Personal ads. They’re … personal! Very.

Each week I write these Visions of Possibility and Anticipation to practice asking for what I want. And to get clarity on what that really is, even when asking feels conflicted.

I invariably discover useful information about my relationship with the thing I think I want, and with the experience of Wanting itself. Join in if you like….

What do I want?

The situation. And background.

I have a bunch of copy to write. God what a boring sentence.

I mean, I have a HAT to decorate!

Anyway, there are words to be written, about a thing, in order to announce that thing.

I want to write these words, I feel confident in my ability to write these words, I am a little anxious about time and timing, because (as we know from last week), I’m dealing with some pretty big [rhymes with headlines] on other projects.

So.

What I want.

I want this to be fun, playful and easy. I want a clean, clear window of time for it. I want lighthearted companionship.

I want it to feel like being at Rally (Rally!)

The qualities inside of the wants:

I’m keeping the eight qualities from the past couple weeks, in the same order.

Trust. Release. Steadiness. Ground. Love. Receive. Miracles. Willingness.

And the superpower or sankalpa of everything falls into place.

What might help?

Ask Richard to make the page pretty so I can just drop the words in.

Do this in the park.

Write it like a secret love letter.

What else might help?

Remembering that this is part of my process of Emptying and Replenishing, not something that is taking me away from it.

Remembering that Incoming Me is wise, so the more time I spend checking in with her on everything, the more smoothly all of this will be.

Do *other* things related to Emptying. Tell people about the secret sail of Toy Shop Emptying.

I’m playing with…

Letting words surprise me. Letting this be more fun than I think it will.

What I want.

Some of these are secret agent code and some are taking a silent retreat on.

Some are qualities and some are dreams. Some are re-asks and some are pre-wishes: tiny seeds for future processing.

• San Diego is full of treasure.
• It’s a genius grant granted, genius.
• Skipping all the stones.
• Focus.
• Nothing that can’t be solved by a bath.
• I know what I need and I know what I want, and this is okay. .
• Solved!

Repeat-wishes

• Resting into miracles.
• Choosing quiet.
• Left-handed labyrinth.
• Perfect simple solutions, suddenly visible!
• Sound effects for my internal video game.
• Being at the 9&9, even when it isn’t nine or nine.
• Ahahaha I am an accidental genius! SOLVED.
• Well-rested: the first and best well.
• What do I need? What do I want?
• Sweet blissful steadiness.
• Things that need to exit now exit gracefully.
• Things that need to come in now are received with love.

The qualities inside of the wants:

Play. Confidence. Focus. Alignment. Love. Release. Glow. Energy.

And the superpower of All Timing Is Right Timing.

I ask for this one every week, but not bored of it yet: Seeing the secret holiness of everything.

Ways this could work.

Joyfully.

I’m playing with…

Being willing to be surprised.

Progress report on past Very Personal Ads.

Okay, last week..

Last week’s ask had to do with changing the soundtrack in my head from You’re So Trucked (okay, rhymes with trucked) to something else. I really liked the TRUCK acronym (trust receive undo create keys), and I also liked knowing that I had a response.

Silent retreat on everything else for now. 🙂

Playing. Shelter for the comments.

What’s welcome: Your own wishes, gwishes, visions and personal ads, small or large. Updates on past ones if you like. Things sparked for your own process.

I’m receptive to warm wishes for the things I’m working on and playing with.

We ask for what we need, and we give each other space and spaciousness for the process.

This is a place of safety for creative play and exploration, with a very non-dogmatic approach. We don’t tell each other how to ask for things and we don’t give unsolicited advice. We play.

That’s it. Let’s throw a bunch of things in the pot!

As always, amnesty applies. Leave a wish here any time you want.

xox

Personal ads. They’re … personal! Very.

Each week I write these Visions of Possibility and Anticipation to practice asking for what I want. And to get clarity on what that really is, evehttps://fluentself.com//wp-admin/admin.php?page=wordpress-related-posts&ref=adminbarn when asking feels conflicted.

I invariably discover useful information about my relationship with the thing I think I want, and with the experience of Wanting itself. Join in if you like….

What do I want?

The situation. And background.

I have two big [rhymes with headlines] coming up and I don’t know how these two things are going to get done in time, if at all.

And, unsurprisingly, the monsters and time gremlins have completely taken over. It is one giant monster trance party pride parade extravaganza in here (at least they’re having fun…).

And their favorite song to dance to has only one line — on repeat, at full volume. And it rhymes with You’re So Trucked.

Over and over again. You can’t do this. It’s not going to work. You’re So Trucked.

What I want.

So yes, it is possible that the dates will arrive, and the thing that, according to my perception of the world, needs to be done by then and by me, will not be done. That is one possibility.

