What's in the gallery?
We dissolve stuck and rewrite patterns. We apply radical playfulness to life (when we feel like it!), embarking on internal adventures (credo of Safety First). We have a fake band called Solved By Cake. We build invisible sanctuaries, invent words and worlds, breathe awe and wonder.
We are not impressed by monsters. Except when we are. We explore the connections between internal territories and surrounding environment to learn what marvelously supportive delicious space feels like, and how to take exquisite care of ourselves. We transform things.* We glow wild.**
* For example: Desire, fear, worry, pain-and-trauma, boundaries, that problematic word which rhymes with flaweductivity.
** Fair warning: Self-fluency has been known to lead to extremely subversive behavior, including treasuring yourself unconditionally, unapologetically taking up space, experiencing outrageously improbable levels of self-acceptance, and general rejoicing in aliveness.
What's in the gallery?
We dissolve stuck and rewrite patterns. We apply radical playfulness to life (when we feel like it!), embarking on internal adventures (credo of Safety First). We have a fake band called Solved By Cake. We build invisible sanctuaries, invent words and worlds, breathe awe and wonder.
We are not impressed by monsters. Except when we are. We explore the connections between internal territories and surrounding environment to learn what marvelously supportive delicious space feels like, and how to take exquisite care of ourselves. We transform things.* We glow wild.**
* For example: Desire, fear, worry, pain-and-trauma, boundaries, that problematic word which rhymes with flaweductivity.
** Fair warning: Self-fluency has been known to lead to extremely subversive behavior, including treasuring yourself unconditionally, unapologetically taking up space, experiencing outrageously improbable levels of self-acceptance, and general rejoicing in aliveness.
More ways to work on your patterns
Exacerbating your patterns or learning from them?
When I was teaching in Berlin last year, a series of bizarre and marvelous coincidences landed me a house-sitting gig in a gorgeous house in Steglitz, a quiet little neighborhood in the west side of the city. While I know east Berlin like the back of my hand, this part of town was completely new and unfamiliar for me.
To walk to the train station you had to cross a bridge, from which you could see for miles (okay, kilometers) around. If you turned your head to the left, you could determine easily whether or not your train was coming soon enough to warrant picking up the pace.
If you turned your head, that is. Which I could never remember to do in time. By the time I remembered, I would find myself already inside the train station, wondering how quickly to scamper down the stairs, having not the slightest idea whether the train was five minutes away or already about to pull into the station.
This may seem a rather small problem. First of all, as some of you already know, I am blessed with a bizarre form of transportation luck — I rarely have to wait for a train. Second, it’s Germany. Miss one train and it’s no big deal. Another one will show up exactly six minutes and thirty-seven seconds later, or whenever the sign says it will.
Still, it was getting a little ridiculous. I mean, I’m a patterns expert. I teach awareness techniques. And I’d developed a blind spot — literally — where one simple movement of the head could have saved me time, energy and potential aggravation.
Luckily I remembered in the nick of time that even a seemingly innocuous pattern follows the same rules as any other. In today’s “here’s a technique for working on your habits” bit, I’ll explain exactly what I did and talk a bit more about the practice of “learning from your pattern without judging yourself for having it”. Enjoy!
Technique: asking questions; planting clues
You’re a good habits detective, so you’re always asking questions. Even better, you won’t accept the seemingly obvious answers at face-value without doing some digging first.
Note: if you ask a question and the answer you get isn’t very nice, that’s probably your internal distress talking and not the real answer you are looking for. Bear in mind the words of my teacher in Tel Aviv who used to say, “everything that speaks against me is an illusion.” I’ll demonstrate how this works with sample “useful” and “non-useful” answers.
Useful question #1: What am I learning from this pattern?
Non-useful answer: “Um, clearly you’re an incompetent flake who never pays attention, it’s pathetic.”
Useful answer: “Okay, I’m noticing that I tune out when I’m walking. I’m very aware of inner thoughts, but not of my surroundings. I’m also recognizing some guilt around feeling like I “should” be able to be more aware of what’s going on around me.”
Useful question #2: What can I do to acknowledge the feelings that come up in response to this situation?
Non-useful answer: “Get over it already, &@*#.”
Useful answer: “I think I am feeling frustrated when I expect myself to be able to do something, and I’m not able to do it. It sounds like I could use some encouragement.”
