What's in the gallery?

We dissolve stuck and rewrite patterns. We apply radical playfulness to life (when we feel like it!), embarking on internal adventures (credo of Safety First). We have a fake band called Solved By Cake. We build invisible sanctuaries, invent words and worlds, breathe awe and wonder.

We are not impressed by monsters. Except when we are. We explore the connections between internal territories and surrounding environment to learn what marvelously supportive delicious space feels like, and how to take exquisite care of ourselves. We transform things.* We glow wild.**

* For example: Desire, fear, worry, pain-and-trauma, boundaries, that problematic word which rhymes with flaweductivity.

** Fair warning: Self-fluency has been known to lead to extremely subversive behavior, including treasuring yourself unconditionally, unapologetically taking up space, experiencing outrageously improbable levels of self-acceptance, and general rejoicing in aliveness.

What's in the gallery?

We dissolve stuck and rewrite patterns. We apply radical playfulness to life (when we feel like it!), embarking on internal adventures (credo of Safety First). We have a fake band called Solved By Cake. We build invisible sanctuaries, invent words and worlds, breathe awe and wonder.

We are not impressed by monsters. Except when we are. We explore the connections between internal territories and surrounding environment to learn what marvelously supportive delicious space feels like, and how to take exquisite care of ourselves. We transform things.* We glow wild.**

* For example: Desire, fear, worry, pain-and-trauma, boundaries, that problematic word which rhymes with flaweductivity.

** Fair warning: Self-fluency has been known to lead to extremely subversive behavior, including treasuring yourself unconditionally, unapologetically taking up space, experiencing outrageously improbable levels of self-acceptance, and general rejoicing in aliveness.

Very Personal Ads #65: avoidance mouse has his reasons

very personal adsPersonal ads. They’re … personal! Very.

So my itty bitty personal ads made me realize that it’s time to make a regular practice of trying to feel okay asking for stuff.

Even when the asking thing feels weird and conflicted.

Ever since I posted the first one asking my perfect house to find me, which united me with Hoppy House, I have been a fan of the madness that is personal ads.

And now it’s my Sunday ritual for clarity and remembering and stuff like that. Yay, ritual!

Let us dooo eeeet.

Thing 1: to find the organization that needs our refrigerator.

Here’s what I want:

Hoppy House has a GIGANTIC (also gleaming and beautiful) refrigerator that is much more bad-ass than we need. You might remember that I asked — several Very Personal Ads ago — for help finding a small, energy-efficient refrigerator.

And find it we did. But we need to move out the current one to make space for it.

So I’m happy to not sell it, and let it go to an organization who needs it — as long as they can physically take care of moving it.

Ways this could work:

  • I could ask Hope, my realtor friend who helped us get the Playground, if she knows a good place to contact.
  • Maybe some other friends are familiar with organizations — possibly a women’s shelter? — that could use these and has people who can do the moving.
  • Maybe some of my readers can make recommendations.

My commitment.

To wish happiness to whoever ends up using this beautiful peace of equipment.

To appreciate the symbolic bits in this transition — to recognize what it means to downsize in a way that isn’t about less good, but about more good.

Thing 2: Projectizing!

Here’s what I want:

Oh boy. I have two small missions that really, really need some love and attention from me.

Also, they are extremely time-sensitive. And I care about them a lot, which is probably why I’m avoiding them.

So they need time, and as soon as possible. Today, really. That would be good.

Ways this could work:

I can process the process and write about why the stuck.

Dance of Shiva on it for some hot, buttered epiphanies.

Go to the Playground.

Ask smart questions.

My commitment.

To stay curious, without being judgmental.

To be patient, without pushing.

To find out what I need in order to do this.

Thing 3: More time with my body.

Here’s what I want:

This is a follow-up to an ask from a few weeks ago.

I want to be spending more time hanging out with my body.

And I want this to be active time. Not active as in doing something active. It doesn’t have to be high-paced aerobic anything. Unless I feel like it.

