the time, except when the don’t do the dishes.
-Starting writing for my blog-thanks to support here.
-Met with my healer-love her (worked on relationship yuck that was mostly about me).
Happy weekend everyone!
Wow, I think Stu is losing it.
My hair looks good when it’s really humid. It’s thin, so the extra curl gives it more volume. I think of my curly hair as my happy hair. When it’s dry, it’s much straighter, and then it looks like sad hair.
The hard:
I went to my yoga class Wednesday night, and the door was locked. Nobody there. I hadn’t been there in several weeks, and when I took one of the schedules out of the box by the door I saw they had completely changed everything around so none of the classes are at a time that works for me. I’m so bummed.
The good:
A happy thing happened that I’m not ready to talk about publicly, but it’s a good thing and I’m happy.
.-= Riin´s last post … Amazing =-.
What a refreshing post!
Not-quite-so-awesome this week:
Huge fight/painful discussion with the man I love, who, sigh, no longer loves me. I am rather unaware as to what on earth I should do now, but I know that I don’t want to address it now. My heart isn’t ready.
Widsom teeth out today! Ow, ouch. Also, I look rather like a chipmunk and cannot eat or drink comfortably.
Having big problems with my university. They won’t let me move in, and its making me a little bit crazy. I need to go ahead and be moved into my dorm by August 15th, and they refuse to let me in until the 21st. They have no good reason for doing so, which makes me sad.
Good things!
I FINALLY got my wisdom teeth out, which I will never have to do again, and only two of them were impacted. Also, my oral surgeon called me PERSONALLY tonight to check on me. I love him.
I have finally come to terms with some things and have made some decisions about how to change my life for the better.
My dog is playing nurse since I got my teeth out. She sits at my feet or lays on me at all times, even following me to the bathroom. I love her so very much, and she reminds me constantly that I have much to be thankful for.
Yay, love this Friday ritual it has become one of my favourites! Here goes:
The Hard:
I’m really struggling with my studies at the moment… hard to be motivated and hard to get through all the work. The moment I start on the next unit, it just puts me to sleep. I’m serious as I start reading, I just go to sleep!?! Then wake up an hour later and have to get the kids at school = there goes my study time!
Also hard, doing part time cleaning job at school and it is just crap. No other words for it.
The Good:
Clarified my vision for my life with my hubland this week and it was AWESOme! I can actually see it for the first time and I’m just loving it. So excited, love my ‘thing’! Just want to do it all and the time and hopefully soon I can.
Also good: absolutely crazy beauitfully in love with said hubland at the moment. He’s amazing and adorable and just so cool, I’m one lucky lady 🙂
Thanks for the space! You all rock 🙂
Happy weekend
xxx
Stuisms are one of the highlights of my week. I always laugh out loud when I read them.
The Hard:
-failed my road test (I finally decided to get my driver’s license at age 28). That was really hard. Disappointing. Anti-climactic. Ugh.
-lost some momentum with exercise routine. Slacking off and skipping too many morning jogs.
-struggling with being defensive in my relationship…taking things as criticism when they’re not.
The Good:
-played a gig with an inspiring musician who made me feel excited about what’s possible to accomplish in art
-spent time hanging out and laughing with friends
-my girlfriend and I became Godparents to our friend’s awesome, beautiful kids
-wrote my first blog post ever, and while it’s kind of scary to start blogging, I feel pretty excited about it. The “blogging therapy” series here helped me get it together.
Thanks for this space
I love this ritual
.-= Christine´s last post … Glow House #3 =-.
Mmmm … so my favorite weekend thing is going back and reading people’s chickens. Though that does kind of make it sound like I read tea leaves (“excuse me, but I would like to read your chicken”).
But this is just neat.
@Amy Crook – I so completely love what you said about noticing how the good outweighs the hard. Because … I haven’t been really paying attention to that. But you’re so right.
There is something to listing it all out that brings me into equilibrium.
And the act of bringing attention to it totally cheers me up, even in weeks where the hard is especially big and unpleasant.
Yay, Friday chickens.
Update!
Okay, even though this should technically fall under next week’s chicken, I couldn’t not update my “The Good.”
So, The Good addendum:
-The afraid is getting smaller. Turns out that it just has very large teeth, but when it closes its mouth, you can’t see them at all. We’re going to discuss chewing with its mouth closed.
-My first blog commenter! Yay! @sherronann liked my post http://catcarepdx.wordpress.com/2009/08/06/beat-the-heat-with-iced-water/ (I now know exactly how Sally Field felt in 1985). Thanks @sherronann!
Havi, thank you. This is your doing.
.-= Jen´s last post … SlimCat Food & Treat Ball =-.
Better late than never chicken edition.
Good grief, Sunday morning 2 am and I’m still up and writing. It’s both exhillarating (I am owning Writer Pidge, not being able to sleep because the urge to write is too strong) and exhausting (knowing that both Writer Pidge and Actor Pidge and also Corporate Toadie Pidge do need lots of sleep on weekends to recharge — oy). And I want to do my chicken and read all the other chickens as a wind down ritual to the land of peaceful dreams.
The Hard:
–Lots of emotional mishegas this week. Lots of tears. Lots of feeling and being with feelings. Also good, because being with feelings is better than eating feelings or tamping down feelings. But nonetheless, lots of emotional churn. Feeling very Kermit the Frog “Not Easy being Green” (or emo, in my case, if you can be past 40 and be emo).
–Overbooked. Too many irons in the fire. Running on empty a bit.
–Having trouble with dance and stage combat choreography for the musical I’m doing (Guys and Dolls). Lots of failure. Which, I know, is good for the soul but always feels like crap in the moment. Lots of self-maintenance around not being a perfectionist, allowing it to be messy, allowing it to be hard.
–Relationship churn. Being out of sync with my husband.
The Good:
–Very much alive as an artist. Writing my one person play. Moving it along. Getting to act and sing (and dance) in rehearsals. Lining up other gigs for the fall. Feeling like I have a lot of community as a writer and actor. Yay.
–Allowing myself to open up and be vulnerable and let others in during all the emotional hard. Not apologizing (too much). Letting myself be held — by myself, and by others.
–Having Havi’s words and this community to know I’m not alone, and to have company on this journey.
Thanks to Havi as always for the space to do this, and to all the other folks for their chickens. Yay for Chicken — even when it’s a little bit late.