Useful question #3: What can I do that can help me implement what I’ve learned, while giving myself what I need?
Non-useful answer: “You can stop talking to yourself, for one thing.”
Useful answer: “It seems like I could plant some ‘clues’ along the road to remind me to be in awareness. That big sign on the cafe starts with an ‘L’ — I can make a point of saying “LEFT!” every time I see it. I can hum a song with the word “LEFT” in it. I can make the whole trip to the train station be about awareness exercises, where I set my mind to noticing all sorts of details instead of defaulting into daydream mode. It could even be kind of fun. And even if it takes me a couple of times to look for the train, at least I’ll be practicing awareness — and getting better at motivating myself through encouragement too.”
Apply!
Where do you need to have these gentle reminders in your life? When you are lighting the cigarette or opening the refrigerator you are already “in the train station”. Where are the little openings within your default patterns where you can sneak in and remind yourself to pay attention, respond with kindness, and give yourself love?
Your mission
Get on the case and go undercover! Commit to the process by carrying a notebook with you everywhere to jot down your observations and realizations. Tur on all your senses of perception and start building a profile of your patterns. Remember that what seems obvious or trivial isn’t necessarily so.
Detective exercise for being in the process
Carry a notebook with you to jot down clues. What are two things you notice about yourself when you’re on the street? At work? While purchasing something? When you are helping someone? There are clues and messages everywhere! Get going!
Fill in the blank
“My life would be so much better if I could just ________________.”
Or maybe actually:
“My life would be so much better if I could just stop ________________.”
That’s a clue.
This is your brain on patterns
Here’s what science tells us about the brain: billions of neurons in a giant network, all capable of connecting and communicating with each other in their cool electrochemical way. In other words, unlimited possibilities.
There are unlimited ways that these points can interconnect and, by doing so, take you to new places. So many points to access your potential and do things you never believed possible. The brain is malleable and receptive to new patterns taking hold. Theoretically.
In reality though, even though you can stop doing things the way you’ve always done them, generally you don’t. And not just you. Everyone. Me too.
Why? Because it’s easier to slide back into the patterns you know. The familiarity feels safe and it doesn’t involve any work. Something triggers an emotional reaction and before you know it, there you are. When you follow the familiar, old way of thinking and doing, the grooves created by neurons bouncing along the same old paths get deeper and more ingrained. You default into the familiar place where everything seems to be against you or just going wrong. And it takes more effort to remind yourself to step onto a new path.
Say, you’re not a stranger in these parts, are you?
These default places feel comfortable but they are not your friends. On the other hand, while they are preventing you from grasping what is really going on, they are also not your enemies. Instead, think of them as sign posts in your mind. Every time you revert to your go-to emotional reaction, you’re getting a piece of information if you care to read the signs.
“Hey, whoah, here you are again.”
“Look familiar? Yup, you’ve been here before.”
“Want to be somewhere else instead? How ’bout heading thataway for a change?”
It’s easy to treat these familiar places (resentment, sadness, rage) like a refuge. It’s tempting to snuggle up and wrap yourself in your anger and fear to avoid doing something different. Or maybe it just seems like the only thing you know how to do is to keep fighting with yourself and the world, even if it’s keeping you stuck.
The road less traveled and a good way to get there (6 steps)
1. Acknowledge
“Okay, here I am.” No need to kick the signposts. It’s useful information to know where you are even if you don’t feel like being there. This is you being angry, hurt or frustrated.
2. Agree
“I’m allowed to feel whatever it is I’m feeling. Guess what? I’m human. I’m allowed to feel frustrated, angry and sad. It doesn’t say anything bad about me.” This is you letting yourself be angry, hurt or frustrated.
3. Take one step back
“I am ready to learn from what this feeling is telling me, without having to step inside it.”
This is you paying attention to your feelings.
4. Recognize a need
“It seems like this anger is trying to keep me safe. It’s a way of not feeling vulnerable.”
Or maybe: “It feels as though this sadness is a way to avoid asking for comfort.”
This is you learning from your pattern now that you have stepped away from it a little.
5. Meet the need (ask for something that fills it)
“Even though I’m used to taking refuge in anger or sadness to protect myself, I’d like to ask myself to find another way to give myself comfort (or protection or trust or support).”