But active in the sense that I am present and here, as opposed to a more casual, passive way of being with my body.

Ways this could work:

Time to just breathe.

Be in water. Be near water. Walk. Move.

Take a class.

And, of course, more shivanautical escapades.

My commitment.

To pay attention and notice where this gets stuck or feels painful.

To give it time.

To find out what I’m trying not to encounter.

To remember that my absolute biggest priority in all of this is safety. Does this feel safe?

No forcing. No violence. No guilt. Just love.

Thing 4: Rally!

Here’s what I want:

Our lovely Rally (Rally!) is filling up with the most amazing people. Fun!

I still have not rewritten the page, though I made some small edits and it is considerably prettier.

Anyway, while I’m figuring out what I want to say, it would be lovely to say hello to the next batch of Rally-ites.

Who’s coming?

Ways this could work:

I can finish writing the page.

And I can remind you that it exists: the page about how great it is to rally (rally!).

I can go to the Playground and wear costumes and play.

My commitment.

To buy gorgeous presents for the Playground and for everyone coming to the Rally.

To write love letters.

To skip around the room.

Progress report on past Very Personal Ads.

Just to update you on what’s happened since last time.

I asked for a new Tech Pirate for our pirate ship, and we got a ton of people wanting the job. THANK YOU!

We (the First Mate and I) are still in the process of decision-making on that, and we really appreciate how many amazing people want to help us out. What an amazing thing.

My second ask was about trust, and that was kind of the theme of the week, as it turned out. Movement! So. Not done with this one, but the progress has been big and surprising.

The third thing was to finally put up a Facebook page for The Fluent Self, Inc and our pirate ship.

But it was really to stop being so stuckified about how I didn’t want to do it.

And then Kelly and Jacquelyn and Maryann gave me so much support with this. And reminded me to use Metaphor Mouse.

And now we have a Facebook page that is a secret bar.

Which is fabulous. It’s still totally a work in progress but you can come hang out with us there –> http://facebook.com/TheFluentSelf

Thanks, guys.

Comment zen. Here’s what I’d love today.

  • Your own personal ads, small or large. Things you’ve asked for. Or are asking for. Or would like to ask for. Or updates on last time!

What I’d rather not have:

  • The word “manifest”.
  • To be told how I should be asking for things.
  • To be judged, psychoanalyzed or given advices.

Wishing love and good things for your Very Personal Ads! So glad for everyone doing this with me.

Friday Chicken #112: yes, that’s right. A cucumber.

Friday chickenBecause it’s Friday AGAIN. And because traditions are important. In which I cover the good stuff and the hard stuff in my week, trying for the non-preachy, non-annoying side of self-reflection.

And you get to join in if you feel like it.

The hard stuff

Headache.

You know that horrid phrase about eyes being bigger than stomach?

I keep being convinced I can get more done than I actually can.

And then getting overwhelmed.

Also, what made me think that scheduling teleclasses four days in a row would be a good idea? I have no idea.

Tired tired tired.

All I want to do is the sleep.

This does not happen to be especially good for the aforementioned getting done of things.

The iguanas. They are multiplying.

Iguanas. They’re everywhere.

Oh, I’m hilarious. Except not at all.

Really. Is there anything more embarrassing than being an hour late to a teleclass?

Yes, there is. If it’s a class on the topic of SYSTEMS. And a class that you’re hosting.

Luckily, Mark Silver is a genius and a sweetheart and a seasoned professional, and totally rolled with it and taught what was — I’m sure — a completely brilliant class.

And I got to be on the tail end of it to hear some good stuff.

But yeah. Um. I don’t have anything more to say about that.

Other than yes, I am happy to take one for the team and demonstrate what it looks like when systems have a hole. Look! Mine do! Mine do!

My favorite dress has died a tragic death.

Did that not just happen to my favorite pants as well? Yes.

Clearly this is a sign that I have to stop wearing the same thing every single day.

Or that it’s time to change my look.

Or that there is no sign but everything is slightly worse than it was before.

