What's in the gallery?
We dissolve stuck and rewrite patterns. We apply radical playfulness to life (when we feel like it!), embarking on internal adventures (credo of Safety First). We have a fake band called Solved By Cake. We build invisible sanctuaries, invent words and worlds, breathe awe and wonder.
We are not impressed by monsters. Except when we are. We explore the connections between internal territories and surrounding environment to learn what marvelously supportive delicious space feels like, and how to take exquisite care of ourselves. We transform things.* We glow wild.**
* For example: Desire, fear, worry, pain-and-trauma, boundaries, that problematic word which rhymes with flaweductivity.
** Fair warning: Self-fluency has been known to lead to extremely subversive behavior, including treasuring yourself unconditionally, unapologetically taking up space, experiencing outrageously improbable levels of self-acceptance, and general rejoicing in aliveness.
What's in the gallery?
We dissolve stuck and rewrite patterns. We apply radical playfulness to life (when we feel like it!), embarking on internal adventures (credo of Safety First). We have a fake band called Solved By Cake. We build invisible sanctuaries, invent words and worlds, breathe awe and wonder.
We are not impressed by monsters. Except when we are. We explore the connections between internal territories and surrounding environment to learn what marvelously supportive delicious space feels like, and how to take exquisite care of ourselves. We transform things.* We glow wild.**
* For example: Desire, fear, worry, pain-and-trauma, boundaries, that problematic word which rhymes with flaweductivity.
** Fair warning: Self-fluency has been known to lead to extremely subversive behavior, including treasuring yourself unconditionally, unapologetically taking up space, experiencing outrageously improbable levels of self-acceptance, and general rejoicing in aliveness.
Visions #190: Come as you are, commas.
Personal ads. They’re … personal! Very.
Each week I write these Visions of Possibility and Anticipation to practice asking for what I want. And to get clarity on what that really is, even when asking feels conflicted.
I always get useful information about my relationship with various aspects of the ask. Join in if you like!
Thing 1: Talk to Bond Girl.
Here’s what I want:
Bond girl is my alter-ego and also my new proxy for everything. How would I do thing if I were a Bond girl?
Talking to Bond girl solved all the challenges with reintegrating into daily life after my two weeks of Extra-Silent Radio Silence Silent Retreat at the Vicarage.
And being Bond girl also delivered some exceptionally marvelous (and hilarious) epiphanies last week at Rally (Rally!).
I want to talk to her. Specifically: about how all the missions appear to be equally vital and time-sensitive!
Because right now it seems like there are at least a dozen Important Things that all need my attention and need it now.
(According to the latest and consistently-consistent monster-count, there are seventeen billion Important Things.)
What do I do, Bond Girl?
The qualities inside of the want:
Curiosity. Receptivity. Connection. Internal support. Trust. Faith. Play.
And the superpower of Willingness to Be Surprised.
Ways this might work:
Well, Bond Girl will know if I talk to her.
She will know how this is okay, and how it is all actually right timing even (especially!) when it doesn’t look like right timing.
She will know about fractal flowers and surprising ways it can work. And what can be dropped. She’ll know where to start and how not to get overwhelmed. She will remind me about how to stay in a state of joyful, loving focus.
So really it’s just a matter of getting the time gremlins onboard with taking the time to talk to her. As a form of conscious entry.
I can ask my Internal Scientists to pull out the very compelling data they’ve collected about how the quality of my work improves the more I turn inward first.
I’m playing with…
Patience. Being curious. Asking questions. Dressing like Bond girl, because: costume.
Remembering and calling on the secret Vicarage-superpower of quietly trusting (with a smile and a shrug) that All Timing Is Right Timing.
Thing 2: Operation Watch This, Baby.
Here’s what I want:
There is a situation that currently appears to be a challenge. A big one.
Note: This is not at all the same thing as Watch This Baby. Commas are important!
Except it isn’t really a big challenge because Bond girl is very clear that this is actually not only Not A Disaster but really the best thing ever. Apparently I will be thrilled a few months from now about how this fell apart, so I might as well get on board now.