This is you responding to an emotion rather than being the emotion. You are replacing the hurt around the need with the thing that can take care of the need.
6. Recognize the new place
“Every time I do something even slightly differently than before, I’m consciously and actively changing and tweaking the pattern.”
This is you giving yourself credit for being in the process — and noticing the results.
Patterns can trip you up or they can show you where to go
As my teacher Andrey Lappa likes to say, “There is good experience and there is useful experience.” Gradually you will shift your focus from what a pain it is to be stuck again to what you can learn from that stuck moment. Not by fighting with yourself, but by slowly, consciously talking yourself through this process so you can hop over and slide somewhere else. A little kindness is always a good thing too.
It takes some practice but it’s worth it. Here’s the thing: when you can interact with your patterns in a calm, intelligent and creative way, they no longer control you. You have choices. And direction. You get “light bulb moments” where everything clicks. You know what to do and you run with it. No doubt and no second-guessing yourself. And good things happen — every time.
When nothing seems to be working (crank up intuition!)
When you get that “green light feeling” about something and you run with it, good things happen. The rest of the time, however, you second-guess yourself until it’s second nature.
The best way to turn off the fog is to tune in to intuition. Intuition itself can sound like kind of a foggy thing, so let’s clear this up a little. By intuition I mean “useful information that only part of you is aware of”, and by tuning in I mean “if this stuff were made conscious you could actually be using your amazing gifts and talents, not to mention getting a heck of a lot more done.”
There are two parts to connecting to the hidden body of knowledge and inspiration that we call intuition.
Part of making friends with intuition is actually getting in touch with the parts of your brain and nervous system that are saying GO GO GO or STOP STOP STOP. The other part is learning when — and how — to trust those instincts.
And since we’ve been talking a lot recently about the second part (dissolving fear and releasing anxiety), I thought it would be fun to do some thinking around the other side: talking to the brain. When you speak the brain’s language, it speaks back. And sometimes it says some pretty neat things.
Keep in mind that the brain is a polyglot, speaking several languages, but its native tongue is waves.
The brain is designed to be on the lookout for waves in order to process information. Its job is basically to synch itself up to any waves in order to have clear communication. This is incidentally why it’s never a good idea to listen to discordant music — when your brain tries to synch up and can’t, the resulting confusion causes pain and distress.
Quiet the mind, talk to the brain
It’s practically a cliche to tell someone to stop and breathe in a stressful situation. But there’s a reason it works. Breath occurs in waves which the brain then “reads” and synchronizes itself to. The more smooth and steady the waves of the breath, the more quiet and peaceful the brainwaves. Once the brain is sending out this kind of calm messaging to the rest of your system, you automatically de-stress.
Meditation often gets shoved into a “wacky spirit stuff” compartment as a purely mystical endeavor. However, on another level, it’s really just about taking the time to synch the brainwaves to breath-waves, so that the brain can quiet down enough to begin communicating subconscious information.
Another useful way to use wave movement to communicate with the brain is manipulating the organs of the body into wave and spiral flows. This is the smart basis of many yoga and martial art movement systems, and especially true for Shiva Nata which uses complex patterns to create new neural connections in the brain, helping you access hidden information and abilities.
And if you are in the San Francisco Bay Area , I’m leading a workshop this weekend on how to use the body and brain simultaneously to power up your intuitive abilities. (This is not to be missed and will not be repeated.)
And if you don’t have the opportunity to take this live class, take a minute now to synch up brain and breath. Instead of just vacuously counting to ten, or guilting yourself into sitting down for a forced meditation, just allow your inhale and your exhale to gently even out. (Counting four in and four out is usually a good place to start).
See if you can imagine the gentle curve of the wave on a diagram, and your brainwaves matching themselves up to these new shapes. Maybe you can hear the quiet, comforting whooshing of water flow as waves wash in and out of your consciousness. Or maybe you can feel the soft push and pull of movement as the brain and breath are linking up, hand in hand. Ask yourself what you need to know. Say yes to the possibility of receiving new information; recognize that you have options you hadn’t counted on. And then give those planted seeds time to grow, and return to your day with this quiet, comfortable headspace.