Endings.

My gentleman friend and I do not see eye to eye on the topic delayed gratification.

So we ended up watching the (sniff) final two episodes of Life, the beautiful, beautiful show that I wanted never to end.

Because, as he pointed out, there’s no point in saving your favorite treat to eat last if you’re just going to keep it in the freezer for the next twenty years.

And yeah, he’s right. And of course I’d already put this off for four months. But oh how I did not want it to end.

And even though I know it already has ended, somehow not seeing the ending made everything more bearable.

There is so much pain in things being over sometimes. Luckily, this gave me a topic for my habits detective-themed bohemian salon. So. Silver linings. But I still feel sad.

Stupid teabags.

You know those teabags that talk to you and give you advice and tell you to radiate kindness or whatever?

“Whether you give or share, are kind or not, never let your grace fall” — the teabag.

Somehow that completely got on my nerves. WTF, teabag? That MAKES NO SENSE.
  
*sings* This is nonsensical tea! It makes no sense to me!

Though bonus points to @zenatplay for responding thusly: “Teabags are notoriously vague and nonsensical. Bourbon would never say such a thing.” So true.

The good stuff

Ketchup!

Oh, finally.

So much catching up happened this week.

I’d been stuck in the middle of this four part series on “what to do when no one is buying your stuff” that I’m putting up at the Kitchen Table.

And so I — finally — finished that and answered a bunch of questions and generally feel better about everything.

Another giant iguana de-piling.

Remember when I deconstructed a giant pile of iguanas and doom?

Well, another one showed up and has been taunting me. Or haunting me. Possibly both. Anyway, the comfort and the win:

In the two hours I set aside for preliminary de-piling, somehow I was actually able to disappear most of the pile itself. Almost all of it.

And then I had a shivanautical epiphany that allowed me to realize what was creating the piling to begin with. So I’m kind of also hoping that this is my last big pile like this.

But even if it isn’t. Yay for now. Sparklepoints!

Putting up the sukkah!

Well, watching my gentleman friend put up the sukkah, while making admiring sounds from a distance.

Some people just look really good on top of ladders, is all I’m saying.

Anyway, we have a sukkah! The first ever Hoppy House sukkah! And I think also the first ever time I’m not teaching in Germany during sukkot in years.

See also: this excellent contest that describes the guidelines for sukkah-building.

Presents!

Actually, we get presents all the time.

Mostly for the Playground. Often for Selma. Even, on occasion, for me.

But this week was full of marvelous ones.

Is there anything better than a present box? Yes! A present box that says on it: “I am a present box! All stripey and full of presents! Yay for my existence.”

Thank you, Taylor. You are the best sender of boxes.

And then we got a box full of gorgeous handmade hats for the Playground — from Julie. Hooray!

And also a fairy door. Who doesn’t need a fairy door? I know.

Um, speaking of presents.

Of all the interesting — and even bizarre — gifts that people send?

So far THIS package received this week wins for weirdest. Possibly ever! It contained:

  • A giant bag of peanuts.
  • Within the first giant bag of peanuts: another — smaller — bag of peanuts.
  • A cucumber.
  • Two packets of Hollandaise sauce mix.
  • Two pieces of green cloth, one solid and one print.
  • A marionette … camel. With a ring tied to it.

Clearly I’m being proposed to by the most interesting person on earth. Or I am totally misreading this. Who cares? Yes! Yes! A thousand times yes!

Or maybe not. I don’t know. You’ll have to explain the cucumber first.

Hey, a non-depressing week in the world of sports.

For a change.

Did you see the Giants take the Dodgers TEN to TWO? It was amazing. Well, I didn’t see it. I listened to it, because we don’t have a television. But it was still amazing. And then I watched clips.

Man, being that happy kind of hurts. I’m so used to the torture, I don’t even know how to take this whole “winning” thing.

Then, in case you follow Berlin soccer, which you probably don’t (I don’t even think my German readers do?), in a spectacular upset which made everything better: FC Union didn’t lose to Hertha. Ohmygod.