In the meantime, I need a perfect simple solution please so that neither I nor the First Mate get depleted and exhausted.
The qualities inside of the want:
Spaciousness. Calm. Support. Community. Play. Welcoming.
And all the superpowers of fairy godmothers and frequent flyers.
Ways this might work:
Maybe there is a way that the Frequent Sail-er/Sailor Rewards & Treasures voyage could be activated here too. Interesting…
I can bring this up with the Knights of the Blue Table. I can bring it to the Red Rose Missive and Wednesday’s secret agent session with Our Man In Marin.
And of course, I can keep talking to Bond Girl.
I’m playing with…
Right now, in this moment of silent-retreat-induced peacefulness, I really and truly believe that a solution is going to reveal itself.
So I want to hold on to that feeling.
And if it disappears and I forget, I will go to the conducting vault and conduct some more peacefulness.
And if I forget about that, then I will cry and take a bath or have a nap, and it will be okay.
Thing 3: Operation Dock Deck Five.
Here’s what I want:
I’m going to take a silent retreat on this one.
The qualities inside of the want:
Readiness. Willingness. Sailing. Integrity. Celebration. Joyful delight. Embarking. Humming. Glowing. Radiance. Resonance. Steadiness. Calm. Anticipation. Warmth. Waving from shore.
The superpower of Wait This Could Be Fun If I Let It.
Ways this might work:
You know how on a ship it’s all maintenance all the time? Something is always being fixed, painted, refinished.
Well, someone sat down and came up with a schedule for that.
Also I think we could use some Heinzelmaenchen.
I’m playing with…
Trust, trust and more trust.
Planting the wish that this will be both easier and more fun than I’m imagining.
Can this happen on Toozday? I hope so. Let’s find out!
Thing 4: Sparking the sparks! Vocal excitement about Stompopolis!
Here’s what I want:
Now that Stompopolis has reached her sailing speed and is operating, fully functional, stopping in ports, opened to new mice…
I want people to play with!
And I want joyful excited whispering and note-passing about ohmygod Stompopolis and how this is the most spectacularly magical and extraordinary place in the world. Because it is.
The qualities inside of the want:
Celebration. Discovery. Channels. Joyfulness. Receptivity. Playfulness. Peacefulness. Dance. Doors. Opening. Flowering. Anticipation. Emergence. Expectancy. Sparks. Twinkling.
And the superpowers of being a speakeasy and All The Right People Find Us In All The Right Ways.
Ways this might work:
I would love it if you guys would follow and play with Stompopolis on Facebook and Stompy Twitter and adore our pictures on Instagram (Stompstagram!).
I want PDX-ers and people who live around Portland (the Younger) to get pop-in passes and play, and for far-away Friends of Playground to arrange secret visits.
I want excitement and hopefulness and secret happy whispers.
What else? I could talk to Hope and Dana. I could bring this to the Knights Of The Blue Table. I can play with this at the Floop when the Floop sets sail. Yay Floop!
I’m playing with…
Holding this spark in my hand. Smiling at it because it is so beautiful and now is the time.
Noticings about the things I want this week…
Receptivity is big. Playfulness, unsurprisingly.
And it’s all about releasing attachment to the way I think things should be happening, and let the way that they are happening be okay. Or: change course if I want to. But I’m changing course because I know that everything is good, not because I’m scared or distracted.
Bonus wishes, please!
Some of these are secret agent code and some of them are things I’m silent retreat-ing on. Some are qualities that will help. And some are almost pre-wishes: tiny seeds for future processing.
- Mission: Belated Mishloach Manot.
- Mission: the Red Rose Missive.
- Clews about a certain bathrobe.
- Hush Hush Hat.
- 16 sets of Sunday clews. V is a clew!
- Winning At Pants (is it…just one guy? Hahaha. Chicken joke.)
- Renaming parts of chickens for extra-congruence.
- Operation 6 Week Wonder.
- 36 things you may or may not know…
- A bag with someone else’s name on it.