You’ll know when the brain is speaking to you because it will be whispering sweet waves of encouragement and motivation. And until then, keep consciously connecting to the huge untapped power of your mind by using wave-speak to your advantage, and being open to your own potential. Say yes and breathe. And give your duck a hug!
Five ways to find the right teacher/coach/expert
As you may have noticed …. there are a gazillion experts out there today, each of whom apparently know all the answers and are more than happy to sell them to you.
When it comes to choosing the people you want to learn from and study with, whether in the real or the virtual world, (or: “on or off the mat” as we like to say in the yoga world), you gotta choose pretty carefully.
Since this is something I get asked about a lot … I’ve done some thinking around this and have narrowed my experience down to some basic guidelines. Just to help you separate the wheat from the chaff and get a little more focused on finding those people who are really going to be the right teachers for you.
Because I’m a tree-hugging dirt-worshipper, I have also included five yoga ways to choose a teacher and a mini practice session that gives you a way to apply these five yoga concepts. If you think it’s lame, skip that part.
The five questions you want to ask
1. Do they exist?
No, I’m not asking a philosophical question. I mean, do they exist as far as the search engine gods are concerned. Are they Google-able? Obviously this isn’t going to be relevant if your new teacher is a recluse in a cave, but in general it is easy to research people and rarely done.
“Maybe not”
One of my students recently told me about a marketing weekend designed for practitioners in the holistic /alternative healing professions. This is honorable work and a growing field and they must have realized, “hey, there are a ton of people who want to help others and don’t know or don’t want to know how to market themselves”.
I looked the instructors up and they were nowhere to be found except on a two self-designed pages where they were promoting themselves. I’m willing to give them the benefit of the doubt and assume that they have been collecting information and now just want to get out there and share it. But why would I want to study marketing from someone who hasn’t done an adequate job for him- or herself yet?
“Absolutely”
Paul Grilley is a bright, capable and knowledgeable yoga teacher. You can learn this from his book, his articles, his DVDs, his students or by doing a twenty second search on the internet. Everywhere you look you’ll find information that will confirm or reconfirm your impression of him as someone who knows of what he speaks.
2. Do they walk the talk?
Or better said: do they walk the talk that you like to hear?
“Maybe not”
Lately I keep hearing about yoga teachers who bill themselves as yoga teacher / performance artist / choreographer / dancer. Or some other combination. Use your imagination.
I would seriously doubt the professional focus of a plumber who advertised himself as a plumber / tap dancer / architect. I’m also not necessarily interested in getting financial advice from an accountant / mime / beekeeper.
Note: if you are an accountant/mime/beekeeper I do want to have tea with you. That sounds like an adventure. I’m buying.
While I totally understand remember how hard it is to make a living teaching yoga, and understand that many teachers take on other work to sustain themselves, this is a separate issue.
At this point in my yoga life I’m interested in learning from someone who lives yoga. To me this means that no matter what you do to pay the bills, your primary focus is directed inward to a life of quiet introspection. I want to study yoga with someone who has already let go of the need to shock, to be applauded and to impress.
Obviously, your standards don’t have to match mine: the point is that you want to find someone who a. knows what they’re doing and b. who stands by a personal philosophy that meshes well with your own.
“Absolutely”
Alon Sagee, the Yoga Business Coach donates ten percent of what he earns to karma causes. This is a perfect example of living what you teach. Without ever meeting him you know that his professional life mirrors his beliefs and that he puts his own teachings into practice.
3. Who says?
Unfortunately it’s not just about what people say, but who says it and how. Testimonials and recommendations are great, but only if you can trust them.
“Maybe not”
Recently I decided to try out a new web-based software and asked my assistant to investigate. Among other things, she checked up on the people who had left glowing testimonials on the company website. It turned out that these recommendations were given by people weren’t using the system and just lending their name as a favor to a friend. Hmmmm.
The flip side of this is the sort of people and products that these experts recommend. I adore Marcia Wieder, her personable approach and her high commitment to integrity, but she occasionally recommends the work of coaches who belong in my own personal “blatant examples of what not to do” file. And even though I still really, really like her, she’s ended up gradually falling off my list of people I listen to — guilt by subconscious association.
“Absolutely”
Andrey Lappa is not only my intellectual mentor, he’s the smartest yogi I’ve ever met. When he recommends a book, a teacher or an idea, I know he’s spent time and energy working with their material. When you have someone you can trust, it’s a great start.