Then they went on to lose to pretty much every team in the country, but we’re not going to talk about that.

Also Colleen was here.

Yay! We played at the Playground.

And I finally destuckified a stuck.

More about that on Sunday.

But I am mostly over my weird impossible stucknesses about having a Facebook page for The Fluent Self, Inc. (pirate ship at large!).

It’s here: http://facebook.com/TheFluentSelf

It will be our secret bar. Details to come. In the meantime, stop by and have a drink.

And tonight … dinner with Denise. It’s happening!

Remember how a few weeks ago I put out a Very Personal Ad for the right dining room table? And promised that once we had one, we’d celebrate by inviting Denise over to dinner?

Well. I found the table. But it was crazy expensive. So I VPA-ed (in my head) for an interim table that would be beautiful and functional and could then move into my office once the table-of-my-heart is a more reasonable thing.

Found it! Ridiculously affordable. Completely right. Very attractive.

The dining room can now be dined in. As can the sukkah. See? Options. Everywhere. This is good for me, since I often have difficulty seeing options anywhere. Options!

And … playing live at the meme beach house it’s the Fake Band of the Week!

My brother and I have this thing where we come up with ridiculous band names and then say in this really pretentious, knowing tone, “Oh, well, you know, it’s just one guy.”

This week’s FBOTW is brought to you by Sheridan (hi, Sheridan!).

He says:

Today at work I am judging a cupcake baking contest. As a result?people have been sneakily transporting cupcakes around me all morning?(the judging is anonymous). For some reason my brain segued this into?a band name:

The Stealth Cupcakes.

Of course, it’s really just one guy.
I adore this. And yes, I am totally buying the new Stealth Cupcakes album.

And wonderful things this week.

Colleen’s piece on emptying out her life (“My stuff saved me for a long time, so I saved it right back.”)

And Rupa on why it’s good to be bad.

That’s it for me …

And yes yes yes, of course you can join in my Friday ritual right here in the comments bit if you feel like it.

Yeah? Anything hard and/or good happen in your week?

And, as always, have a glorrrrrrrrrrrrious day and a restful weekend-ing.

And a happy week to come. Shabbat shalom. And chag sameach. Happy week of gourds.

p.s. The Rally (Rally!) is filling up. If you can swing it, get in before I rewrite the copy to explain why it’s so fabulous.

Ask Havi #32: Green monsters. Dealing with envy.

Ask HaviNote: it is almost impossible to get on the Ask Havi list. Though of course you can keep sending scarves for Selma. She loves them.

Yay. First dinner in the sukkah last night! Please note that I did NOT get eaten by moths/bears nor do I have sauce on my dress. Calling this a total success.

Breakfast out there, though? Somewhat less romantic.

Okay. On to the monsters.

The topic. It is a big one.

A lot of stuff coming up lately in the programs I teach. Related to feeling uncomfortable when other people are successful. Or appear to be heading that way.

Some of these questions are about what you can do when you’re feeling anxious because you’re intimidated by other people’s success.

Some are more about jealousy. Or the more existential I’m not good enough crisis.

Anyway. I have way too much to say about all of this, even without trying to define the elusive thing we call “success” or venturing into Imposter Syndrome territory. So this might have to be a series.

But today it’s envy. And what to do when it shows up. And even if envy is not your issue, you can apply some of this to other situations as well.

Legitimacy. Again!

I know. We always start here. But only because it’s such a good place to start.

When you encounter other people doing their thing and shining at it, sometimes you get reminded of the ways you want to feel radiant and appreciated and acknowledged. You see everything that seems to be missing.

And it’s unbelievably painful. It’s also REALLY NORMAL.

I have these moments too. So do the most fabulously self-aware people that I admire.

Feeling envy is a normal and perfectly acceptable part of being alive. We don’t want to have to stay there, because the staying there is not fun and it doesn’t help.

But discovering that you’ve landed there? Not a big deal.