- Clew mat for Rally…interesting.
- Joyful re-entry!
- Update the about page.
- Hermes of the winged feet.
- Loving-focus and good surprises.
- The Grand Vicarage Chicken Revue. And also reporting back on VPAs.
- Another verb for standing watch? Let’s ask the Officer of the Watch.
- This is right. This is right. This is right.
I’m playing with…
Trust, trust and more trust.
Progress report on past Very Personal Ads.
Just to update you on what’s happened since last time.
I wanted a hot date with Incoming Me, and boy did Rally ever provide that. It was smoking hot. Then I wanted ease-filled transitions, totally happened.
Also I wanted Rally #24 to be amazing. Hahahahahaha. Rally is always amazing. This one was somehow especially so.
And I wanted the superpower of Joyful Presence. Got it. This was a remarkably good week for wishes, apparently. Or maybe I’m just getting better at figuring out what I want. That is also a possibility.
Playing. Shelter for the comments.
What’s welcome: Your own wishes, gwishes, visions and personal ads, small or large. Updates on past ones if you like. Things sparked for your own process.
I’m receptive to warm wishes for the things I’m working on and playing with.
We ask for what we need, and we give each other space and spaciousness for the process.
This is a place of safety for creative play and exploration, with a very non-dogmatic approach. We don’t tell each other how to ask for things and we don’t give unsolicited advice. We play.
That’s it. Let’s throw a bunch of things in the pot!
As always, amnesty applies. Leave a wish here any time you want.
xox
Friday Chicken #239: all hail the Swedish Chef
Where I cover the good and the hard in my week, visiting the non-preachy side of ritual and self-reflection.
And you get to join in if you feel like it.
Oh, man. So much to chicken!
Between re-integrating into daily life after my two weeks of Vicarage, and the wonderful week that was Rally (Rally!) #24…
Well, a lot happened. Internally, at least. I feel happy, peaceful and bubbly, all at the same time. Okay, chicken-chicken-chicken. It is good to be back.
What worked?
This is right.
This is what the superpower I brought back with me from the Vicarage.
Missed bus? Stubbed toe? Terrible mood? Just fell on my ass? Nothing Is Wrong. This is really and truly okay. Not only that, but in this moment, just right now… maybe, possibly, This Is Right.
It’s taken eight years of training plus another week of negotiating with monsters to get to a point where this could work for me. But it’s working.
Silent retreat, again, still. YES.
It is blowing my mind how silent retreat just solves all the problems.
Bork Bork Bork.
B.O.R.K. = The Book of Rally Keys. Bork Bork Bork!
Which I wrote the day before Rally. It made everything better.
Bork Bork Bork is also how the Swedish Chef ends his muppet-ey songs.
It can also a language setting option in video games.
And Bork Bork Bork, the bad-ass blocker for the Windy City Rollers, is someone Havi accidentally sort of ate breakfast with once.
Also it may just be the most fun thing to say ever. Borkborkbork!
Next time I might…
More entry.
Yes, even more than that.
Whenever I start with entry, everything goes marvelously. It is easy to remember that This Is Right, because it so obviously Right.
Whenever I convince myself that there’s no time, I have to employ a lot of intentional remembering that This Is Right.
(Note: this is also right!)
Take the nap as soon as it calls to me.
Mmmm.
Do it like a Bond Girl would.
Best proxy ever.
The hard.
- Got way overloaded the first night back from Vicarage because I wanted to tell R everything, and the thing with living on silent retreat is that post-it note descriptions of things take forever!
- Oh, internet.
- Internet is overwhelming and addictive. I didn’t miss it at all for 15 days and then whoosh, right back in. Pressing for pellets.
- An uncomfortable thing that I deeply dislike that hasn’t happened in years suddenly happened again, unexpectedly, in a situation where there wasn’t much I could do about. Flooded with memories from Then.
- A moment of worry leading to a moment of Rattled.
- Misunderstanding with playmate.
- Adjusting
- Recalibrating.
- Working in the evening.
