the point isn’t getting my wish (though cool things have emerged from wishing), it’s learning about my relationship with wanting, accessing the qualities…
wanting can be hard, it is easy to feel conflicted about it, and the reasons for that make this a surprisingly subversive practice…
this is the 371st week of wishing, come play!
the briefest of wishes
I absconded to Eugene, sans laptop,
unsure if/when I might return
actually unsure about a lot of things,
maybe most things,
hence the sudden absconding,
and the act of [not-bringing my work] felt bold and
more than slightly terrifying
anyway, here we are with brief wishes
calling in the superpower of
knowing that [what is] is just right
aka Trust
breathing more breath
Esther Gokhale’s words keep reverberating in me:
“did you know some people
breathe just enough to stay alive?”
may I breathe full deep yes-to-life breaths (when I can)
taking in breath consciously (when I can)
with love (when I can)
circulating what I want to circulate
what do I want to circulate
in my internal world — body and thoughts and wishes
and in the world around me
including here
can I be someone who circulates light and lightness
is there something in this too about encircling
the circle that allows the circulating
a force field of glowing boundaries
my light circulates within
what is it like to be a star
and be Quick
through Slowness
that is a good question for this week’s wishes
illusory, again
I just don’t know what I want, I told my uncle,
making a face
oh that’s okay, he said, no one does,
knowing is illusory, and so is wanting
superpower of oh that’s okay then
easing, up
ease up the jaw clenching and all forms of clench
effortless relaxed upright steady
at ease in my superpowers:
Feet On The Floor
Majestically Grounded, Sitting Tall, Tail Unfurling Gloriously Behind Me
I Get My Powers From The Ground
I Get My Powers From My Light
I Get My Powers From My Quiet Presence
what do I know about my wishes?
they are about letting clarity land
which often involves applying the protocol of Extreme Self Care
and always involves trusting:
this moment of [not-knowing] is okay
it is safe to be in the uncertainty
even when I don’t like it
hello, void
this is where the stars are born
the superpower of deep listening
last month was HARMONY, with the superpower of hearing the melody, and August is MUSE, with the superpower of Deep Listening, and that is exactly what I am doing
thank you, past-me, for being such a good namer and calling this into being
last week’s wishes
last-week-me wished a wish called New Adventures Await,
and last night I bought a one-way ticket to
Boise, Idaho
my life is a country song!
but I feel tingly-excited because
buying a one-way ticket is maybe my favorite thing
and my You-Are-Not-Adventurous monsters are looking at their feet sheepishly
so there
invitation: come play with me…
you are invited to share many !!!!!! about what is here,
or share appreciation or anything sparked for you while reading, including any stories you wish to let go of, any adventures you wish to welcome
deposit wishes, gwishes, superpowers, qualities, ingredients, intel, possibly in code
safe space for creative exploration asks us to let go of care-taking and advice-giving
wishes are never late because whenever you wish is the right time for wishing
here’s how we meet each other’s wishes: oh, wow what beautiful wishes
♡
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I was in Idaho once, and it was beautiful. Big big sky.
This week I had a problem pop up that scared me. My wish is for gentle and ease-filled resolution, and for the superpower of Grounded and Kind and Immune to Other People’s Stuff. <3
May it be so! What luscious superpowers. Amen to Immunity to Other People’s Stuff. <3
*smiles and sends gentle breezes towards your resolution, Kathleen*
I wish for chill. a feeling of cold. goosebumpy skin from a whoosh of a cool breeze. relaxation, ease, no stress. no pressure. no have-to, no must. calm. peace. less input.
I wish for the secret passages [proxy #1] and the shortcut [proxy #2] through the woods to reveal themselves to me.
I wish for this [new] round of proxy-play to be fun and for me to find fun in this stilly-mysterious toy of proxy.
I wish for the monsters to band together and throw a going away party for the iguanas and I wish for the iguanas to be happy to move along.