The next piece.

If legitimizing being where we are is the first step, the second step is releasing as much guilt as we can stand about the fact that yes, we are still there even though we don’t want to be there.

Luckily, it’s the acknowledging and the legitimacy that eases the guilt.

If it’s natural and normal that I would feel envy sometimes, then maybe I’m not a despicably horrible person for not being able to stop feeling it yet.

This is where I forgive myself if I can. And if I can’t, I can’t.

The art of releasing guilt needs another sixteen hundred blog posts. But I’d start with something like this:

“Even though I really don’t like feeling this way, I am allowed to have envy. It’s not the end of the world. I’m not an awful person. It’s a temporary thing, and I’m learning about it so I can move through it.”

Then it’s about shifting focus.

One of my wisest teachers used to say (she probably still does):

Build your own tower instead of knocking theirs down.

There are enough people in the world who take pleasure from trying to sabotage each other’s towers. We’re not going to do that.

So the new point of focus becomes:

  • What do I need to do to strengthen, support, encourage and love my own thing?
  • What do I need? What does my project need? What can I do so that I feel safe, supported, comfortable and loved?

Normally I wouldn’t ask these out loud, because they can be used as what I call “inspirational harassment”. Like the well-meaning motivational things people sometimes post on Twitter (“What are YOU going to do today to blah blah blah?”).

But in your own head … these can be really useful questions. And if not, don’t use them. Make up better ones.

The point is: we’re shifting our focus from “Aaaaaagh they have what I want!” to discovering what options we have: “What can I do to build my own thing?”

You can use Metaphor Mouse for this!

One of my clients recently noticed that she was trying to pull herself out of envy mode by saying, “Okay, I’m going to run my own race”.

But that was not fun.

Because running a race — for her — included elements like [+ sweaty] [+ exhausted] [+ miserable] [+ competitive] [+ can’t stop] [+ resentful] [+ no purpose] and [+ despair].

So we used Metaphor Mouse to deconstruct running my own race, and came up with exploring my new city instead.

Now working on her own thing has the qualities of [+ fun] [+ curiosity] [+ I can take my time] [+ resting] [+ discovery] [+ homebase] [+ joy] [+ appreciation] [+ hidden mystery] and [+ sweetness]. And she’s not obsessing over where everyone else is going.

Your metaphor mileage may vary, but I bet there’s something good in there.

The advanced practice.

When it’s possible, we work with it. When it brings up too much stuck, we drop it.

But here’s the concept. With bonus cliches!

“A rising tide lifts all boats.”

It’s true. The fame and fortune of the person you’re currently envying often as not ends up being useful for you.

I can feel envious of Jen Louden’s brilliant books. Or I can celebrate with her because I love her, and remind any small scared selves that Jen is awesome and is totally going to write the best blurb ever on OUR brilliant book.

Her glow adds to mine. My glow adds to hers. It’s good for everyone.

And if there’s interest in someone else who shares your message, then there’s going to be interest in your version, too.

Of course, we’re all human.

Even on my best days, when I can happily rejoice in the good fortune of people I admire and care about (whoo! advanced practice!), I’m still human.

So I’m not necessarily always capable of being truly happy for someone whose message I don’t like when it receives attention and praise.

But that’s okay.

You don’t have to be all joyous and fake confetti-throwing if you don’t feel like it.

You can still go back to building your own tower, though. And reminding yourself that there is room for you too.

Because what it comes down to is this:

It’s worth finding out what you’re really scared of.

That there might not be room for you? That you have endless possibilities? That what you have to say isn’t important? Or worse, that it is?

Those are the sad, scared selves and/or the fuzzy monsters worth having some conversations with.

And in the meantime, we get to work on our stuff. And do some tower-maintenance. And wear our crowns and our costumes and dance the patterns and not be so hard on ourselves. Or at least try.

Comment zen for today.

We all have our stuff. We’re all working on our stuff.

People vary. So use what you can and discard the rest. Try things.