- There is a lot going on in my life and business right now, and I think I say that a lot, and this needs to change, but in a good way.
- Operation Bork Bork Bork was a gigantic and unanticipated project, and meant I did not get nearly as much rest as I would have liked.
- Knowing what I want.
The good.
- Side effect of This Is Right: This week I was outrageously calm about everything.
- The uncomfortable thing that I dislike that reminded me of Then didn’t trigger me the way it used to. This is the fastest I have ever remembered that Now Is Not Then!
- The superpower of Not Being Impressed By Stuff Going Wrong (and realizing that it’s really just Stuff Appearing To Go Wrong. I had this superpower and it is the best.
- I made a wish that the misunderstanding dissolve in love, and it dissolved in love. Beautifully.
- Unexpectedly having the superpower of Everything Is Significantly Better Than I’d Expected. Like outdoor restrooms actually being really nice. Like the TSA people at the airport treating me with warmth, kindness and respect. And that whole process being so easy that I forgot to be in my stuff and go through trauma and pain from Then. I know, what?!?
- Stopping in (city) on my way back from the Vicarage and having lunch with my beloved Colleen. She is a sign-painter and friends with a monkey!
- Visiting a magical place with sun, skies, sea, grass and a bell (all my favorite things) with Colleen the Signmaker.
- “Honk if you love sanctuary!” The 1st in my new line of bumper stickers that promote loud disruptive acknowledgment of peacefulness and how wonderful it is.
- Hammock-napping at Stompopolis! The best.
- Someone I love has been clean for a whole year. A YEAR.
- Operation Bork Bork Bork made every single thing about Rally better, and I am feeling enormously pleased with myself for having pulled it off.
- All the useful things you learn when your life is on silent retreat.
- Everyone being wonderfully accepting and supportive about the gigantic surprise I brought home with me from the Vicarage.
- Flowers, everywhere! A house filled with flowers.
- Secret Flowers. Seekrit flowers! Even better.
- An unexpectedly sweet homecoming reunion with my playmate.
- My first Valentine since 4th grade!
- Being a Bond Girl. WIth a little help from Kyle.
- Morocco. As a proxy. And then Dublin, possibly not as a proxy.
- The superpower of Outstanding Public Transportation Alignment. Making all the right buses, missing all the right buses and going for all the right walks in the park instead. This Is Right.
- Noticing all the things that are working instead of everything that is incongruent
- Sweet loving reunion with the Playground! We twinkled at each other, it invited me to conduct, and then it beckoned and we played. It was incredible.
- Side effect of the Vicarage: feeling intense overwhelming appreciation and gratitude pretty much all the time. And liking it.
- Writing a vulnerable apology letter to someone I love, and saying: This Is Right. And it was.
- Rally! Rally! Every single thing about Rally. Every single person at Rally. Having the time of my life at Rally.
- Fake French Accent Sound Effect nautical and shivanautical spiraling multi-dimensional multi-axis compassing and encompassing. Honk honk!
- Lunch with Anna. Going to play at Stompopolis and running into Foxy Jess!
- A quiet, happy, loving heart. Humming away.
WHAM BOOM! Operations completed this week:
The phrase Whoosh Ha Mastodon Boom is secret agent code that means: this op is done, baby! It is often shortened to WHAM boom.
Operation POSTCARDS Wham boom!
Operation INTERVIEW A BOND GIRL Wham boom!
Operation ALL THE FLOWERS Wham boom!
Operation KIWI SLEEP Wham boom!
Operation PORTALS Wham boom!
Operation BORK BORK BORK Wham boom!
Whoosh Ha Mastodon Boom! Wham Boom! Wham Boom!
You may also shout (or whisper) other joyous words if you like.
Superpowers!
A superpower I had this week…
So many superpowers! I especially liked the superpower of finding beauty everywhere. This was amazing.
I also had the superpower of knowing that stuff resolves itself. Each time I had a worry about something (“What about X?!”), I remembered: Oh right. It will resolve itself. And then it did!
Yes. And then it did.
And a superpower I want next week.