4. Do they “meet you where you are”?
This is probably one of the most important things to look out for.
“Maybe not”
A teacher or an expert who starts off with force-feeding you their assumptions or philosophy, isn’t acknowledging your mindset, your inclinations or your capacity for change. It’s great that they want to help you, but they can’t help if their one-sided presentation is exacerbating your internal resistance.
For example, it’s common for many coaches and abundance experts to inform you pointblank that you are “creating your own reality”, this assumes that you are comfortable with a certain philosophical position — or should be. Many people really resonate with this concept but I would guess that there are just as many people for whom this concept brings up instantaneous resistance. Find a teacher who can work with you from your starting point: how you feel about things now.
People constantly come to me wanting to “get rid of” their habits. Even though I actually teach how to let go of, resolve and replace habits in a non-violent way, I know that it isn’t useful or helpful for me to begin by telling people that their habits can also be teachers. Instead my focus shifts to what is true for the individual person in this particular moment and we start from there.
“Absolutely”
Bari Tessler and her colleagues at Conscious Bookkeeping don’t just help people deal with their issues around money. They do it without an agenda of their own. Instead of convincing you to have the “right” relationship with money, they are willing to do the work to figure out where you are, and what you would like to change. Their tools and techniques can train you to build a positive and happy relationship with money, but they aren’t going to lecture you on what to think and how to live. This level of respect is what happens when someone is willing to meet you where you are.
5. Do they really know their stuff?
Or are they barely one step ahead of you?
“Maybe not”
There is a growing trend in the personal and business coaching worlds towards what I call the failure experts. These are the ones who cheerfully proclaim “I did everything wrong and learned the hard way so now you can learn from my mistakes”.
I went to a marketing class at the San Francisco Small Business Association led by a woman who had four home businesses go down the tubes and had just started her fifth: teaching people how to market themselves. Do I appreciate her positive attitude and desire to help people avoid her own errors? Hell yeah. But when it comes down to it, I really want to learn from someone who knows more than I do on the subject at hand, and feel secure that this knowing comes from at least a few years of “getting it right”.
Are they offering “little known secrets” if you buy their product or are they giving you advice that’s on the mark right now? Lots of people will hint at the information that you’ll get once you sign on forever. The ones you want to study with are those who have enough intellectual property and are comfortable enough in it that they can joyfully give you some help to start with.
“Absolutely”
Joan Stewart, the Publicity Hound, gives useful PR and marketing information every week in her free newsletter. And when I say useful I mean that I use it. All the time. I don’t necessarily agree with everything she says and her style is way more aggressive than mine, but I certainly respect her enormous expertise. She is completely at home with her material and is constantly giving away information and encouragement.
The Yoga Model
How can you use your body/mind to help you out with the quest for the right teacher? Some tips:
On the physical level
If you can generally trust your body, go with it and use it as a guide. Pay attention to the physical sensations that come up (tension, excitement, etc) and try to distinguish between sensations that are a reaction to the subject matter and those which react to the teacher or the specific material.
On the energy level
One energy technique is to align your needs with your intention. For this you can use affirmations, “even though” language or words combined with acupressure techniques such as with EFT or TAT. An example of affirmative speech might be: “I’m ready and willing to find the right teacher for me” or “Even though I’m not sure if I’m ready, I choose to feel safe thinking that the right person is coming my way. All I need to know will be revealed to me.”Use energy techniques only if this is something you’re comfortable with. Don’t force it.
On the emotional level
How do you feel? Even if you don’t have a gut instinct one way or the other about a potential teacher, how does the material make you feel? Use “even though” language and NVC to talk yourself through these feelings and get clear on what you want and need.
On the mental level
Use your brain. Remember my assistant checking up on testimonials? Research! Ask! Communicate!
Write down potential pros and cons of working with someone and evaluate your doubts: are they based in the body, in a “sense”, an “emotion” or “opinion” or maybe an intuitive knowing? And which of these “sensory locations” or areas of information do you instinctively trust? Where are your patterns?