And my wish for you is this:

May your tiny, sweet thing receive all the love and support it needs. And may you break all the rules, do some damage, laugh your head off and dance, dance, dance!

Rally the 2nd. Who let the iguanas out?

I miss the world of Rally (Rally!)

If you do not know what a Rally is, this is the idea that gave birth to the Rally.

It is a word — and concept — worthy of being enthusiastically exclaimed. And repeated. Rally!

Here is what I’m missing.

Everything that happened here at Sally the Rally the 1st.

Oh, the feather boas and the dancing around and the hilarity and the drinking of tea.

But mainly the massive getting done of stuff needing to be done.

Because the point of the Projectizing Rally is ridiculous amounts of done.

And not the done that emerges from guilt, stress or panic. It’s the doing that comes from feeling grounded, supported, excited, curious and inspired.

And zippy! Not forced zippiness, though. The kind of zip that shows up when you’re in the right place or wearing the right costume.

Aside from getting crazy amounts of stuff done:

It’s about the good parts of isolation: quiet, spaciousness, purpose, intention, clarity.

But without having to be in isolation, which, as Barbara so wisely says, is the dreamkiller.

The good parts of community: collaboration, shared goals, the power of a group.

But without having to be in the group, because you get your own time and do your own thing.

Anyway, I really, really want to be rallying again. Rally! Okay. I’m a little obsessed.

So I made up a list.

Of everything I’m working on that could really use a Rally right about now.

It is long.

The top two things, though, are these:

  1. Create a DIY Rally Kit-like-thing: so you guys will have the provisions and skills to rig your own Rally (Rally!), even when you can’t be with us at the Playground.
  2. Editing my 2011 and 2012 (tentative) schedules, based on needs and numbers.

Needs meaning everything that’s in the book of me. And numbers not necessarily being financial numbers. Just, you know, numbers.

Like this: I spend 45 minutes preparing for each client call, and another 20 minutes clearing out after. Or this: we spend a few thousand dollars a year on postage.

Anyway, numbers. I need to do some processing. Plus it’s been almost a year since I’ve had a round of giant sweeping changes in the business. Now seems good.

Here’s how this is going to work.

I’m going to make crazy progress on both of these at the next Rally. In the meantime, I’ll meditate on which of these gets rallied first. Or possibly flip a coin.

Either way, there is going to be a Rally and it is going to be fabulous.

Here are the dates:

Monday, October 11 at 5pm through Thursday, October 14 at 5pm

The next Rally (or, at least, the next Rally that is longer than just one day) will not be happening until end of January.

So. Sequence.

I’m telling you this now.

This afternoon I’m going to rewrite the page where you sign up, because I wrote most of it before I knew just how ridiculously effective rallying would be.

Then it goes to my designer to make it pretty. And then at Drunk Pirate Council, the First Mate and I will likely move the prices up to something not quite as symbolic.

If you can make it, it would be so very lovely to Rally with you.

Reminders.

  • If you’ve signed up for the Week of Biggification (password: pickles), you get one Rally as a bonus. You can come to this one or you can come to one next year.
  • We will keep the rallying small.
  • You don’t have to know what your project to be projectized is yet.
  • Obviously, everyone who comes will get the DIY Kit too when it’s ready.

I think that’s it.

Consider this the official shovel in the dirt for Rally the 2nd: Who Let the Iguanas Out. Or whatever I’m calling it tomorrow.

I’m headed to the Playground. But first I have to buy a bunch of gourds.

Here’s the pre-gorgeousness Rally page again.

If you would like, aside from celebrating and waving checkered flags for Rally (Rally!), I would love to get some help in the comments with:

  • ideas for good schwag
  • names for the next Rally (January)

Can’t wait to meet the next group of Rallions (or was it Rallyscallions?) and to get the DIY Rally-Rig thing done so everyone else can play too. Big love to everyone. Wild zen rumpus!

Side effects.

Interesting phenomenon. There’s this thing that happens while on your way to figuring something out.

Or: on your way to getting something you want.