The superpower of Land Ho! Seeing land way before arriving, knowing that the good things are coming before they are obviously visible. Land Ho!
Playing live at the meme beach house — the Fake Band of the Week!
Background. Ez and I make up bands. Stu (retired Bolshevik-fearing voice-to-text software) once invented hanging out at the Meme Beach House“. It’s just one guy.
This week’s band comes via Molly, with a nod and a wink to the other wonderful people at Rally.
Sex And The Trade Winds
I guess they’re a surf band?
Though, of course, it’s really just one guy.
Hallo Hallo! I am saying Hallo Hallo. Announcement time.
Picture me wearing that crazy hat…
I’m going to recommend the monster manual & coloring book.
Because I never would have gotten to half the good things of this week without knowing how to gracefully navigate monster conversations.
That’s it for me …
Join my Friday ritual in the comments if you feel like it. Or call silent retreat!
We let people have their own experience. We’re supportive and welcoming. And we don’t give advice (unless people specifically ask for it).
Wishing you a glorrrrrrrrrrrrious day, a restful weekend and a happy week to come.
Shabbat shalom.
p.s. It’s fine if it’s not Friday anymore. There’s complete chicken amnesty — join in whenever (or not) and it’s no big deal.
Visions #189: A hot date with Incoming Me
Personal ads. They’re … personal! Very.
Each week I write these Visions of Possibility and Anticipation to practice asking for what I want. And to get clarity on what that really is, even when asking feels conflicted.
I always get useful information about my relationship with various aspects of the ask. Join in if you like!
Thing 1: More about transition.
Here’s what I want:
The Vicarage changed everything, as I knew it would.
Now it’s time for integration. And quiet processing. This is the voyage after the voyage.
The qualities inside of the want:
Presence. Grace. Trust. Congruence. Playfulness. Flow. Attentiveness. Quiet.
And the superpower of having a library whenever I need one.
Ways this might work:
Using silent retreat for everything.
I’m playing with…
Taking notes on the process for next time.
Thing 2: RALLY!
Here’s what I want:
This week is Rally (Rally!).
It is Rally #24, which is a lot of Rallies to have rallied/verb-ed.
And it’s been several months since the last Rally.
I want all the Rally superpowers to show up!
The qualities inside of the want:
Ease. Trust. Shelter. Hilarity. Play. Grounding. Spaciousness. Containment
The superpowers of Rally: Everything that happens at Rally is part of Rally. Nothing is wrong. Clews are everywhere. Proxies solve everything. Away Rio.
And the superpower of being the secret queen of the Humming Castle.
Ways this might work:
Well, you know. The fountain probably knows.
And the compass. I can use the compass.
I’m playing with…
Silent retreat.
Thing 3: A hot date with Incoming Me.
Here’s what I want:
Having just had two whole weeks to do nothing but sit with incoming me, it feels weird to have to schedule us-time.
I want us to PLAY.
The qualities inside of the want:
Sweetness. Excitement. Commitment. Delight. Wonder. Time.
And the superpower of following instincts unhesitatingly.
Ways this might work:
I don’t have to know this yet.
I’m playing with…
Finding out what would make this fun. It has to do with presence…
Thing 4: Related: the superpower of Joyful Presence.
Here’s what I want:
Either I make things fun through being present. Or I use fun to help myself be more present.
But this is the quality that I bring to things.
There is a version of me who knows how to do this, and I’m going to get to know her better.
It feels like getting ready for going out dancing. But my hot date is with me.
The qualities inside of the want:
Delight. Tingly anticipation. Willingness. Playfulness. Laughter. Curiosity. Presence.
And the superpower of secret smiles. Also the superpower of being TROUBLE. But in a good way.
Ways this might work:
I don’t have to know this yet.
I’m playing with…
Being clear about how I want to feel.
Noticings about the things I want this week…
It’s all about PLAY. Unsurprisingly. Which means: wear more costumes and let everything be a costume. I’m taking this to the Bat Cave!
Bonus wishes, please!