However, the You’re So Trucked soundtrack is not helping me with the getting done. And it certainly won’t help if the reality turns out to be that I have to adjust to the idea of these things not being done.

What I want is to consciously, lovingly, playfully mess with and/or replace the current soundtrack.

For example, I could make up my own We’re So Trucked song, to a different tune. And really, as long as I say “trucked”, it’s already kind of better.

I could respond with: My Darlings, Nothing Is Trucked. A la the Big Lebowski.

Or: I’m so ____________________!

I’m so… in luck? I’m so…challenged in a really interesting and unusual way? I’m so…up for this crazy adventure? I’m so…receptive to miracles and good surprises? I’m so…willing to be surprised at how perfect simple solutions can show up for me?

Maybe TRUCK can become an acronym that stands for something secretly fabulous. In secret agent code. Trust Receive Undo Create Key.

Yeah baby. I’m SO TRUCKED. I’m trusting, receiving, undoing and creating keys.

The qualities inside of the wants:

I’m keeping the eight qualities from the past couple weeks, in the same order.

Trust. Release. Steadiness. Ground. Love. Receive. Miracles. Willingness.

And the superpower or sankalpa of remembering that I don’t know the ending yet, there are lots of ways this could work out.

Also the thing my wonderful uncle Svevo says about how the ROI on worry is traditionally pretty low.

What might help?

Commitment. Play. Readiness.

Operation 5am. Can we rename this?

Support from fellow agents. I might enlist this year’s Shellbacks from my Crossing the Line retreat to be my partners in crime on this. I suspect that playing with it at the Floop will help.

What else might help?

Yoga. Breathing. Conducting.

Eight breaths of Trust and Steadiness.

I’m playing with…

I’m allowed to feel scared, frustrated, whatever it is I’m feeling at any given moment. All feelings are legitimate. And: they are not the whole truth of my being or this experience. They are clues about truth, and they are also distortions of truth.

So as much as I want to focus on Getting The Things Done, my real focus needs to be remembering that I am safe and loved, remembering that I can trust my process as a human being, remembering that how I care for my internal kingdom is the real work.

What I want.

Some of these are secret agent code and some are taking a silent retreat on.

Some are qualities and some are dreams. Some are re-asks and some are pre-wishes: tiny seeds for future processing.

• Pause and breathe. Again. Again.
• Things get solved and resolved surprisingly quickly. Either they get done or they reveal solutions, or something shows up that means they don’t have to get done.
• Skipping all the stones.
• Fractal flowers.
• Writing time in large and small pockets.
• Ha, I didn’t think of that but now it’s making everything better.
• Solved!

Repeat-wishes

• Resting into miracles.
• Choosing quiet.
• Left-handed labyrinth.
• Perfect simple solutions, suddenly visible!
• Sound effects for my internal video game.
• Being at the 9&9, even when it isn’t nine or nine.
• Ahahaha I am an accidental genius! SOLVED.
• Well-rested: the first and best well.
• What do I need? What do I want?
• Sweet blissful steadiness.
• Things that need to exit now exit gracefully.
• Things that need to come in now are received with love.

The qualities inside of the wants:

Sustainability. Shelter. Focus. Plenty. Safety. Transition. Support. Flow.

And the superpower of eventually this level of the video game is going to be pleasurable for me, so why not start smiling now.

I ask for this one every week, but not bored of it yet: Seeing the secret holiness of everything.

Ways this could work.

It just can.

I’m playing with…

Asking for help. Giving myself permission to be a bit of a stressball, because you know what? This situation is actually super challenging, and however I react to it makes sense. Going to bed as early as possible.

Progress report on past Very Personal Ads.

Okay, last week..

Last week’s ask had to do with making peace (or peach) with being a HSP, and living with extreme sensitivities.

I got a lot of opportunities to practice this week, and that was hard but also good. So basically: I’m learning a lot.

And I am feeling good about everything that has been planted. Additionally my wishes to sleep like a happy baby and to show Tino beautiful pieces of Portland both came true in surprisingly magical ways.

Playing. Shelter for the comments.

What’s welcome: Your own wishes, gwishes, visions and personal ads, small or large. Updates on past ones if you like. Things sparked for your own process.

I’m receptive to warm wishes for the things I’m working on and playing with.

We ask for what we need, and we give each other space and spaciousness for the process.

This is a place of safety for creative play and exploration, with a very non-dogmatic approach. We don’t tell each other how to ask for things and we don’t give unsolicited advice. We play.

That’s it. Let’s throw a bunch of things in the pot!

As always, amnesty applies. Leave a wish here any time you want.

xox