the point isn’t getting my wish (though cool things have emerged from wishing), it’s learning about my relationship with wanting, accessing the qualities…
wanting can be hard, it is easy to feel conflicted about it, and the reasons for that make this a surprisingly subversive practice…
this is the 375th week of wishing, come play!
live
the full moon said
DO NOT UNDERESTIMATE YOUR POWER
DO NOT UNDERESTIMATE YOUR STEADY GRACE
the full moon said I need to use my power and my steady grace
to live by my power and my steady grace
and to glow wild
live by the moon
I am okay with this mission,
this moonbeam mission,
it works for me
that doesn’t mean I know how to do any of this
(power and steady grace aren’t exactly things I have fully figured out yet)
just that I say yes
possible meanings of “live by the moon”
be outdoors
be outdoors more
be connected to moon times
go out and see the stars
live in a round house that is secretly a planetarium,
the one that is in my dreams
though, yes, also
to live by the moon could mean
live according to this moon wisdom
live according to these startlingly clear guidelines and instructions
what else do I know about this that I don’t know that I know?
let’s skip some stones
what do I already know about living by the moon?
cycles
repetition
ebb and flow, wax and wane
pull and the wild magic of tides as
the moon’s gravity pull on our oceans
and orbit: it swings on an orbit, like in dance
oh, and the moon has dancing dust
what do I want that the moon has?
sometimes the moon is like, HEY BEHOLD MY RADIANCE
and you gasp in awe because it is so absolutely spectacular
then at other times it’s just hanging out in the background,
half-invisible
I want that ability, to turn my shine on when it’s the time for shining
then fade into the sky when I want to be incognito
what else do I know about living by the moon?
I have wished a wish like this before
but different
in May of 2015
a wish called moon wishes about, among other things,
aligning my cycle with the moon
or really, letting those cycles do what they want, together
I have wished wishes about naming the moon
or letting the moon name itself
and recently I wrote this about Incoming Me:
Adrianna is the dark and the moon and the tides and the pull
the long slow kiss
and the moment before the moment before
and then sleeping in, surrounded by cushions
Adrianna is devoted to being,
letting things be revealed in their own time
what am I like when I live by the moon?
brave
steady
glowing
dancing
smiling
calm and still
patient
playful
creative
wild
alive
not apologetic about my intensity
not apologetic about my quiet
what does the me-who-already-lives-by-the-moon want me to know?
she:
when you see a crescent moon, there isn’t any less of the moon,
it’s just the play of light and reflection
what would I tell someone whose wish was to live by the moon?
there is nothing wrong with hiding
there is nothing wrong with glowing
there is nothing wrong with wanting both of these at once
what will help me meet the version of me who already lives by the moon?
less input
stronger force fields
more entry
get into the water
less is more
what kind of less?
this kind of less: crown on
what do I know about my wishes?
these are wishes about simplicity,
living in integrity,
aligned with [whatever is meaningful for me in this moment]
and right now that’s the moon and this
powerful set of instructions that I am
a bit hesitant to unpack
but that’s okay
I can dance around them a while longer
and trust that whatever needs to be revealed will be revealed
(this is also a wish about that)
the superpower of I Am So Very Clear
August was MUSE, with the superpower of Deep Listening, and now we are in the month of INTENTION and I Am So Very Clear
there is so much in this too that I had not anticipated: Clear Knowing, Discernment, Resonance, Transparency, all the many beautiful forms of clear
thank you, past-me, for being such a good namer and calling this into being
last week’s wishes
last-week-me wished a wish called the wandering wish book
and everything about it was just right
it told me I needed to set a clearer trajectory
and I have
invitation: come play with me…
you are invited to share this post and to share many !!!!!! about what is here,
or share appreciation or anything sparked for you while reading, including any stories you wish to let go of, any adventures you wish to welcome
deposit wishes, gwishes, superpowers, qualities, ingredients, intel, possibly in code
safe space for creative exploration asks us to let go of care-taking and advice-giving
wishes are never late because whenever you wish is the right time for wishing
here’s how we meet each other’s wishes: oh, wow what beautiful wishes
♡
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What you are like when you live by the moon sounds an awful lot like the self I discovered while exploring New Mexico last week. I’m finding out how to Be Me, without paying any attention to the opinions of others about any of it.
Also, I have been off Twitter since before we left, as well as ignoring the news, and i have no desire to change either of those things.
Perhaps I should greet the moon myself…
<3 <3 <3
I am gwishing for steadiness, and progression, and to only begin, for readiness and willingness to say yes when the decision has been made. Yes to my yes.
Yes to your yes. May it be so! <3
so many <3 <3!!!!