Some of these are secret agent code and some of them are things I’m silent retreat-ing on. Some are qualities that will help. And some are almost pre-wishes: tiny seeds for future processing.
- Mini-epiphanies.
- Letting the compass do what it needs to do.
- Quiet companionship.
- Bus passes.
- Playmate playmate playmate.
- Stones.
- Clues
- Treasure.
- Rest.
- FLOWERS.
- Using the vault.
- I hate to use the phrase “trust the process”, but oh man: trust the process.
I’m playing with…
Being at Stompopolis. Humming the hum.
Progress report on past Very Personal Ads.
Just to update you on what’s happened since last time.
Silent retreat for now…
Playing. Shelter for the comments.
What’s welcome: Your own wishes, gwishes, visions and personal ads, small or large. Updates on past ones if you like. Things sparked for your own process.
I’m receptive to warm wishes for the things I’m working on and playing with.
We ask for what we need, and we give each other space and spaciousness for the process.
This is a place of safety for creative play and exploration, with a very non-dogmatic approach. We don’t tell each other how to ask for things and we don’t give unsolicited advice. We play.
That’s it. Let’s throw a bunch of things in the pot!
As always, amnesty applies. Leave a wish here any time you want.
xox
Friday Chicken #238: Hello again!
Where I cover the good and the hard in my week, visiting the non-preachy side of ritual and self-reflection.
And you get to join in if you feel like it.
Hello, hello!
I am back from my two beautiful weeks away at the VICARAGE, where I was on a (mysterious spy op!) silent retreat that I can’t talk about, because: silent retreat.
And I should mention that I’m feeling a bit wobbly because everything is slightly different now. Good-different. Just in the transition.
What worked?
Silent retreat!
Asking for the superpower of Easy Transitions, and then processing that.
Next time I might…
Anticipate the fact that transitions themselves are actually not that easy by their very nature.
So helping them become easier means building in spaciousness. And time. Lots of time.
It means lots of conscious entry. Also anticipating that however much time I think I need is probably way-way-way lowballing it.
Next time I will plant a reminder that there is nothing wrong with the wobble, or with the fact that I am in it. It is a temporary, natural, normal part of landing. Like when you first walk on land after a long sojourn at sea. You haven’t forgotten how to walk. This is just the time for adjusting.
The hard.
- Transitions.
- Flux.
- I don’t want to be done yet.
The good.
- Horizon.
- Water.
- Dance
- Understandings.
- Process.
- Anticipation.
- Knowing
- Returning. Returning.
- Realizations and epiphanies.
- Seeing friends on the way back.
- Home.
- Oh, phone and internet and modern conveniences! It is nice to see you again, you crazy dangerous beautiful drugs.
- My bedroom.
- Appreciation for the me who set this up and the me who will return.
- Secret flowers. And all the flowers.
Superpowers!
A superpower I had this week…
The superpower of deciding that this time is the right time.
And a superpower I want next week.
All the superpowers of landing and landings, everything that has to do with land and ground and earth and anchors.
Playing live at the meme beach house — the Fake Band of the Week!
Background. Ez and I make up bands. Stu (retired Bolshevik-fearing voice-to-text software) once invented hanging out at the Meme Beach House“. It’s just one guy.
This week’s band comes by way of @vicarpac, who incidentally is in charge of reminding me to take time off. They’re noisy and goofy and full of surprises.
Phantom Thumb Drink.
Though, of course, it turns out that it’s really just one guy.
Hallo Hallo! I am saying Hallo Hallo. Announcement time.
Picture me wearing that crazy hat…
I again recommend the class on TIME. You’ll need it for the Year of Emptying and Replenishing (password: compass), which begins soon and is going to be amazing.
That’s it for me …
Join my Friday ritual in the comments if you feel like it. Or call silent retreat!
We let people have their own experience. We’re supportive and welcoming. And we don’t give advice (unless people specifically ask for it).
Wishing you a glorrrrrrrrrrrrious day, a restful weekend and a happy week to come.
Shabbat shalom.
p.s. It’s fine if it’s not Friday anymore. There’s complete chicken amnesty — join in whenever (or not) and it’s no big deal.