On the awareness level
Meditation is great because it clears your mind, calms your senses and can give you unexpected answers. Ask yourself: What do I want? What do I need? Is this right? Listen for an answer from your inner teacher. And if you don’t get any information out of it, at the very least you have given yourself the gift of quiet time with yourself. All the answers you need can come from this space when you are ready to receive them.
Multi-directional work: a 5-in-1 exercise
You can also combine techniques from the different levels in a ceremony or ritual. Multi-directional work is always more powerful than working on an individual level. Here is one example, presented in 7 steps.
1. Atmosphere (energy level)
Choose a time (at least 30 minutes to an hour) to work on this alone. Mark out your space. Light a candle or some incense. Have a blank pad of paper and something to write with.
2. Preparation (mental)
Write down the ideal qualities you are looking for in a teacher, educator, advisor or expert, whether in the virtual world or right where you are. Which of these qualities, if any, do you share?
3. Preparation (emotional)
Work out any resistance you might have to the process or to the result. Cover your eyes with the palms of your hands, breathe deeply and talk yourself through using “even though” language.
Example: “Even though this feels kind of stupid and I’m not sure it could have any effect in real life and I have a lot of resistance, I am allowed to have resistance, I know that it couldn’t hurt to try something new and I’m ready to learn some things about myself and the way I learn. Even though part of me is worried that I may never find the right person, I know that I’m allowed to worry right now and I know that all the knowledge I need is inside of me. I’m getting better at working on letting it come through. I’m getting better at asking for help. I’m getting better at receiving help.”
4. Scripting (energy/emotional/mental)
Write a description of your ideal teacher again, this time in the form of a journal entry or a letter to a friend about how exciting, rewarding and joyful it feels to have finally found the right person. Describe in detail your feelings, the benefits of having found this person and what this interaction is giving you. Experience the rewards.
5. Alignment (energy)
Focus on the common qualities you share with your ideal teacher. Recognize that in some ways you are one and the same. You have complimentary needs, goals and maybe even abilities. You are already in a state of exchange. Focus on the qualities you wish you had. Ask for them.
6. Pose (physical)
Sit in balasana (child’s pose) or any other pose where you feel safe and supported. Breathe comfortably and release tension in the body. Say to yourself: “I am safe and supported here. In the right moment the right teacher will come.”
7. Meditation/ritual (awareness)
Get comfortable. If you’d like, support yourself by propping a pillow between your lower back and the wall. Fold your hands in your lap or place them on your legs. Close your eyes. Ask yourself: “What do I need to know?”
Get quiet, breathe and enjoy the stillness. At the end of your meditation repeat three times: “I am ready”.
I am ready. I am ready. I am ready.
Important scary question
Sooo . . . do YOU love your body?
One of the things I love best about teaching is the questions. I like the moment of anticipation. I like figuring out what people need to know, what confuses them and excites them. And I love the process of picking through my brain to come up with the most useful, concise and true formulation of information to give an answer that is useful but also provokes at least twenty more questions.
There is one question, though, or type of question, that I’m always waiting to be asked. And it never comes.
I lead workshops and courses on dissolving procrastination and no one ever wants to know if I procrastinate.
I’ve taught programs on how to love your body and no one ever asks me if I love my body.
I work with clients on how to resolve habits and no one ever wonders if I have resolved my own.
If I were going to sign up for a program on any of these topics — in fact, before I would be willing to take part in a program on any of these topics — you can bet that my very first question to the instructor would be “Do you procrastinate? Do you love your body? Have you resolved your habits?”
And a very specific type of answer would have to be given in order to satisfy me.
“Yes, I procrastinate” or “No, I don’t love my body” are clearly the wrong answers. Why would I want to learn how to stop procrastinating from someone who still does it herself? Why learn to love my body from someone who can’t love his own?
“No, I never procrastinate” and “Of course I love my body” are also no good. Why would I want to learn from someone who doesn’t personally understand my issues, my concerns and my pain?
The only answer that would satisfy me would be either, “I used to have this issue, but using X, Y and Z techniques I resolved it” or “I still have my moments occasionally, but I also know now how to recognize what’s going on and give myself the support and help I need to pull out of this moment and get centered again”.
In other words, someone who on the one hand is enormously capable and who on the other hand is willing to be imperfect. Someone with knowledge and skill who can be at home in his or her imperfection without being self-satisfied about it. That’s the person I like to learn from and this is the person I try to be.