When there's like a little too much of things going on in my life, my wishes are usually simple; they ask for quiet, rest, and ease. But today is different. My gwish-not-a-wish-but-some-kind-of-yearing is about strength and visibility. In the same way that singing from the roof-tops that I am "going to be free and fine, but maybe not tonight" is making everything a lot better. I want the superpower of The Lioness, like that time in Uganda. Like those photographs in Arles.I think the "correct" word is assertiveness, but I've never liked that word. Dunno why. Instead I am going to come up with something different. Emz. Something very different. EMZ are the initials of three of the people who came to mind when I wrote this. So Emz it is. For now. I wish for Emz 🙂
Mmmmmm what beautiful wishes, I love this. Here’s to more EMZ.
I want you to know
that I came here,
tonight,
feeling the right timing,
and I read eight of your posts
in one sitting,
feeling gratitude
that you are here,
writing so steadily,
even when my eccentric orbit
sends me out
into the Oort Cloud
for awhile.
May there be ease!
May there be fun!
Please imagine me
bringing
a strange flower
to you,
in a moment
when a strange flower
is welcome,
to say thank you.
Also,
I want you to know
that I thought of you
when I found a book called
Play Anything,
and if I find treasure
in that book,
I will make
Happy Chicken Noises
about it,
in comments, here,
one of these days.
*blowing a kiss
into the wind
in case you would like
to receive it*
Thank you, Karensu! So much love to you. *blowing wind-kisses back*
What do I want?
I want to dance every day, more movement, joyful, natural, free-form, bringing more energy and even more love to my body. I want to dance more when I walk down the street or from room to room, when I wash the dishes and put away my clothes. I want to remember that movement can be an art and a spiritual practice. I want to dance my way through my days, with a spring in my step and grace in my gestures.
Oh wow what beautiful wishes! MAY IT BE SO. Amen x1000 to all of this.
What beautiful wishes!
I used to have a Wish List for what I wanted in a partner. I think I wrote it 4 years ago while sitting at a bar with my friend who said “You need to make a list!” It would pop up in a drawer every so often and I’d think “well, the guitar playing would be nice but that’s not really crucial” or “maybe I could support myself financially and we could be supportive of each other” or “seriously, why do you care if he is a little younger than you?!”
Recently I realized it was the wrong list. Completely. Utterly. Because it wasn’t about ME!
So last night I made a list of all the things I want to be as a girlfriend in a relationship. Things like: loved, loving, heard, seen, listened to, proud, open, brave, vulnerable, supportive, fun, playful, funny, challenged, cherished and cherishing, treasured and treasuring. Because that is the key – to be with someone who makes me the best me, not with someone who fits a random list of things I liked once upon a time.
And if there is someone who makes me feel some of those things, I will remember that they are in some other category like casual friend who I sometimes joke around with and maybe kissed a few times, or handsome boy who asks me questions about my life when he sees me and is interested in the answers but doesn’t make me feel much more even though we kissed+ a few times. They can be what they are, and we can be what we are, but I can rest easy knowing they aren’t more, that *I* am not the most ME when I am with them.
So there is my gigantic wish. :blows a handful of glitter at it as it springs out into the universe:
AMEN x1000! May it be so! I love this wish! Glitter!
seagirl, I love your whole comment SO MUCH.
I love this wish!!
Me, too! It feels profound and simple and wise and very inspiring. And glitter!!! Blowing glitter with you for your beautiful wish. <3 <3 <3
I have waited until Wednesday
to wish this wish
because it is important, and I didn’t want
to wish it on Monday when it was late and I was tired
or to wish it on Tuesday, when I was out
(last night the moon
so huge and yellow)
so here we are, Wednesday
here I am, crawling out of burnout
and wondering what’s on the other side
for so long, all my life it feels like,
I have been living by guilt, choosing out of guilt
shoulds and oughts and woulds if I reallies
this summer, I had enough
I stopped everything
they are gone!
but
I don’t know what comes next
I don’t know what to choose from, if not from guilt
I don’t know what motivates me, moves me
The Fairy Godmother said, love,
but it keeps getting mixed up with oughts and shoulds
I ought to act with love, I should choose according to love
if I really loved I would…
I wish to learn more about love
I wish to learn about love
I wish to learn
I wish to love
now, this reminds me about the last time this happened
and I wished to love
and it was wonderful/awful/scary/guiltful/shameful/sad/fun
and in the meantime
what keeps me ticking over?
I wish to know that
(oh, right, love
that sustains me
I don’t make the love
it doesn’t have to come from me
it’s there
I only have to respond to it
it’s there
it’s always there)
I wish to see
what next
what now
now
Here’s to LOVE
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