It’s all the incredibly useful, unlikely and surprising things you manage to learn, discover, untangle, trip over while you’re in the process.

Like this.

At the end of our week-long Destuckification Retreat that Selma and I taught last January in California, Kelly started blogging. All the time.

Before that, she’d been blogging maybe once a month, and hating it.

In the nine months since then, she’s been posting regularly. And loving it. To the point of kind of being addicted. Like I am with posting here.

But it’s not just that. Her posts are also way more fun than they used to be.

She used to write about copywriting. Now she writes about gobstoppers and how to get a truck driver to trust you, and monster puppets eating spaghetti.

Is this good for her business? Obviously. Because in addition to being crazy talented, Kelly is a delightfully kooky individual. Now she’s hooking up with all her right people, and enjoying the hell out of it.

Here’s THE ACTUAL POINT, though.

Kelly didn’t come to the Destuckification Retreat to destuckify her blogging. That wasn’t the point. It wasn’t even on her mind.

When you destuckify one thing, everything else starts falling into place.

That’s just how it works.

It’s like Frank’s hugely inspiring epiphany, which happened during that same week of surprises. It changed the way he looks at everything in his life.

When you get clear on one thing, all sorts of other things — that you didn’t even know you needed clarity on — start moving and shifting. And not in scary ways. In good ways.

It’s like you have more support. More insight and more comfort when you need it.

And then: the new things that grow when you take apart the old.

You know how Eileen and Briana launched the amazing Hopscotch Distillery? With extreme silliness and fabulous shivanautical dance parties where you get work done?

They met and hit it off at my Day of Biggification in Sacramento last December.

I’m pretty sure neither of them showed up thinking, man wouldn’t it be cool if I met an amazing person and we created the best business in the entire world together.

Side effect.

But a really good one.

And it was able to happen, in part, because Eileen and Briana were there to figure out what was getting in the way. They were there to learn about biggifying. Mindfully.

And whenever you actively work on deactivating those Things Getting In The Way, there is so much … spaciousness.

I don’t really know how to describe this accurately but it’s kind of like discovering new rooms in your space.

An entire new floor. That exists just for you. For discovery and creating and being surprised.

Oh, the surprises.

I came to the Destuckification week to teach.

But I was actively using everything I was teaching.

And that’s when I had the vision for the Playground, which has completely altered my business. In really, really good ways.

There are other surprises too.

Like pretty much everything that happened at the Rally (Rally!).

Or the creative collaborations. Maryann and Jacquelyn (who also met at the Destuckification week) are teaching a class together. And advising each other on projects. And making stuff happen.

I admire both of those women so much. But I had no idea what they’d be able to do for each other. It’s completely inspiring I can hardly stand it.

But this is what happens when you work on your stuff.

Obviously, there’s a lot to be said for working with an intention.

And if you’ve ever done the Sunday Very Personal Ads with us, you know that there’s so much clarity that can show up just from trying to figure out what you want and why you want it.

But really, what happens around the intention is so much more interesting.

Because — and this happens a lot — so often the side effects are even cooler and more impressive than the actual original hoped-for results.

The actual point.

Working on your stuff in a conscious, intentional, loving, mindful, gentle way is always good.

And it’s also good for all sorts of things you didn’t even know you needed help with.

It’s something we get to do in small doses here, on the blog. All the time. That’s what we do.

And if you’re one of the people coming to my Week of Biggification (password: pickles) or to the next Rally (October 11-14!), please know this:

The side effects will be more outrageous and wonderful than anything you actually imagine will happen there.

Because that’s how it works.

Ten thousand sparklepoints for side effects.

And yeah, there are ways to access these and intensify them in a more active way too, but for now I really just want to think about the ones that have shown up by accident.

And to look around and wonder what mysterious, glowing, goofy, beautiful side effects might be on their way right now.

May we recognize them when they show up. But you know what? Even if we don’t, I’m pretty sure they’ll end up finding us anyway.

The Fluent Self