Visions #188: turning around
Personal ads. They’re … personal! Very.
Each week I write these Visions of Possibility and Anticipation to practice asking for what I want. And to get clarity on what that really is, even when asking feels conflicted.
I always get useful information about my relationship with various aspects of the ask. Join in if you like!
Note! I am still away on silent retreat at the VICARAGE.
So this week’s visions will be quieter than usual because: silent retreat!
Thing 1: Finding the fountain.
Here’s what I want:
Alon gave me a clew before I left for the Vicarage.
And the clew was Find the fountain.
Not a fountain. Find the fountain.
And I have seen some fountains. But this is about finding the fountain.
The qualities inside of the want:
Presence. Revealing. Water. Passage. Delight. Resonance. Recognition. Internal quiet. Willingness. Trust. Congruence. Remembering.
And the superpower of following instincts: knowing when to turn left, when to look up, when to pause.
Ways this might work:
Listening for the splashing sounds. Knowing that water holds and transports and cleanses.
I’m playing with…
Taking things to that fountain.
Thing 2: Easy transition.
Here’s what I want:
This week I return from the Vicarage and I am not ready to return from the Vicarage, and oh, process.
I want this transition to be easy, pleasurable, straightforward.
The qualities inside of the want:
Protection. Tenderness. Vulnerability. Passage. Safety. Shelter. Simplicity. Laughter. Presence. Delight. Wonder. Crossing. Readiness. Unveiling. Revealing. Watching. Welcoming. Trust.
And the superpowers of This Doesn’t Have To Be Hard and I Don’t Have To Do Anything Because It Is Already Happening..
Ways this might work:
Well, you know. The fountain probably knows.
And the compass. I can use the compass.
I’m playing with…
Silent retreat.
Thing 3: Time for entry and exit.
Here’s what I want:
There is a version of me who knows how to bring the Vicarage with her, and who knows how to make enough room for all the things I will be feeling about the return. I want to access what she knows.
And I want to make this the softest, quietest landing possible.
The qualities inside of the want:
Sweetness. Steadiness. Acknowledgment. Comfort. Care. Harmony. Wisdom. Patience. Steadfastness. Grounding. Enthusiasm. Sovereignty. Hope.
And the superpower of being able to take exquisite care of myself. Exquisite care. Yes.
Ways this might work:
I don’t have to know this yet.
I’m playing with…
Being clear about how I want to feel.
Noticings about the things I want this week…
I know so much more about what I want than I think I do. And I care so much less about the how than I ever have before.
Trust trust trust trust trust trust trust. And taking exquisite care of all of my selves.
Bonus wishes, please!
Some of these are secret agent code and some of them are things I’m silent retreat-ing on. Some are qualities that will help. And some are almost pre-wishes: tiny seeds for future processing.
- Elasticity.
- Letting silent retreat be its own buffer.
- Sunshine.
- People who are enthusiastic about my return.
- Playmate.
- Stones.
- Clues
- Treasure.
- Rest.
- Flowers and secret flowers and all the flowers.
- This is the right time to come back.
- Following the compass. Vitality leads.
I’m playing with…
When you love something, you create safety for it. Like with a tiny, sweet thing. So what about when I am my own tiny sweet thing?
Progress report on past Very Personal Ads.
Just to update you on what’s happened since last time.
I’m going to take a silent retreat on this too. Will report back once I’ve returned and landed.
Playing. Shelter for the comments.
What’s welcome: Your own wishes, gwishes, visions and personal ads, small or large. Updates on past ones if you like. Things sparked for your own process.
I’m receptive to warm wishes for the things I’m working on and playing with.
We ask for what we need, and we give each other space and spaciousness for the process.
This is a place of safety for creative play and exploration, with a very non-dogmatic approach. We don’t tell each other how to ask for things and we don’t give unsolicited advice. We play.
That’s it. Let’s throw a bunch of things in the pot!
As always, amnesty applies. Leave a wish here any time you want.
xox