What beautiful wishes! May it be so. I feel sparks about secret passages and shortcuts.
I wish to hold onto my uncertainty, my unsettled feeling I’m facing a frontier of uncanny. Paradox.
may it be so <3
“hello void
this is where the stars are born”
<3 <3 <3
My wish today is for Alignment. And really, it's for the spaciousness and ease that opens up when [things] are aligned. Fluidity and power come from an aligned, grounded center. Deep, full breaths come with aligned posture, effortless structure and relaxation that opens up the space for expansion.
I tend to think of "aligning" activities as chores, but what if they are ease magnets? space creators? fractal magic spells of freedom and expansion?
Hmm, I may have just (finally) found my raison d'être for [all of the chores]. Hey, did I just accidentally metaphor-mouse my chores??? I think I did! Drudgery of chores no more! Behold – Alignment!!!
*All* of the [things-that-must-be-done-to-support-now-me-and-future-me] (e.g. cleaning, laundry, grocery shopping, exercise, etc.) – these are all Alignment, ways of creating ease and spaciousness and freedom and room for expansion (of breath, of light, of glow). Fractal magic spells, yes.
That is my wish. To take *that* perspective into all of these self-supporting, life-maintenance activities. I feel *so* much better when I do these things on a regular basis, let's try making the doing a ritual, rather than a struggle.
Alignment. Magical. Yes.
<3
Space creators! Stars aligning! <3
*hello, void … this is where the stars are born*
Mmmmmmm!
hello void, where stars are born!
So many wishes are landing, so there is clarity slowing dawning out of gloom. fractals becoming more evident.
For weeks i have been wondering where are the auditions and applications to burlesque shows? looking ot hte next step. and lo–2 burlesque shows AND a stage play audition notices came up in my feed and i signed up for an audition for a stage play. I am working on Next Steps in burlesque rather seamlessly. Pieces are falling into place. i’m fiding i have what i need. All i actually need, time and place to rehearse, which didnt happen tis week.
Thankyou for Alignment clues, Ravenstar. My wish is unclear but has something to do with Alignment, and it’s something about bridging the gap between the Knowledge I have about Attachment and the complete and utter mess I make whenever I become attached.
Again on Alignment, my wish is also something to do with how I am Grounded and Valued at work, yet I slip on Black Ice in my personal life, feeling ungrounded, unwanted, and devalued. Yet I know well the experience of being Grounded and Valued, so why do I struggle so much to integrate my Work Self with my Black Ice Elf?
I wish for Clarity and Alignment, both in the Healthiest Way Possible.
Mmmmmmmm one-way ticket!
I love to stand in a mainline railway station, preferably a terminus, and look at the departure boards and think of all the places I could go. Frankfurt was the best for this, I think, but it’s one of the best things about King’s Cross.
The qualities of this: freedom – possibility – independence – spontaneity – fun – adventure
The opposite of this, I have discovered, is getting a lift in a car. One is stuck in a box with a person to whom one has to be polite, and they may be angry, and one has no control over where or when one goes anywhere.
Less of that, please, and more of the wide departure boards.
<3
i wish to really, fully feel the music. i don't have the right words to describe it, but the moment when the rhytmic violins set in, i feel a surge of power and joy and fierceness. some might think it's nostalgic or sad, but no, actually, to me, it's strangely uplifting. i want to keep this in mind: i often see things in a different light and this is legitimate. so strangely uplifting it is. "this must be the place" is also a clue and i will chew on it for a bit…
<3!
Last week I had the Superpowers of My Tent Will Not Blow Away, Even a Little Bit, & also I Can Find the Portacastle Even When It Is Very, Very Dark. Plus the joy of finding a new home-away-from-home, with a wide selection of truly, spectacularly delightful people.
This week I wish for ease of recovery, slow joy in unpacking, exquisite self-care, & the Superpower of Wow Did I Get Through All That Laundry Very Quickly, Now I Am Going Back to Bed.